"It was you..." River said, still looking at me in shock. I took off my earpiece and threw it at the ground.

"River..." I called.

"H-how?" he asked.

"I have my reasons," I answered.

He just shook his head before turning back, starting to walk away.

"River." I chased after him and held his arm. "Will you tell?"

He looked up and sighed before looking at me again. "I don't know."

"Just listen to me please," I begged.

"Maybe later. Hindi ko pa maproseso lahat ng nangyayari," sabi niya bago hinugot ang braso mula sa pagkakahawak ko. "I don't know who you are anymore," he said, looking directly at my eyes before walking away.

I massaged my head. Everything is so fucked up! This is not the life I imagined after getting in here. Who knew wanting to be part of this administration can be this risky?

★・★・★

"I don't know who you are anymore."

"Fucking hell!" I exclaimed before hugging my knees and closing my eyes. Ilang oras na ang nakalipas matapos makita ni River ang pagpatay ko kay Missy. His words kept replaying in my mind over and over. Mas nakakadagdag pa siya sa guilt na kumakain sa akin ngayon. I've been a bad person. I've become a person worthy of rotting in hell.

Akala ko magsasabi agad si River sa iba pero hindi. Wala akong narinig na kahit ano. Hindi niya ginising si Ridge or si Aria para ipaalam sa kanila na ako yung impostor.

Should I just surrender? Dapat bang tumawag na ako sa pulis at isuko ang sarili ko?

"Bakit ka ba nagsisisigaw diyan?" tanong ni Aria nang buksan niya yung door sa small space niya.

"It's nothing," sagot ko.

Lumapit sa akin si Aria at naupo sa tabi ko. "You don't look okay. Natulog ka ba?"

"Hindi ako makatulog," I answered truthfully.

"Bakit?" she asked.

I sighed. "Dapat na ba akong sumuko?"

I know she wouldn't get what I was talking about but I need an answer. Just one answer before I decide on whether imprisoning myself would be the best option.

"Sumuko saan?" Nangunot ang noo niya. "Kay River?"

I didn't answer but gave her a small smile instead.

"I guess, do what you think is right," she said and just like that, I already knew what I have to do.

Tumayo na ako at nagpaalam sa kanya na may pupuntahan. Naglakad ako papunta sa male quarters. Kailangan malaman niya kung ano ang desisyon ko.

"River, I– OH, MY GOD!" I yelled when I saw Ridge inside River's bunker with only his underwear on. Napahiyaw din siya. "Anong ginagawa mo dito?" I asked while covering my eyes.

"May naiwan akong suit dito kay River, eh! Bakit ba kasi hindi ka kumatok?" inis na saad niya.

"Excuse me! You shouldn't even be changing here in the first place. Kaya nga may banyo!" I countered.

"Wala naman kaming pakielamanan dito. Kulang na lang maghubad ako sa harap nila River, Kevin, and others," sabi niya. "Nasaan nga pala si Kevin? Parang hindi ko pa siya nakikita."

I bit my lip. They still don't know that he died before Chanel did.

I yelped when someone pulled me away from River's space and brought me to the hallway. "Aray! Sino bang–"

"Why were you watching Ridge change his clothes?" tanong ni River.

"Gago ka ba? Sa tingin mo gusto ko makita yung matabang katawan nung mukhang lupang yun?" I retorted.

"Hoy, Adara! Narinig ko yun!" Ridge yelled.

Bumuntong-hininga si River bago ako hinila papunta sa end ng hall. Siniguro niya munang hindi na kami naririnig ni Ridge.

"Ano bang ginagawa mo dito?" tanong ni River.

"You should know why I did those things. I am not doing this for you to change your perspective about me," I said. "You were right, even I don't know who I am anymore. Everything is so fucked up."

"Ano bang nangyari?"

"There's this guy. Sol ang pangalan niya. Remember how we got in here suddenly after many attempts?" I asked and he nodded. "Siya ang nagpasok sa atin dito."

"What?"

"Kapalit nun, kailangan ko gawin ang hinihiling niya which is patayin lahat ng crewmates natin. If I don't do that, you will..." I wasn't able to finish my sentence because I suddenly remembered the consequence.

River held my trembling hands. "I will what?"

"You will die," I whispered. "He will murder you and I can't let that happen," I said before tears fell from my eyes.

"Adara..."

"This is why I'm planning to surrender to the police. Maybe I'll ask for your protection while I rot in jail," pagsabi ko ng plano ko.

"No, hindi ka tatawag ng pulis," he said.

"What?" I asked, shocked by his answer. Akala ko papayag siya na gawin ko ang tama.

"Hindi ka magpapakulong," he said firmly.

"River, it's what I deserve," I said, trying to make him understand that there's no part of goodness in my deed. "Pumatay ako ng tao! Hindi lang isa, hindi lang dalawa, anim silang binawian ko ng buhay!"

"Gusto mo ba talaga makulong? Gusto mo maranasan ang buhay sa kulungan?" he asked. From his tone, I can sense that he's worried.

"Of course not! Kaso River, wala na akong choice," I answered.

"Meron pa," he countered.

"Ano bang–"

"Don't kill Aria and Ridge. You should stop with the murders. Palalabasin nating si Missy ang may gawa ng lahat and then she killed herself by jumping in the pit," he said before holding both of my arms like he's telling me to play along.

"River..."

"Trust me on this one, Dara."

"Hindi 'to tama." I removed my arms from his grasp.

"And you think murdering people was right?" he asked. I scoffed. "If you did that to protect me, I should do the same for you," he said in a calm tone.

"River, thank you pero handa na ako pagbayaran yung mga pagkakamali ko," sagot ko.

"No, Adara. This is not up for discussion," he retorted.

"River, please..."

"I don't want to see you suffer inside that hellhole!" he exclaimed. "So, Adara, please just stick with my plan."

I bit my lower lip before nodding. "Okay." I sighed. "Let's do that."

★・★・★

"River, please gising ka na buong umaga, pati ba naman buong gabi," I told River because he kept on following me and helping me do my tasks.

"Nag-aalala ako sayo," sabi niya.

"Kung akala mo papatayin ko si Ridge at Aria, I will not," I assured.

"That is not what I'm worried about," pagcorrect niya.

"Eh, ano?"

"Paano kung may gawin sayong masama yung Sol na yun?" he answered.

I sighed. "Hindi niya gagawin yun kasi ikaw ang target niya dito."

"Kahit na," sabi niya na alam kong wala nang maisagot dahil tama ako. "Hindi niya pa naman alam na hindi mo na papatayin si Ridge at Aria, 'di ba?"

Hindi ko sinuot yung earpiece ko buong gabi kasi alam kong kukulitin lang ako ni Sol na patayin na si Aria and Ridge. Ayoko ring marinig niya lahat ng usapan namin ni River.

"Hindi niya pa alam pero I don't know. He has eyes everywhere. Alam na siguro niya," sagot ko.

"Padating naman na sila Venus tonight. All of this will end soon, I promise." River gave me a soothing smile.

"Okay, who did it?" tanong ni Aria pagkapasok na pagkapasok sa observatory.

"What are you talking about?" tanong ko.

"Tayong apat na lang ang natitira dito. Everyone is gone and they were murdered for sure," sagot ni Aria.

Bigla naman ako nanlamig. "So, you think it's one of us?"

"Paano kung isa sa mga namatay yung gumawa nun then nagpakamatay siya so that he won't get in trouble," sabi ni River, trying his hardest to cover my mistakes.

"Kung ganoon na nga, bakit itinira niya pa tayo?" tanong ni Ridge. Pareho naman kaming natahimik ni River.

He does have a point.

"Ang tagal na natin magkakasama. Hindi na kayo ibang tao, pamilya na ang turingan natin dito," Ridge emotionally said.

"Just confess. Please if you did it, tell us. We'll do the best thing we can to lower your sentence. We'll give you the best lawyer. Just confess," Aria encouraged.

"Bakit naman nagcoconclude kayo agad na isa sa aming dalawa ni Adara yung impostor?" River asked, getting irritated.

"Hindi namin kaya pumatay," Aria answered.

"Oh, so kami kaya namin?" hindi makapaniwalang tanong ni River. "That's a load of bullshit! Maybe pinagbibintangan mo kami kasi ikaw yung impostor!"

"River, how dare you!" Aria said in disbelief.

"Pare, tama na," pag-awat ni Ridge kay River.

"Paano niyo nakayanan na pagdudahan kami?!" hindi pa rin makapaniwalang saad ni River.

"Stop, please. Walang magandang maidudulot yung pag-aaway natin," I said, trying to calm everyone down.

"Sige, ganito. If you are the impostor, parang awa mo na, please step forward. Let's be honest to each other. Hindi ka naman namin papabayaan. Just give us one valid reason why we should protect you at all costs," pakikipag-compromise ni Aria.

That moment alam ko nang yun yung go signal para aminin ko na ako ang may kasalanan. Yun talaga ang dapat kong gawin. Yun ang tama, I know that now.

Hahakbang na sana ako paabante nang biglang hinawakan ni River ang braso ko at pinigilan ako. I looked at him and furrowed my eyebrows, asking why he gripped my arm.

My eyes widened when he looked away and stepped forward.

"I did it," pag-amin niya. Ridge and Aria gasped while I was still looking at River in shock.

"River, what are you doing?" I whispered.

"I killed everyone," sabi niya na parang hindi ako narinig. "I'm the impostor."