We walk down the stairs in silence. He hasn't asked why I was in his room and he hasn't tried to make conversation. I think he gave up since I never answer and he rather talks to himself. "Do you need ice?" he asks as soon as we arrive in the kitchen and I look at him confused.

"For your head?" he adds and I shake my head. It doesn't hurt that bad. "Sure?" he asks and I nod my head. "Again... I am sorry. I didn't mean to scare you like that," he says and I just smile. I am not mad at him.

I just need some time to... adjust. "I thought we could maybe watch a movie or something like that?" he asks and I nod. I haven't watched a movie in months. "You can choose," he says. I think he tries to get me to talk.

"Santa Clause," I say and he looks at me confused. "It's summer you know that?" he asks and I nod my head. "I haven't celebrated christmas," I say the sad truth. I could have but I prefered spending my evening in my room.

"You haven't? But they had a party, hadn't they?" he asks and I nod my head. "I am just not so fond of people," I say and he nods slowly. Suddenly the door bell rings and Simon opens the door to get our pizza. I am not hungry and all I want to do is sleep but I don't want to ruin this moment by saying something.

"Pizza is here," he says and places it on the counter. "I hope you are hungry," he says and smiles at me. No, but I don't say that. Instead I just smile back and sit down opposite of him. He begins to eat and I take a small bite of a slice.

I look at it and feel like throwing up. I force myself to continue eating but after the second slice I feel my stomach rejecting the unhealthy food so I run to the bathroom as fast as possible. I open the toilet seat and throw up everything inside of me.

I feel somebody pull back my hair and hear Simon's soothing voice calming me down. After I finally stopped throwing up, I rinse my mouth out and lean against the counter. I sigh and rub my hands over my face.

"Are you sure you are alright?" he asks and I nod my head. "Not every food goes well with the medication I am on," I lie and he nods his head. "Do you want to lay down for a bit?" he asks and I nod my head. "Call me if you need anything," he says and I nod my head.

I walk up to my room and close the door behind me. I close the curtain and change into my sleeping shirt. I pull the covers back and get into the bed. I close my eyes and try to fall asleep but every little sound makes me jump. I look around the room, scared.

"Amanda everything is fine... Nobody will hurt you," I say to myself and close my eyes again. I hear a loud bang and scream at the top of my lungs. I hear somebody run up the stairs and crawl into the corner of the room and hide my face. I begin to cry uncotrollably and rock back and forth, hoping nobody will come in.

The door is yanked open and I wince. "Amanda... What happened?" Simon asks and wraps his arms around me. I try to relax but I just can't. "Amanda calm down..." he says and pulls me even closer.

My crying begins to get less and less until I am completly calm again. "What happened?" he asks and I look up into his eyes. "I am scared," I say and he kisses my forehead. "You don't need to be. I am here and I won't go anytime soon," he says and smiles at me.

"You don't understand... I can't calm down. I don't want to sleep alone," I say and he helps me stand up. "Then you'll sleep with me," he says and I look at him surprised. I don't like that idea at all but it's better than my other option.

I slowly nod my head and he walks with me into his bedroom. "Lay down and I'll be there in no time," he says and I slowly lay down, still feeling scared. I wait for him to come back and I finally relax as soon as he walks into the room.

"Just relax Mandy..." he says and I close my eyes, my back turned to him. I don't want to get too close. He lies behind me and I can feel his warm breath on my neck. I am bothered but don't dare to say anything.

I feel myself slowly drifting off to sleep but then another one of these flashback hits me.

"For gods sake stop breathing against my neck or I'll freaking kill you!" I yell and turn to face him. "Chill," he says and throws his hands into the air. "I am sorry that I exist!" he says and I sigh. "I don't want you to be here and I fucking hate you!" I yell and slap him across the face.

"I can't change the fact your parents chose me to be your boyfriend..." he says and I huff. "I should kill you as soon as I have the chance," I say and he laughs.

"You don't mean that and you know it... You wouldn't dare," he says and I know he is right. I would never try to kill him. I can't kill anybody.