Stories I read
Characters I met
I was happy
They were happy

Yet it never lasts long
One has to die
One has to be killed

It's okay, I lie to myself
I'm okay, I convince myself
But, now, I know I'm lying
It's not okay
It won't be

A Death is a Death
No refunds on that
It reminds me of the real world
A place I avoid

Tears stream down my face
And I don't care
I can't avoid reality
I realized it

No matter what I do
A reminder is always there
All I can do is sigh and move on

It's funny how I have to move on
It's funny how I have to pretend
It's funny how I will forget soon

Yet I still cried
And still mourned
It hurt the very same like the beginning

Why?
Because reality is reality
And it always calls back

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* Spolier about 'Days of Hana' *
So, I was reading a webtoon called Days of Hana ( it's honestly so well written and beautiful) and there were so many characters that died and when Haru died, I just lost it. I was reading at night and I legit cried myself to sleep because I couldn't take it. I'm still pretty disturbed honestly and I will be because the English version will be completed next week and I spoiled it for myself by reading spoilers.

*Spoiler ends*

I decided to write this because I don't like reading sad stories and yet I always find myself  reading them because there is never a warning. The more I avoid it, the more I read it :( . This was inspired by that and I hope I was able to convey it well.

Take care,
Anera