I looked over to my husband who was laying there beside our scared little boy. I just hope everything turns outs okay. Xavier has been real quiet lately, ever since he's lost his sight to see. I still can't help but feel like there's hope for him yet. Every night before I go to bed I pray for our baby to heal and everyday I pray he'll make it through the hardships. I looked over to them again, then to Shay's stomach. To know there's a baby inside that I wasn't supposed to know about really bothered me. I know how much Shay loved to surprise me, but he's going have to tell me soon, it's obvious now and isn't easily overlooked. I just hope this one will be healthy. I don't like the stress that's built in me due to our last child. Seeing him there looking peaceful made me worry since sometimes he looks so peaceful that I don't even know if he's still alive. He seems so happy, though I wonder how could that even be. He's slowly losing parts of his body, but yet somehow he can find happiness in it all when he can't even see what's going on around him. He was still young and hopeful, still seeing the good in the worst of situations. I have to keep that spark in him. He can't give up just because people say he's a lost cause. He's not. He's my son; and I love him for that. "Kai!" I looked over to my husband. "Yes, what is it love?" I went over to him. "Could you take care of pookie, I'm not feeling so good," yeah, because you're fucking pregnant Shay! I simply nodded and took our baby boy from him. Xavier whimpered as he leaned into me more. "Shhh, it's okay baby," I tell him softly, rocking him ever so slowly that it would almost appear as if I was standing still. "Oh, why you look so sad, the tears are in your eyes,
Come on and come to me now, and don't be ashamed to cry,
Let me see you through, 'cause I've seen the dark side too.
When the night falls on you, you don't know what to do,
Nothing you confess could make me love you less,
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you
So if you're mad, get mad, don't hold it all inside,
Come on and talk to me now.
Hey there, what you got to hide?
I get angry too, well, I'm alive like you.
When you're standing at the cross roads,
And don't know which path to choose,
Let me come along, 'cause even if you're wrong
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you.
Baby, even to your darkest hour, and I'll never desert you,
I'll stand by you.
And when, when the night falls on you baby,
You're feeling all a lone, you're wandering on your own,
I'll stand by you.
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you, baby even to your darkest hour,
And I'll never desert you,
I'll stand by you,
I'll stand by you.
I'll stand by you, won't let nobody hurt you,
I'll stand by you, baby even to your darkest hour,
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you" I sang him softly like I always did. It always seemed to calm him. I look over to see Shay smiling at me slightly. "Need anything?" I asked him. "I need to tell you something," he says weakly. I sighed as I looked to him. "I know you're pregnant Shay," I tell him, causing his face to get red. "H-how?" He asked. "It's obvious," I say to him. He blushed and hid his stomach. "No, I don't mean you look fat or anything," I tell him. He really kinda did have a baby bump, though I only noticed it now, when he tried hiding it the most. "I'm sorry," he looked down. "No Shay, it's okay baby," I tell him as I gently rocked Xavier more. "We've just been caught up in so many complications with Xavier that-" I cut him off. "Just get some rest, it's okay," I tell him. He nodded a little as he slowly closed his eyes. I sighed softly and looked at our poor baby boy. "Looks like you're going to be a big brother," I say softly to the sleeping child. "I just hope that this one will be alright," I muttered so no one could hear me.