"Okay..,just think, i have too remember what he looked like.." tord said too himself quietly, but no matter how hard he thought, He couldn't remember what he looked like.

Right, again, forgetting too fill you all in on the story.
It has been 5 days since my trip too the pond, i still have not yet found out who my mysterious lover is. Back too the story.

Tord took a few deep breaths, his hands were shaking and he was almost about too cry.
He wanted too feel love again, real love, something he only had with a guy he couldn't remember. He had multiple fights with tom in the past few days, even the mention of tords mysterious crush would make him avoid talking, it was clear too everyone but Tord. Tom knew something that he wasn't saying.
Tom had also started drinking more, he'd get so drunk that his body felt numb, the normal fire in his attitude had turned into a raging wildfire.

Tord sat beside the lake, he stared down at his reflection, his mind was a mess, thousands of thoughts clouding his view on reality.
Maybe this guy was never real, maybe tord had made him up too fill the void that he felt. But Tord knew he only thought this so the emptiness he felt would go away, but it never did, it only got worse. His mind was filled with suicidal thoughts, he would never be complete without the boy he had forgotten. The boy that broke his heart.

Tord took a running start and jumped into the pond, well, it was more like a lake.
It wasn't the deep, it only reached thighs, instead of going up for air he stayed underwater. The water filled his lungs, but still, he didn't want air, where be was going he didn't need it either. As the world started too go dark, so did his mind, he knew it was over. A hand grabbed him by his hoodie, dragging him too the surface. He coughed out water, the air reaching his lungs as he gasped for air.

"What the hell is wrong with you commie!?" Tom yelled as he dropped Tord onto the soft grass. "How.....how did you get here!" Tord tackled tom too the ground, this was Tords sanctuary, not some public pool for tom too intrude on. "I followed you here" he said calmly, it was a lie, but he would never admit that.

Tord burst out crying and hugged tom, he never really wanted too die. He was scared too live, but also scared too die. Toms rage died down, seeing tord brake down and start crying reminded him of a certain memory.

Tord and tom walked back home in complete silence, Tord wanted too believe that tom might be able too fill that emptiness, he wanted too believe that he could love again.
Tord stopped walking and reached his arms out too tom, he wanted too be carried, his legs were sore and he was tired. Tom reluctantly picked tord up and held him closely, the warmth of the hug made tord smile. Tord purred quietly, burying his face in the crook of toms neck, it was nice, relaxing, Tord felt safe.

Tom opened the door carefully, making sure not too wake the sleeping norski, he layed tord down on the couch, covering him with a blanket too keep him warm.
Edd sat down in the counter, a smirk appearing on his already knowing face, 'truth. Your 'him' " the male spoke like he already knew the answer, and he did.

"Edd..i....true." Tom gave up on finding an excuse, his face was cherry red, he knew there was no lying too his best friend, he knew that Edd knew.
Edd's calm expression turned into a look of rage, "you mean...Tord has been staying awake for weeks too find someone that has been living right next too him.."
Tom quickly hid his guilt, glaring at Edd with a look of hatred, "i don't want too love him! He's my enemy."

Edd and tom had a very long discussion about the matter, Edd finally agreeing too keep toms secret, the norski would never have too know he was in love with his enemy, best for both of them. Well, best for one of them.

Tord and tom were watching a movie and cuddling, tom said he was just cold. he did love Tord, but he would never admit it. Tord took a shaky breath, his face was cherry red, he had fallen in love again. But he could not give up on his mysterious lover, he still wanted the emptiness he felt too go away, he needed too finally feel complete.
But....tom made him feel complete, but he couldn't love tom, he still had someone out there that he loved, little did he know he was cuddling with that person.

Tords eyes slowly closed, his head resting on toms shoulder, a quiet "i love you.." escaping his lips before he fell asleep. Tom mumbled a quick, "goodnight..." before he also fell asleep, holding the small norski closer.

This was perfect, a true love story, if only it was that simple, if only it actually happened that way...

Tords sleep was tormented by nightmares, he was scared too leave tom, he was scared too live. A few times he started screaming in his sleep, the tormented thought of losing tom was killing him from the inside out, but also the thought of losing his long since forgotten lover, or, ex-lover. Tord woke up crying, waking tom up in the process. Instead of yelling or fighting tord, tom pulled tord onto his lap and held him tightly, "its okay.." he whispered in a sweet tone, it meant absolutely everything too tord, tom cared.

For the next few days Tord had not left toms side, even though tom didn't show any interest in the norski, Tord didn't care. Tord wanted too feel complete.

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