Love, love, love, all I do is love ~ Lover

"What's going on? Why aren't you eating?"

I didn't say anything, and I think he understood that I wasn't going to anytime. He huffed.

"Fine, I'll let it go for now, but you're going to tell me later. For now," he let go of me and I found myself clutching onto him without realising. He noticed and placed me down gently. "I'm going to go and make us those promised food and we're going to watch something together, okay? Anything at all, you can choose. I won't mind at all and I know that I'll enjoy it with you, okay?"

I stared at his retreating figure, wondering what he was thinking. Why would he suggest something so heartwarming? 

Did he care? Did he suddenly care, because he'd noticed my effort for him to like my smaller body? Did he like my new look? The younger, smaller, thinner me?

Had I finally succeeded?

Is the feeling of my stomach twisting in anticipation the feeling after winning?

I stared at the blank screen at the opposite side of the room, noticing the remote glaring at me to come and take it. I did so, because he'd wanted me to. Then, turning it on, I skipped through the channels before changing it to Netflix. Then my eyes skipped over to the curtains that softly danced by the glass door to the wind. 

I loved all the see-through white curtains in our apartment, because I'd chosen it and it fit perfectly to our home. And it reminded me of how beautiful new can look.

I looked around the room, noticing the only the kitchen lights and the corner light of the living room was on. The night was dark and the sky looked alarmingly entrancing. What a beautiful night to cherish. And I'd been drowning myself in self pity, worrying my lover for no reason, ruining his night as well.

"Pete," I heard him called over from the other side of the place. The smell of the meat he was cooking filled the place and my stomach growled in return. Cheese was in the air of scents. I sighed, wondering how I was going to decline. "Have you selected a movie?"

I cleared my throat, realising how long it'd been since I'd shouted. "Y-yeah, a-almost!"

I huffed, waiting for him to laugh at how stupid I sounded, but it never came. Another tear slipped from my eyes and this time, it wasn't because of how heart-clenched I was feeling. I felt nice. I felt good.

A smile slipped on my face and I bowed my head shyly, even though no one was watching.

I pulled the curtains close and hummed in satisfaction at how warm the room had suddenly become. If only there were candles.

But then, I thought, it'd be too obvious and alarming. Too romantic in a go. He's freak out and think I'm a whore.

So I didn't worry about that and pulled my legs up after sitting and flicked through the movie choices.

Soon, my lover walked over with a big tray in hand and two bottles of beer. My heart leaped at the treat. My stomach jumped in anticipation.

My brain scoffed and turned red at the realisation that I was ruining my diet and almost planning to become fat again.

"Hey, stop thinking." I gave him a slight smile. "Here, get ready and start eating. I'll go get a blanket."

He came back as promised and covered the two of us with the big cloth, hugging me tight. He noticed my pathetic face staring at the food and chuckled, reaching over to it and guiding it to my mouth. I stared at him.

"What?"

He gave me an amused expression and it caught me by surprise for some reason. "What? Eat."

He nudged the burger to me and I leaned away. "You do know that I've just gotten rid of the fat? Eating that isn't going to help."

My boyfriend frowned at that. "You've been doing it deliberately?" I look away to the screen that had paused at the start. The Disney castle on view.

Yes, I'd chosen Frozen.

"Pete, we're not moving forward until you tell me why you've been cutting your meals. And I didn't even notice until now, fuck."

He swore and I stared at him.

"I've been so busy, shit, if I hadn't noticed any sooner, you would've gotten yourself into trouble Pete."

I didn't say anything.

"You know I love you, right?"

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