After two people who have finished singing, I hear my name, take a breath and get madly excited, and both of them push me in. "Come on, show them what a beautiful voice you have. "Okay, good I'm going, do not push" and winks at them. They raise their thumbs and wish me luck. I go to the stage, the microphone went through my head, it's too high and I'm 57 meters tall. After a few seconds the music starts, the DJ notices that the microphone is not at my height, he stops the music and goes to get my microphone down, the tune of the song I sing begins. And in the case they call the song "there", the song I sing for years, I raise my thumb to Naomi, she made a good choice The song begins, and then I start singing 

"I want nostalgia that will not let me fall asleep, that I will not be able to fight ... People say that she lives in the sky and the sea like everyone is diving ... No one came near and even if you say that you love .. that you broke your heart .. And chose me from all... Of all the girls in the world ... I will not take you there... Because you taught me silence .. And I'm still waiting. "

It's a song that speaks to me in every way, and when I sing, for me no one is there or there is no place, no one bothers me and lets me be who I am in my private place called there.

I finish the song, open my eyes and hear applause, and voices of sympathy, as if now the Israeli national team has won soccer, and everyone yells at me, that is to say in my case, it is more like winning the Eurovision. I go down the stage slowly, my friends jump on me and say, "Wow."

"Rachel, you'll see what a flushed Liam is, all fainting." Naomi pulls me to her for a hug. "My love, you have nothing to be ashamed of, what a beautiful voice you have."

"And we did not know you were singing so well, one cheeky"

"You have to sing and tell the whole world" I smile and say, "Do not exaggerate not to tell the whole world, just sing a song, that's all"

Nomi comes back after me in a low tone "Yes, I just sang" Sure you do not know how people heard you so quietly Everyone wanted to know who sang and those who spoke just stopped talking They listened to you, you little singer You should be proud of yourself, Your singing is amazing"

  "Thank you" and hug them both, and return to sit down and more.

And that evening I suddenly felt relieved, liberated just better than the beginning ... and that's what the song says "wants the moment to last forever"

The next day, during the breaks between the courses I hope not to run into Theo, and if I see him then how do I deal with him? Or I'll try to avoid him. Yesterday it was so liberating and I enjoyed it so much and I did not see it there.

 Jenny and Naomi ask me, "Is everything okay with you, do you look like you're in a world of your own?" And I answer quickly, "Everything's okay, I just did not sleep well, I was just tired" and they answer, "Okay!" , They also understand that something is happening to me but that they do not force me to share it, and talk about a different subject. The day ended early at four and I told the girls that I was going to the dormitories, they finish at six, and I decide to walk, well it will not hurt to empty my thoughts and it's pleasant outside and the sun is not as warm as in the morning. At least until you get to the dormitory, The road there is not short, at least 30 minutes before you reach the dormitory,  without anyone interrupting you until someone's honking in my back, and who? Theo, of course, is not it? And I keep walking and ignoring him, he keeps pushing his car toward me, and I turn to him and say aloud

"What?"

You need a lift, right? "He laughs and smiles at me, I'm tired of that smile I melt, stop smiling at me like that.

"No thanks!"

  "Well, whatever you want" He goes on slowly until suddenly it's raining, it's raining, oh no, not now, no, I'm upset, and Theo stops his car and I hurry up to him, making a disappointed face, And of course he makes a face of triumph. I get into the car quickly and he asks insolently "So I do not think you can get away from me so fast?"  

I do not treat him I'm just mad at myself.

Well, Liam, calm down, you'll soon be in the dorms, and everything will be all right, just when you get there, you'll get out of his car quickly and go to your room. Even before I get out of the car door Theo stops and holds my hand.

? "Where are you going?"

  I'm going to my room "

I do not seem to understand what he wants, from me. "Please Liam," wait a minute, we need to talk!