dear my idols,

again here i am, writing to you even though you will never ever see this. i don't know why i do it but i guess it's just sort of a habit now. 

right now it's about ten o'clock at night and i haven't purged or hurt myself all day, i wonder if you all would be proud? i guess i'll never find out. 

i'm loosing hope that you'll reply one day. 

even a simple hi would be nice. 

-celeste