dear my idols,

hi again. i don't even know if you've seen my other letter but i felt i needed to express my emotions right now, so i decided to write to you all. 

my mom beat me again today, because I forgot to get eggs while shopping. she snaps over the littlest things but I still love her, is that weird? loving someone who beats you up? i think it is, but oh well. 

it sorta pushed me over the edge, and i hurt myself. i tried listening to your songs but it just didn't help so i cut. at first it felt good, but then i had realized what i had done and immediatly started to cry. 

i felt so disgusted with myself. 

-celeste

p.s. do you even get to see your fan mail?