A/N:

Wow, okay. So, my goal to finish this story by the end of break is most likely not going to happen. oops. Anyways, enjoy chapter sixteen of The Way He Looks!

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“You ready to go?” Phil smiled as he straightened out his button up shirt. Dan rushed his hand through his hair one more time before nodding and hopping up, grabbing hold of Phil’s arm.

The two of them headed down to the back of the hotel where the pool was located. Phil was surprised nobody was in the pool since most of the students were there. Instead, all of the people there were on the field, relaxing on picnic blankets under the night sky, sitting around the campfire drinking ‘punch’, or skinny dipping in the lake.

“Phil!” Dan heard Carrie’s voice from a distance and bit his tongue to prevent himself from groaning. If it wasn’t already obvious, Dan was jealous of Carrie. But, it wasn’t even jealousy that was getting to him anymore; Carrie was just flat out annoying. He could finally see where PJ was coming from when he talked about her.

“We don’t have to go over,” Phil interrupted Dan’s thoughts and he smiled at the thought of him caring about what Dan wanted to do instead of just what he wanted to do. He was just about to take his suggestion and ask to go as far away from Carrie as possible but he knew that was extremely selfish so he shook his head.

“It’s fine,” Dan said casually, “Besides, I don’t think she’d get on my nerves so much once I’m drunk.” Phil turned to Dan to see his cocky expression and smiled lightly. “So, we’re drinking tonight?” he asked and Dan shrugged. “Try new things,” he smirked before pulling Phil’s arm so he’d start walking.

When they got to the fire Carrie was sitting at and Phil helped Dan sit down, Carrie immediately launched herself at Phil. She practically tackled him as she wrapped her arms around his neck and sat on his lap. “I’ve missed you Philly,” she cooed and Dan began to feel his face burn up.

“I just saw you two nights ago, Carrie,” Phil said in an unamused tone causing Dan to raise his eyebrows. Didn’t Phil say he didn’t remember anything from that day? Did he lie? If he did, did it mean he lied about the party as well? Did Phil remember him kissing Dan?

Dan shook his head and sighed a bit too loudly causing Phil to turn towards him with an upset expression. He quickly lifted Carrie off of him and slid over to him. “Hey, what’s wrong?” he asked and Dan shook his head. “Just a bit bored,” he mumbled and Phil nodded, not knowing what to say.

He looked around before spotting PJ, sitting across the fire on his own. “I know something that could occupy you,” Phil suggested, “PJ’s sitting right over there. Why don’t you go talk to him?” Dan quickly shook his head but it was too late, Phil was already calling him over.

“What?” PJ muttered as he walked over to the two of them. Dan gulped as he heard the boy’s unpleasant tone. “Nothing,” Phil got up, “Dan wants to talk to you.” He flashed a quick grin before reluctantly heading back to Carrie, knowing it was the only other reason to give Dan and PJ their space.

Dan played with his hands as he heard PJ sit down next to him. He felt his eyes on him and he turned his head down, not being able to look up. “What did you want to tell me?” PJ asked sounding very uninterested and pretty pissed off, causing Dan to get even more nervous.

“I, uh,” Dan stammered, “I do--”

“I think I’m just going to head back to where I was before,” PJ pushed himself off the ground and began to walk away before Dan shouted. “No, Peej wait,” he called and PJ stopped in his place before sighing and sitting back down.

“I know it isn’t anything, but I just want to say sorry for being such a dick,” Dan sighed, “I could be a terrible friend sometimes and I know that, but you’re the only person who dealt with me for so along aside from my parents, and I can’t stand the thought of you hating me.”

PJ stayed quite for a little while before scoffing and putting his arm around Dan, nuzzling his head. “How can I hate you when you’re such a sap,” he laughed and Dan giggled along. “I shouldn’t have gotten so pissed off at you so I’m sorry as well,” he added.

“So, would you completely forget everything I said just now and leave if I asked if we could go find Phil?” Dan mumbled, “I kind of told him that I’d be getting drunk with him.” PJ gasped dramatically, “Dan Howell? Drinking?” Dan punched PJ in the arm before getting up and waiting for PJ.

The two of them walked around for a while but Phil was nowhere to be found. PJ spotted Sam walking up to them and cursed under his breath before stopping him. “Hey Sam,” PJ mumbled, “Have you seen Phil around?” Sam raised an eyebrow and shrugged. “I saw him run off with Carrie,” he waved his hand dismissively, “Why, Dan here looking for his fuck buddy?”

“Piss off,” Dan muttered before PJ pulled him away. “Um, okay,” PJ thought for a second, “Well seeing as Phil isn’t anywhere to be seen, “I’m saying we should go get some drinks and get drunk on our own.” Dan smiled before nodding and letting PJ lead the way.

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A few hours had passed after Dan and PJ got some alcohol from some kid who always seemed to have some on him. They both managed to drown two bottles of tequila and were currently up in Dan’s room lying on his bed. Phil was still not around but Dan was too drunk to let it affect him badly.

PJ suddenly jumped on Dan and began to tickle him mercilessly as Dan screeched and struggled to overpower him. The two of them fought one another, trying to get the other to surrender. Eventually, both of them got worn out and flopped back down.

They both continued to giggle drunkenly for a few seconds before it silenced between them. “Dan?” PJ asked and Dan hummed. “I’m going to try something, but promise me you won’t freak out or anything,” PJ warned and Dan raised an eyebrow at him.

“You’re such a goofba--”

Dan was quickly interrupted by someone’s lips crashing against his. And, maybe it was because he was drunk or just flat out horny, but Dan didn’t push him away. Instead, he traced his hands up PJ’s back and pulled him on top of him.

He groaned at the sudden contact between them and kissed PJ with whatever power he had, rushing his fingers through his curly hair. PJ hummed lightly as Dan pulled at his hair and began to bite the boy’s lips, asking for entrance.

Dan cracked open his mouth and let PJ explore his mouth before both of their tongues began to battle for dominance. PJ suddenly pulled away and began to attack the skin on Dan’s neck. Dan moaned and stretched his neck to allow more access as PJ began to suck and bite the bare space, leaving love bites.

Soon enough, PJ traced his hands down towards the rim of Dan’s shirt and began to pull up. And, that’s when something snapped inside of Dan and he put his hands over PJ’s, stopping him from doing anything else. “P-Peej,” he struggled to speak, “I- I can’t do this.”

PJ frowned but obeyed and came off of Dan, sitting by his side. “Is something wrong?” he asked and Dan nodded. “We’re just drunk and I don’t want to do anything that’s going to confuse you,” he sighed, “I just don’t want you to feel something that I can’t recuperate.  

“I already do,” PJ mumbled and Dan spun his head towards him in shock. “What?” he asked and PJ shrugged. “Isn’t it obvious Dan?” he mumbled, “I’ve pretty much been head over heels for you since forever.” Dan crossed his arms and furrowed his brows, thinking about anything that might’ve hinted at it before half of the things PJ said to him in the past came rushing into his head. “Oh.”

“Yeah,” PJ mumbled, “Oh.” Dan sighed and placed his face in his hands. “I’m so sorry Peej,” he whispered, “I guess I’m just really clueless when it comes to that stuff and I never really grasped at anything.” PJ nodded before shrugging and lying down, laying his head on Dan’s chest.

“It’s okay,” he said, “I know you only see me as a brother and I accepted that a long time ago, I just hoped it’d change one day. But, I guess not.” Dan played with PJ’s hair as he spoke. “Things like that are what made me like you, by the way,” PJ added and Dan lifted his hand.

“Sorry,” Dan hissed and PJ laughed, grabbing his hand and placing it back on his head. “Might as well since it’s all out in the open,” he giggled and Dan shook his head, a smile on his face.

“So, who is it then?” PJ suddenly asked and Dan tensed up. “What makes you think there’s someone?” he asked and PJ scoffed. “Well, you stopped our make out session because you said you didn’t recuperate my feelings,” PJ explained, “So, there must be someone else because face it, I’m amazing.”

Dan laughed and shook his head before quieting down and thinking for a bit. “I don’t know,” Dan shrugged as he thought, Phil suddenly popping into his head, sending him into a bunch of memories with Phil, stopping right at the kiss.

“Well, it was kind of a spontaneous moment that made us meet each other and I guess there was just this connection between us. And, we began to spend a lot of time together and I just realized how good they were and how well we fit, like puzzle pieces. And, they kissed me at Carrie’s party but then forgot it and it sent me into all these confusing places,” Dan rambled, “A-And I think I’m in love with Phil.”

Dan waited for PJ to say something but nothing came and Dan began to panic, thinking he said too much. “Peej?” he asked but didn’t get a reply. He turned his face down before jolting it up once he heard a snort come from him.

“You know, I pulled you out of that party because they were about to make you kiss a dog,” he giggled and Dan groaned in disgust. “Wow, then I’m sorry for getting so pissed off and starting our whole argument because that would’ve made school even worse,” Dan laughed and PJ nodded.

“But seriously,” PJ quieted down, “You and Phil would actually be really cute together.” Dan smiled, feeling his face get a bit red. “And you don’t mind?” Dan asked and PJ huffed. “I guess not,” he shrugged, “I mean there are plenty of fish in the sea and I’m almost 100 percent sure that he feels the same about you.”

Dan’s smile grew even wider before he changed the subject, deciding to not drown PJ with his problems, going into a discussion with him about a bunch of drunken nonsense. Little did he know, Phil was just around the corner, accidentally hearing all of Dan’s little rant about him.  

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Whoa, dramatic chapter. I actually really enjoyed writing this chapter and I’m pretty proud of it. So, let me know what you guys thought and thanks for reading, as always!

This is the second phic where I have Dan and PJ end up making out. I think my guilty Kickthefire ship is getting the best of me. Don’t worry, Phan is still and always will be number one.