That day, I don't know why that feeling struck me in the dinner. I stopped eating in middle and got lost in those thoughts. Swati was shocked by my sudden halt. She knew what am I thinking of. She didn't stop me and I recovered myself.

"How my life was when I came here for the first time and how is it now " I said with a low foggy voice.
"How was your life ?"asked Swati.
"You know, I can't say it to you "I said with a sad expression.
"No, you have hidden the truth for long. Now it's time to express it. "
"No, I can't. Plz sorry "
"No, you can't run like this. You know why a human lives for "
"Why "
"He knows his past and continues for it "
"I can't understand. "

"When one has glorious past, he tries to think why should I die having such a glorious past. I am supposed to live. And when one has a destructive past, he thinks that why should I die without doing any thing in life. I am supposed to live "
"So, you are saying that the reason of my existence is my past "
"Exactly "
"So why do people suicide for a destructive past? "
"Because they don't believe it that proverb "
"Which proverb? "
"'Failure is the pillar to success "
"So, had I understood "
"Partially"
"What do you mean ?"
"You have understood it partially, by gods grace, you have not done suicide because you have the feeling of reaching your destiny but you don't express it because you don't have courage in you. "
"Oh, but that past makes me sad, and I try to avoid it every time "
"Don't avoid your past, make it your courage "
"But how "
"By sharing your feeling, you can make the sadness fade "
"So, I will do that! I will make it my courage.
About 3 years ago..............
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