I'm stress so badly right and need to vent how I have been feeling for months. I just hope maybe someone reads this and just listen to what I have to say. There have been times where I feel like I can't do this anymore. I thought that when I find wattpad and started writing again, that I could have an outlet for some of things I was feeling lately. But because it doesn't make money, or someone doesn't like me being on my phone, I feel depressed and stressed out.

I have high blood pressure because of the stress in my life. I was told that writing might help with my stress, but I'm still being stressed out. I don't even know if I should be doing this anymore. I honestly don't care about making money from writing or not. I can't help it if I get so wrapped up for a scene in my writings that I don't focus on what's around me.

But I have no support from the one person I thought I could count on and tell me I'm doing what I'm passionate about. I just don't know if I should be doing this anymore. It's just that nothing has been easy in my life and I thought that if I moved away from home and live somewhere new that I would have a choice of doing what I wanted for once in my life. But I'm back to having someone telling me what to do or it's the highway kind of thing.

I feel sad, depressed, and angry right now. I have tried to be happy, but then my fiancé complains about being on my phone and writing and writing back to you guys' comments. That he actually thinks I would leave him for someone else. He actually told him that one of the reasons my ex and I don't work out is because he thought I cheated. I'm still so mad about that. I'm the most honest person I know and if I didn't want someone in my life, I would straight up so say. I won't be a cheater and do something like that.

I don't know if my fiance reads this or not, but at least, you know what I'm feeling without you turning things around in our fights and make it all about you and how more angry you are, more sad you are, how you try to one up me. I feel like keeping writing in my life despite the haters and the non supporters in my life. I feel like doing something I have loved since I was 12 years old. Count and let me know if you think I should continue or not.
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