I'm tired. 
I'm tired of thinking about it 
I'm tired of talking about it. 
I'm just generally tired.
I'm not going to pretend nothing is wrong.
Because something is wrong.
I'm not going to act like i don't care.
Because i do care.
I'm not going to act like it doesn't bother me.
It does bother me, a lot actually.
See I'm not as strong as you.
I'm weak.
So incredibly weak.
Its not to say i am weak around others...its just you. 
How can i explain it 
You're like this new element
With you i feel a stir of emotions 
Emotions that tend to take control of my every move...
I cant think straight 
I cant see straight
Its almost hard for me to breath at times...
Yet...
If you...without this new element...
I would be extremely unhappy
Life would seem to have no meaning
Existence would be futile 
A lifeless 
Motionless
Uninspired
Corpse...
See i have cravings
I have wants
I don't only have needs
Needs are just for survival
They sustain what is
Desire...
Wants...
Craving...
Lust...
These things although not important
Are still necessary
I am like any flawed Human being
I have these cravings
These wants
These desires
This lustful feeling
Am i so wrong for being this way? 
Tell me am i so weird for only doing what i was born to do? 
Maybe i do not yet understand what it is to be alive...
To be human
To be here...