I always wondered why.
Why did she do it.
I often ask that question about many people.
Why did they do it.
What were their reasons or motivations
Because all I see is cruelty.

Seivon Rivers

        "What class do you have next Melody?" I suddenly asked her.  If what she says is true that means she is in Melody's next class.
     I need to to figure out who she is, but I can't act to close to her.  I am not afraid of him, I just don't know what he will do.  Besides he doesn't know I am Seivon.

"Pacific..." She looked at her brother.  Wow she always memorizes me. "Atlantic is looking for you. She has your necklace." Does this mean he is going to leave? 
    Finally I can spend time with her... And maybe he can leave with Melody too.

    "What? I gave it to-" Miracine that's right.  Her brother gave it to Mira, but did she gave it to Kaisa and if so how does this mermaid know that?  Did Kaisa tell her, but Kaisa went with Miracine.
    Did they split up and Kaisa told this pacific mermaid?  Unless Miracine is Violet.  But there is a chance Miracine wouldn't even know about mermaids, and why would she know about them unless she is one.  Besides she is not related to Seania so it would not make sense. 

      "And the person you gave it to must of given it to Kaisa." Mivozene grumbles under his breath. "Oi! Mivozene! WheN aRe YOu GOinG to DEsiRe?"
     She told him something in her thick ancient language.  He rolled his eyes and as he finally left I could shout for joy.

     "Person huh?" Melody grinned at her.  That's when I realized Melody was still here. 
     What a pain..

       "Shut up! Just cause you know who I am does not mean you can still hurt me. If you tell you will actually hurt me." I exclaimed, crossing my arms.
    Wait Melody knows!  How does she know when she never seen her before except maybe in her next class. But why would it hurt the mermaid if Mel tells me? 

      "So I am right?! Omigawsh this is amazing! You like have scales and fins and you look like a fish?" I looks at Melody sighing. 
    Can't Melody leave already?

    "Yeah, much better than being a human. Being a human is annoying and most humans are annoying." Her face dropped at that and I couldn't help but laugh at her reaction. 
     I forgot how much she likes mermaids better.  Except me I think.

      "How is it that you two such good friends after two seconds of knowing each other?" I starred at them in wonder.
     It makes no sense.  The only person I know Melody talks to is Kaisa and Miracine.

     "I knew her before this. I talked to her this morning by the magnolia trees." Our meeting spot?  What-when was she here? 
Did I look bad?  What if I did or said something that she wouldn't like?

       "What? When? How did I not notice?" Melody started laughing.  I scowled at Melody.  This is  going to bother me forever.

     "I ask that everyday to myself when I talk to you when I look like a humanic."  She says simply.  I didn't even try to hide to shock in my face. 
     I....I talk to the Violet mermaid every day?  And that's how she saw me with Malseania.  That means she been seeing me with someone else.  It must be painful for her. 
     I'll show her she only means to me and no one else.  Maybe I should just break up with Malseania.  Especially now it is a proven fact they are two separate individuals.

      "Wait...You talked to me?" I gazed at her in surprise.

      "Yeah, when you first saw me I thought you figured it out, but no you are just stupid." I sucked in a breath. 
       Ouch.  That hurt, but she the only one that can call me that and get away with it.  Who did I talk to that was new?  Seania....
      Those random people.....Miracine...Wait it is not Mira.  Other people coming up to me saying odd things.

     "Do you have some popcorn?" Melody randomly spoke up. I shot her a glare.  Does she have to be here?  "What this is entertaining!"

       "So can you like breathe underwater and swim super fast?  Can you control water or get super good a swimming?  Can you go anywhere with water?   Can you make water float around?  Is having one tail easier than having legs?  Why do you like it better?" I stared at her with Violet.
       She is obscured to ask all of that, but Violet should of told her to leave if she didn't want to answer these questions.

        "Nevermind, can you forget that you saw me and leave?" She frowned, looking annoyed at Melody's constant questions. But this time it was I who was laughing.

     "Yeah, leave Mel. You heard her."  I grinned putting my arms behind my head.

     "What?...." She realized she was not wanted and we had to talk. "Oh, I'll go...." She went inside.  I kinda felt bad, but she should've left by now.

      "Now that no one is here I am going to tell you the truth." I was going to tell her everything I felt about her.

      "And that is?" She asked almost hesitating. I was worried what she was going to say in response.  I feel nervous.  I had this feeling ever sense ever.  She looks almost worried herself. 

    "I realized that I don't just like you." I told her.

     "What?" Please tell me she won't take it the wrong way. 

"I realized I don't just like you." I whispered and I still felt a little nervous.

   Her eyes suddenly widened and and she all of the sudden looked upset. "Leave me alone!"  She took it the wrong way.

     "Violet wait!" I grabbed her arm gently, but she refused to look at me.  Please...

     "Leave me! Get away from me!"  She yelled, but I didn't know what to say to calm her down.

    "I didn't mean that.  Let me continue." She still looked upset.  She was right about what she said before:

'Sometimes I believe you forget I am not human.'

"    Do not talk to me......" She muttered again. She can't mean that if she then I....then I wouldn't know what to do.

     I put his hand on her cheek. "Violet, you don't understand I-"

       "Do not ever talk to me again!" Erghm.  She slapped me.
     As much as I want to hold her and tell everything is fine, I can't.  As much as I want to say she misunderstood what I said, I can't.  I know now mermaids don't do and act the same.
      We both don't have the same knowledge as the other to figure out every single thing the other expects us to."How could you think everything is fine? I can not believe you Seivon!" I stared at her.  

     I closed my eyes trying to ignore the pain, but it wouldn't go away.  I felt pain, sorrow, and hurt.  Not less, nothing else.  And it was all because of her. 
     She always made me feel great emotions.  But I have a feeling she has no idea what she does to me.

      She shook her head and sunk lower into the sea. I looked at her as she slowly left.  I was longing for her, but she ignored that glance and went her way.  Pain still struck me, but I was just as angry as I was in pain.

      The rest of the day went by in blur.  I didn't say much.  I felt pain and misery.  I just hated it, and it was all my fault.  I shouldn't of said anything.  If I didn't, the miscommunication wouldn't of happened.

      I looked around and saw Melody, Ashton, Kaisa, and Malseania emerge.  Wait where is Miracine?  Oh well it doesn't matter.  Nothing matters anymore. 
      Maybe I should just drop out.  Maybe I should just stop trying.  Maybe I should just-

     "Seivon!" Melody crossed her arms and stared at me.

     "H-huh!" I suddenly jumped.  "What?"

    "What's with you?  After I don't know what happened you being acting all miserable and dull." I gave her a 'really' look.  Okay she is right, but she doesn't have to say that to me.

    "I'll tell you later.  Hey I just noticed did Miracine already leave?" She usually waits.

     "Oh you didn't know?  I thought you would of known.  She left sometime after Mivozene gave her that necklace of his." Oh I wonder why?   That is why Kaisa has it. 
     She probably had to leave early and told Kaisa to give it back and then she want to see....her.

     "Yeah...Come on." I parted ways with the rest of them and told Mel to come by.  She skipped up the steps and pressed the code in unlocking the door.  I really need to change the code.

     "So what happened?" She beat me right off the bat.

     "I might've said something that she could of taken the wrong way."  Not could of, did.  "And she got upset with me, but before I had time to explain she left and told me she never wanted to speak with me again."  It's all my fault.

     "What.  Did.  You.  Do."  Melody raised an eyebrow as she put her hands on her hips.

     "I already told you.  But now she probably hates me and it is all my fault.  I don't even know what to do anymore with anything." I groaned as I let myself fall to the floor.  "I just....don't know."

    "Seivon!  Calm down, it can't be that bad.  If I know your mermaid as well as I do which I do because I know who she is then I can say she won't be mad at you forever." Great she just reminded me how smart she is to figure it out before me.
     I just don't get it.  Who could she be?

    "Yeah, even if she forgives me I will never forgive myself to even see her again.  Maybe I should stop everything.  I could just drop out and stop everything I am doing." I sighed.

    "But-" Melody tried.

     "No, I don't care.  You don't understand." I shook my head, "She is my light.  The light of the day that I always look forward to and without her I feel nothing.  This entire time was because of her.  I kept this...." I took out her pendant. 
      She wanted me to keep it "And that is why I am still here."

     "Seivon, people care about you more than you know." She told me gently, "Just because something like this happen doesn't mean you should stop everything.  Do it to show you can keep on going."

    "Maybe, but I-"

     "No!  You will not give up now.  You can't stop everything after what you and me and Ashton worked so hard for." I bit my lip. 
     She was right about that.  We worked so hard for everything, but I was still miserable and I guess I will have to deal with it.  Maybe I'll do extra things to distract myself from everything.

     "All right..." I gave in and smiled, "Melody, you got a point."

        "I'm glad I could be a help." Melody exclaimed super loudly.  Someday she is going to kill my ears.

       It has been several days.  Several days since then.  Several days since I felt the pain, sorrow, and hurt.  And I didn't even bother hiding the fact I felt that.  Coincidentally all this time Miracine has been absent every day.
        Melody and the others said she was sick.  She always could distract me.  Just then I went to lie under the big magnolia tree.  It was officially our tree.  Everyone knew we claimed it.  I guess nobody can claim anything, but a lot of people had their "own" spot.

       "Hi..." I looked up from my thoughts and saw Miracine.  I almost gasped at how bad she looked.  I don't know what happened to her, but she looks worst than I. 
       I was going to ask her since she came, but now I don't want to bother her when she is clearly dealing with something. "I am not feeling well and I still am kinda down."

     "Sick, eh?" Melody raised her eyebrow at her.  I wonder what that was about.

      "Oh great....She's back." Malseania rolled her eyes.  She really doesn't like her, huh? 
      I glared at her and I noticed Melody and Mira also glaring at her.

     "What did I....." Miracine began to speak, but I started to not pay attention to what she was saying.  I don't get it.  Why doesn't Malseania like her?......Erm! 
        EVERYTHING IS JUST SO ANNOYING I MEAN WHY DID I SURVIVE WHEN I SHOULD OF DIED WITH MY PARENTS!   WHY AM I ALIVE?  MAYBE IT WOULD BE BETTER IF I AM GONE.
     THEY DESERVE TO LIVE NOT ME AND THEN WHEN I FINALLY GET TO SEE AND BE WITH HER I RUIN IT FOREVER!  WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?  I'm really hopeless....

       "Wow what is it with this atmosphere?" Melody threw her hands in the air almost hitting me.  But she did knocked me out of my thoughts. 
       "Everyone is gloomy or just look depressed."

       "Just some stuff happened." Miracine took the same words right outta my mouth.  I said nothing as I stared at her in shock.

      "Why don't we all talk about something that will lighten the mood?" Ashton suggested.  Jeez why did he have to ask that?

      "No."

"I know how about Kai, Ash, and Mal talk while me, Sei, and Mira talk." I mean that doesn't sound too bad.  It could help all this hurt and pain.

     "No thanks.  I do not have anything to say to anyone." She turned her down before I had time to say anything.

     "I actually wouldn't mind.....It might make me feel better." Miracine looked at me with disbelieve.

      Just then the bell rang and Miracine ran off.  I guess it will be me and my perfectly so happy life.

~~~

       Malseania, Violet, Miracine, Melody...URGH!  Malseania, Violet, Malseania, Violet, Malseania, Pacific, Malseania, Violet, Malsea-

     No stop!
  I banged my head into the desk.

   The teacher flared at me, "Rivers!  Is there a problem?"  Oh what now?!

   "Oh no...Well can I use the restroom?" The teacher thought for a moment before responding.

    "You can..." I resist the urge to roll my eyes.  I hated it when teachers did this.

     "May I?" 

     "Of course, go ahead!" She smiles so cheerfully.  I got up and left the classroom.  It was Malseania's free period maybe...maybe she could help what I am feeling with all of this hurt.  All this pain and everything. 
       Something was telling me to not do it, but I didn't care and I choose to ignore it.  I then saw Malseania in the distance and gestured her to come.  I mean this hasn't been the first time this happened.

      "Seivon?"  She looked at me with concern.  She offers I accept, what's the problem?  It is not like I am the one who is suggesting it. 
       I only let her.  It's not like I force her to.

      "I'm just...." I muttered sadly.

     "It's alright, let's go." You know if she is okay with it maybe it not so bad.  Maybe being with her is fine, but whenever I look at her I always think back to the girl from the sea. 
       This thought made me smile sadly.  If she could be here for me.  I could just forget.  If she could distract me.  I could just pretend I feel something.  If she could let me believe these fake feelings are real.  I could just let everything she ever done be forgiven.

     I stepped forward and she allowed herself to step back.  I tried to look into her eyes, but whenever I gaze into them I only think of Violet.  When I looked in her eyes she knew what to do.  She kept blinking her eyes over and over again.
     She fluttered them just as much.  Okay she doesn't have to do all that.  Can't she just distract me already?

     "Distract me.  Please anything..." I whispered just sadly.

      "Anything for you." She closed her eyes and pressed her lips into mine.  I took my arms around her head pushing her closer.

Forget.

Be distracted.

Ignore everything.

Don't care.

Forgive.

Forget.  Distracted.  

     I desperately wrapped my lips into hers as she kissed me without desperation in her mind.  She kept leaning into me.  I kissed her back without a care what would happen.  I didn't care who would see. 
      I didn't care if nobody saw me the same.  I wouldn't care what would happen.  I just needed a distraction forever and to erase my memory.

     She opened her eyes, but I kept roughly kissing her.  I saw her eyes move almost as if she saw something, but she blocked my vision by kissing me again. 
      She smiled so sweetly with such a smug expression without a clue to what was going on.  I didn't deserve her.  Whenever I look at her I only see the pacific mermaid.  Whenever I kiss her I only think of how much better I feel when kissing that girl. 
     Whenever I speak with her, I only think how her personality is way different from the girl from the sea.  Whenever I choose her over everyone else, I only think about how she acts like someone pretending to be her.  Whenever I see her, whenever I look at her, whenever I touch her, whenever we are together....
      I only think of one thing and it is how much I rather and want to be with her.  The Pacific mermaid.  The girl who saved me.  And it was not her, and I've been just using Malseania.

       "Malseania Stop!" I stepped back. I felt hurt again, but I didn't care.  

      "What?  Why?" All of the sudden she got teary eyed.  I didn't want to hurt her and now this.

      "I can't do this anymore.  I tried for so long giving you more chances but I don't feel anything... I'm sorry I am a terrible person and you deserve much better." I told her defeated.
      She, however, look angry.

     "Seivon!  How dare you!  I don't want anyone better than you.  I just want you!  Can't you see that?" She exclaimed in saddness.  I am such a terrible person.

      "Look don't be mad." I tried to calm her down.

      "What do you mean mad?  Oh sweetie I'm not mad." She spat making me back up.

       "You're not?" I looked at her shocked. She really looked furious at me.

      "Oh shut up!" She laughed lightly and loudly.  "You are going to regret that because I know what you been doing behind my back."  What?  I haven't done anything behind her back.

      "Behind your....What?" I just kinda laughed in disbelief.

      "I know why....Seivon.  I know why you did everything until now." She whispered mysteriously.
      How does she know everything about me when I never told her all about me?

    "And that is not creepy at all." I laughed dryly.

     "Pay attention." She shouted again.

     "You are making me really want to slap me-I mean you. But I don't like slapping people on the face." The last person who did that to me....
   It was the mermaid girl.

     "...It is all because of that girl." Wait does she know?  And how?

     "What do you mean?" I felt anger through my veins and any word of her saying anything about the mermaid and she will regret it for eternity.

    "It's Mira! It's all her fault! She twisted you and turned you against me. That Miracine!" Malseania exclaimed.
     She always had something against her and bringing her up at a time like this, does she know something about her no one else does?  What does Mira have to do with anything?

     "What are you talking about now. Miracine has nothing to do with this.   This is just ridiculous.   I'm friends with all of my friends, you know so why is it that you hate her." She gave me a strange look that looked like 'really'. 
      Is she really jealous?  Jeez I didn't know her at all, did I?

     "That is what they all say." She shakes her head.  All say what does she mean by that?

    "Do you hate Melody and Kaisa too?" I had to ask.

     "Kaisa is the only one you hang out with that I actually like."  That is just great.  I thought I heard something or someone go past but I decided to ignore it.

      "Wait before you said 'That is what they all say'. I don't understand, what you mean by that?" I asked her in a bit confusion.

     "You haven't figured it out yet?  Wow they are right!" She made a shock expression.  Right?  Right about what?

     "Hey I don't want them to be mad so can we like pretend we are together and you can like secretly be with M- I mean her!..Hehehe yeah her." She laughed and was extremely excited. 
      Did she just had a personality switch?

     "What?  No!  Why would I do that?  Do you know what the meaning of breaking up with someone is?" I shook my head and backed off. "Can't you just see I do not want this anymore!"

    "Hey but-" She tried to say, but I shook my head.

    "No, don't even say another word.  Don't talk to me." I told her firmly, "You are not welcomed with any of my friends.  None of them really liked you and they just pretended."

     "None of them eh.....You are going to regret that..."  She whispered, glaring her eyes at me.
     Before I had a chance to react I heard yelling outside the room.  I opened the door to two wide eyed students.  They look as if they seen a ghost.

     "S-someone help!" The first girl whimpered as tears fell from her eyelids.  I wonder what happened.  It better not be some bug.

     "Please t-there a demon in there!" A demon?  Okay they must of lost it....
But then again Violet always used to mention about some cert of spirit sea demons and how they were contaminating the oceans. 
     She even said once that they could be hiding in bodies or forms of a person ready to hurt her or any of the other mermaids.  And now here I am again thinking about her.

     "What exactly happen?" I turned to the two girls, "For the most part I can't say I believe you."

     "We were walking-" The girl began.

     "Yeah you know like moving your feet and then-" The other girl finished her sentence.

     "I know what walking is." I sighed, "Get to the point."

     "Anyway, so we were about to go into this room when someone pushed us out of the way-" I narrowed my eyes.
     Wow someone pushed you and now she is a demon.

   "She pushed her, she pushed me and we were on the ground." The girls exclaimed in fright.

     "Yeah, so then we entered the room and saw someone in the distance."

     "And then the lights turned off."

      "Yeah and she wasn't even near the light switch." The girl crossed her arms.

     "When she turned around all we saw was i-its eye." I sighed, I don't have time for this.
      A floating eye?

     "It was a glowing eye..." One of the girls trailed off, "At first it was blue then it turned red or perhaps it was magenta."
      Blue then red?  Now that I think about it did they see her?

   "Yeah and she got mad at us for saying something about....er...you?" Oh so they were gossiping? 
Of course it was her... And maybe she was not mad at me anymore.

     "Yeah and it threatened us and was actually defending you for some bizarre reason." The other girl sheepishly told me with her head down.

     "Nothing against you and after this if you help us we will never say anything against you again." The girl told me determined.

      "It's fine.  I don't really care about who says what." I shrugged my shoulders and typed a quick message for Melody to meet me here.  If it is who I think it is than she will know.

Me: Meet in 2nd floor 211 classroom.  I think 🧜‍♀️ did something & I  see her w/ ppl tht she a demon

Melody: K

     I just hate it when she just says 'K' and nothing else.  I looked at my past messages with her and shook my head.

     The two girls were leading me to the classroom when Melody finally met up with me.

     "So...spill the tea." Melody grinned casually putting her arm around my shoulder.  The only problem with that was I was way too tall for her liking. 
       She was... 5"4' and me who is 5" 10...11?  I don't remember exactly if you couldn't tell.

     "This is going to be a long walk." I muttered.

New AN//
THE OLD AN is still the same.  I fell asleep while editing it.

~~I totally did not just fall asleep while editing it.  Is 5"10...11 or should he be taller too short for a normal guy?~~