A secret Meaning
Only few know
A secret message
That holds a secret past
I just wish I could
see those days again
And be able to dream of the sea
Once more

Seivon Rivers

"Violet...." I whispered, but she refused to look at me.

"Well look who it is that finally decided to show up." She laughed dryly, her accent thickening.
Is that what she thinks? But I did for a week straight and she never showed up. I did many other days too, and she never appeared. Have we been trying to see each other at the wrong times?

"I didn't do any of that sort. I gone here every morning and evening for weeks and you were beginning to become a no show." I was exaggerating a bit. "I also gone other times, but the results were the same."

"Okay okay....you got me." She held her hands up. "But that was only because I just might've not been doing so great a few weeks back. I couldn't see you, but I really wanted to...sincerely. I was kinda sick. Not feeling well. Okay! But after that..." She lowered her head as she trailed off.
Wow, she didn't like admitting the worse.

"Now, now..." I grinned, still in disbelief that she is here. "If you didn't like showing weakness all you had to do was say so." Now if it was her she would be mad at me.

"You know I can just leave if I have to. I don't want to talk to you really. I'm upset, I seen you with others. Do you know how that makes me feel?!" She whispered bitterly. A side I haven't seen much of.
"Seivon we're destined. The moon and stars chorus to be together. That's why I want to kill them, but I haven't done much because I knew there would be tons of unnecessary drama. And they don't deserve that attention." She shrugged.
I smiled even though she was upset at me. I was just glad it is really her and my eyes and ears aren't deceiving me after all. Now everything seems way better.

"I think I know who you are though," I told her.

Violet however laughed, "No you don't. I see you sometimes and you don't. I can't be more obvious on who I am. But you just make me so upset! How can you be that blind?! Am I supposed to die for you to actually know?!" Violet stared at me and cried out. She was almost crying.

"No..." I whispered to her, "I'm so close. I'm just overanalyzing everything everyone says. I see who Kaisa speaks and talks to and it's no good either."

"Seivon, how long?" She looked at me with pleading eyes, "How long am I going to wait? I see you prowl along with others intensely. Even if you don't realize what they feel about you, I absolutely detest it. You are chosen as my soulmate and I don't want to let you go. So all of this is really hard for me and I just don't want to talk much because I'm so upset."

"Who said we were going to talk?" Those words left my mouth before I realized what I was saying.
...I shouldn't of said that. What is it with her that draws me in? Especially in her mermaid form like this, she somehow causes me to not be able to think straight.
I can't think properly and I mentally cringe after everything I say. And then I say something stupid I usually say to random other girls. But she isn't just anyone else, she can't be an other girl.
Oh dear heavens, please help me.

"Well aren't you being cute. Every day I want to see you like this and I want you to know me. I want you to know my other form as well. I want you to know how much I feel about you. Oh I want to express it and show you, but then I'll just be selfish again. Seivon..." She whispered and brought herself closer to me. She pressed her lips on my cheek.
"My identity... Would you give up your humanity for a secret you yearn to know?"
I stared at her. What does she mean by giving up my humanity?

"Humanity? What do you mean?"

"Give up your humanity and I'll be able to tell you everything much easier without risk dying. Give up your intense wants and needs. Give up the age of being. Breathe in the same air as the seas and let it wash away the evil of humanity. Or keep it and figure it out."
She sighed, "I should apologize again. Mermaids don't apologize, but I find myself doing it a lot with you. I shouldn't make you make that decision. I just hope, you don't forget about me." I didn't know I could make you this flustered?" I heard her sigh muttering a different language under her breath.
"Mazvo...erg...sanjuv....heza..." I understood nothing, but each word she spoke sounded beautifully.

"I don't know what to say...." I admit to her,
"Actually I want to know something. I hope you don't mind, but why did you help me? Why did you save me? You seem to hate or kinda dislike many humans except for me and that wasn't until you saved me. But I just want to know why. I don't even deserve y-"

"First. Hush and be quiet.... And maybe I'll tell you a story. You humans like stories, right?" She smiled putting her arms back floating in the water.
I smiled as she did that.

"Enlighten me, angel." I gazed at her deeply

"Angel? Like an angelfish?" She brightened up, filled with happiness. She came closer pressing her cold, yet wet hands of hers on my chest causing my breath to thicken. "But I'm not a fish!" She points at me and I laugh.

What is she doing to me?

"Yeah. It could be I guess... I mean do you like it?" Gah, I'm a mess.
But she didn't realize it at all. Instead she replied.

"Yeah, but let me tell you a story. It started around..." She began to think very hard. "...What's your age again?"

"Sixteen?" I answered, but when I said it, it was more like it was a question. Why does she need my age for?

"And my brother is....." She looked down, "Well eighteen years ago my brother was the first and the one that was chosen by the elders." She seemed to be hiding something.
"I was what you humans call born 1.2 human years later. He and I were always different. When we were younger and way younger than I met you, I wanted to be him and he always wanted to make me like him. Mykoza Lynira and Fyazni Rayquin wanted him to be like me more."
"They didn't choose me because they thought I would change and be like him. Apparently I wasn't like the rest of them. The others would fight and protect the oceans. They would do things to humans, things that would be an unspeakable crime here. They would use their magic to allure passing sailors. Stun captains of ships or call off to random humans by the shoreline." So is she saying she isn't a part of that?

"I was innocent, playful, you know.... I mean you saw the last aspects of me being like that. My brother..." Violet sighed, "Well he didn't understand why they liked how I was acting better. They thought if he had acted more carefree and like me that, but at the same time he had to do everything perfect." She paused again.
"They thought he would be better if he was like that for what he did. But one day there was something he didn't see. Two researchers who were finding out about us. They wanted to put us up in display. They captured several, but they only ended those mermaids off. Death took them. Myjoza Lynra and Fyazni Rayquin were in charge of the plan to dispose them."
She looked at me sadly, "After coming up with a plan, the elders had wanted to see them. I was barely twelve. Before going to the elders, they told me something I always remembered. I believe the elders sent them to a place to banish them because they never returned. They probably did because they acted different and didn't try to hate every humanic or anything... Maybe that is why people thought I should be chosen."
That was several months before then. Before she saved me. "Then one day, my brother told the elders how good he is with protecting and fighting. So he changed some fates."
Changed fates, what does she mean by that?

"Many months later from that day he asked if I wanted to do something fun. Of course not knowing anything better I came along with him. I thought highly of him then. Then we saw a ship."
No.... It couldn't be. Please, why? Why...
"I had no idea what I was doing, but it was suppose to be fun so I did whatever he told me to do. He told me to sing with him which I did. But he sung in a different way to in which I copied. And afterwords, the waves powered down into it, crashing it and sinking deep down. It was a beautiful sight. He told me the people capturing mermaids for research were on that ship.... They deserved it! They were killing and hurting us. That is why it is fine what we did."
Her eyes turned to despair and her hands were almost pleading with me. "Humans like that deserve to not be in these worlds. You ask me why other mermaids hate humans, it is because of people like them! Afterwords, he told me to return and he went and searched the ship for something. He was searching and doing something in the sunken ship for several days. He probably put traps if any divers came or took everything of the researchers' out. A day or two later, I left my home again and went out to the sea and I saw another ship." She whispered and I already knew what ship that was.
I did nothing to it, but I saw you and Melody and Ashton. For some reason it was sinking down. The person who was moving the ship was stun. But nobody was there. I don't know how it could happen. And when you fell. I....I had to save you. I don't know why, I just did....." She took several breaths and seemed to be debating with herself to say something more.
"The only reason I did it to the other ship was because those two people deserved it. If I could, I would save everyone but them!" She cried out trying to convince me. She sounded so sad. Although for some reason, I don't blame her for some reason. I am kinda upset, but I can't possibly blame her.

"Then after you saw me, I went back to Azurine who was looking after me at the time because my brother hadn't return yet and she told me something happened with the oceans. It was turning darker, it was storming, it was thundering, and the dark spirit demons had gotten out. She told me we had to leave and the spirits were trying to take over.... our cities and kingdoms." She looked away sadly again.
They have towns there? I mean I guess that is normal but it is kinda the same but oceany.
"The council of elders had came up with a plan if something dangerous happens to the ocean. We would go on the surface until the ocean or the safe place is ready. And neither of them to this day are ready. The elders are still trying to create the safe place and they say it would be dangerous to go back to the cities and kingdoms. That is why." She turned to me,
"I told you almost about everything. You can hate me, you can tell me to leave, or you can never see me again if you want." Violet was now crying again with tears falling down her face.

"Pacific...No.. Oh Violet!" I pulled her close to me allowing my arms to go around her. "It's alright. Even though all that happen and I should be mad at you, I couldn't possibly hate you or wish to never see you again. I've been trying to see you for four years, I'm not just going to throw it all away for one mistake you did in the past. Sure, I'm upset...." I gave her a reassuring smile.
"...a little, but I'm not going to leave you for this. I'll still be here, I'll still be here for you....Pacific." She closed her eyes and allowed herself to rest between my arms. "Okay maybe I am, but not at you. I'm just mad at everything. Why did everyone have to die? My parents I just wish I could..." I trailed off.

"Thank you..." She whispered. "For understanding I would never hurt you. Besides they were the ones who deserved it, not you or any of your friends or anyone related to you." She still thinks they are in fault and not her. I'm not going to blame her and if I have to blame someone it would have to be her brother.

"Just because you don't know them doesn't mean they aren't good." I mentally punched myself for the stupid word choice. "I'm not the only human that you don't hate. If you knew more I'm sure you'd like them."

"It's easier to think this way besides most people on the ship had money. They were probably snobby and stuck up. Always thinking less of people that didn't have money. They thought just cause they had it, they could do whatever they want and you'd be force to. The less of them the better everyone is off." Violet stated proudly.
An indirect attack. Ouch, Pacific. You know... that sounds like something from what Melody would read or watch.

"You do realize....I well actually it's my parents...but my parents had money. Do you think I'm like that?" At once she realized something and shook her head.

"I didn't mean..." She looked frightened and shook her head, "but you are different. You are you. The others aren't you."

"So you are saying if everyone was me, this whole world would be better for everyone?" I asked jokingly, but she took it literally.

"Exactly!" She clapped her hands smiling. I sighed. I have a lot to help her understand. But at least it is me who is helping her. Not anyone else. Just me. And it makes me realize if she is Malseania, how does she act so different?
She wasn't even fazed by the conversation at lunch brought by Kaisa. For goodness' sake even Miracine looked sick and paled face then..... Now that I think about it, that was like how I kinda was. Could it Miracine?
And if it isn't Malseania maybe I should end things between us, but I don't want to use her. She is nice and sweet and would do anything to be with me.

"Pacific...It doesn't work like that. I am one person and I would prefer if there weren't a million of me's running around." I wouldn't want one of me doing anything making me the victim. But if there were several of me than people wouldn't be after me as much.

"What?" She looked at me. "If there were a millions of you I would be in paradise!"

I looked at her tilting my head. Sometimes she is really crazy. But that is what I like about her. "That's not how it works..."

"A world with only Seivon is the best world to be in. A world with just you and your friends and family is a world of utopia." I laughed at her naiveness.

I sighed before thinking of the time... It is late, and I do not want to go. But I have a plan to keep on seeing her. "I'll see you soon. Every evening from now on?"

"I will see you....." She paused looking hesitant. She was staring behind me.

"What is it?" I was about to look behind me but she put her hand on my shoulder.

"What?! It's fine. Everything is alright." She shook her head and smiled. She leaned close into me and I kissed her hand softly and nodded.
Okay....

She went down and disappear. With a flick of her tail she couldn't help but splash me. I smiled as I watched her swim rapidly. As she went under the sea, a trail lead to her destination.

~~~

"Oh Seivon!" Malseania waved her at me. She ran up and kissed me. I kissed back of course, but something felt off. I brushed it aside.

"Seania..." I hummed.

"You were with your friends for last few days, now lets have some time for ourselves.....Just us. No one else." She smiled leaning into my shoulder. She was sweet. She would never intentionally hurt me.

"I will always spend time with you, Seania. Don't forget." I told her gently, "Ever since then, I cared for you way too much."

"Come on, I want to show you something." I'd usually wait for Melody and the others, but I guess today I will leave early.
I will do anything for her.....

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I took too long doing this because I got distracted today 😢