"I wish you good night, good night, good night

Good night, good night.

Imagine my face, say hello to me

Then all the bad days do nothing me

With you,

Winter Bear."

- Winter Bear

V

Jin sat on the balcony, his knees tucked in his chest while his head laid on them. His tears had dried up and all he could do was just sit there and stare into nothingness.

Hoseok sighed as he saw the sight of the older, his heart clenching with pain. There were a lot of things going on in the seemingly dead house behind Jin.

Yoongi had locked himself up in his room as soon as Bullet-Proof reached this safe house and refused to come out despite the countless pleads of Namjoon and Hoseok himself. He needed Jin to ask him to come out.

But who was gonna ask Jin?

Hae and Taehyung were busy nursing Sarang back to her senses, since she was still unconscious from that incident in Bangtan Ink. But it was still of no use. Sarang still, was sleeping into oblivion.

Jungkook and Jimin were locked up in another room, reflecting on their actions for the past days. They hurt Jin to a great extent and weren't ready to face the oldest or anyone; just yet.

Hoseok lingered on the entrance of the balcony, hesitating to enter and talk to the oldest. After all, the Bullet-Proof has always claimed to trust each other, no matter the circumstances.

But, in the last few days, all the Bullet-Proof members had questioned Jin's sanity and loyalty towards them, at least once. Yoongi had even went to the extent of shouting at Jin.

The thing is Jin might be the oldest but he never bullied the his youngers. He might've bragged about him being oldest and façade his annoyance towards the youngers (Jimin and Jungkook, to be specific), but even after being the second-in-command in the gang, he never pressed things on anyone.

He trusted all the members more than anyone in the world.

The doubtful behavior of all the members towards him was enough of evidence to Jin on the decree of trust his members had towards him. That was what hurt him the most.

"Come on in Hope-ah. How long will you keep on standing there?" Jin said, without moving an inch.

"Hyung; how did you...." Hoseok's question lingered in in the air.

"I've been around you guys for a long time. I can sense each one of your presence. Come on in." Jin sighed.

Hoseok got in and sat beside Jin. Silently, Jin put an arm around Hoseok and pulled him close to his chest.

"What happened Sunshine? Why the long face?" Jin asked, his voice raspy. Hoseok looked at him to find Jin's face wet with tears.

"Hyung!" Hoseok cried, as he saw Jin's tears still flowing.

"Tell me everything Hyung. I want to hear everything. Tell me Hyung!" Hoseok said.

"You'll trust me? Every single thing I say? I don't know anymore Hobi-ah." Jin said, sighing deeply.

Hoseok's heart clenched as he saw the older rest his chin on atop his folded knees.

"Yes Hyung! I'll trust you. I've always trusted you. All of us have. Forgive us Hyung! We were just scared." Hoseok tried to make peace in the gang.

"Or the fact is as simple as saying, you guys don't trust me enough." Jin said, his tone acidic.

"Hyung, please! I beg of you. If you want us to trust you then tell me, tell us everything. Don't hide things. If we knew what Sarang meant to you, we wouldn't have been so doubtful. I swear Hyung! Just tell us."

Hoseok's voice was close to breaking and that is what made Jin open that corner of his life that he never thought he would open.

"She is my sister. After me and my Hyung, my parents always wanted a daughter. Said that would make the family complete.

Me and my Hyung also wanted a baby sister. So finally when I was 6 years old, she was born. She was the smallest bundle I'd ever seen.

So cute. So small. I named her you know. Though she loved both of us, I was her favorite. Jinnie oppa this. Jinnie oppa that. It was as though her life depended on me."

As Jin went on, Hoseok saw his raw emotions collect at the end of his eyes and flow down. He had never seen Jin cry soo much!

"I was her everything. She was mine. To be brutally honest right now, I never let her need Eomma. I was always their. My parents didn't have to worry about her. I was there. And, then."

Jin paused and let out a painful sigh.

"I was around 18 at that time. She'd turned 12. My Appa had some dispute with the local loan shark. Something about too much interest. My Eomma was beyond terrified!

Scared that the loan shark would end up hurting Appa or us. He didn't do it himself but he payed Shin Woohyun to do it. At that time, he was the right-hand-man of Inferno's leader. Also a good friend of that loan shark.

So Shin Woohyun set fire to my house one day while my Hyung, my baby sister and my parents were asleep. I was out of my house that night. At a friend's house. Sleeping over. When I returned the next day....."

The rest of Jin's sentence was drowned in a choked sob as he broad shoulders began to shake and he hugged his knees tighter.

"It's okay Hyung. You don't have to say anymore." Hoseok rubbed Jin's shoulders.

"No! If I want you guys to trust me, then I have to finish. After all, you're all the reason I survived all these years." Jin furiously rubbed his face and began again.

"Before I left that evening, Sarang was whining. She came up to me and told me that if I wasn't going to be home that night, who'd put her to sleep. I asked her if she wanted me cancel my plans because I would've done that if she said so.

Nothing was important to me more than her. But she shook her head and told me to go and enjoy myself. But before going, to put her to sleep. She was gonna go to bed early if I wasn't gonna be there for later. I did that and that was last time I saw her.

The next morning, when I came home, it was reduced to ashes. Lots of police cars, fire engines and ambulances. Outside was 3 gurneys, beside each other. Appa's, Eomma's and Hyung's. My mind went circles Hoseok-ah!

I lost my everything over night. When I asked them about her, they said they didn't find any one else but her room was completely reduced to ashes. They said if there was someone in there, then no one would've come out as a whole."

Jin paused for a moment and continued again.

"I lost my everything in less than 24 hours Hobi-ah. My parents. My older brother and my baby sister.

The next 3 years, I lived the life of a manic!

I scavenged around alley ways, under ground fights and where not, just in search of that loan shark. And, when I did find him, I saw him torturing yet another guy, maybe a few years younger than me.

The monster inside me, that was raging for him, grew twice it's size when I saw him.

I decided; enough is enough.

I was not gonna let that fucker destroy someone else's life like he destroyed mine. So I pulled out an old hand gun I'd stolen week ago and then and there; killed that man.

Killed that person because of whom I lost my family.

Turns out, that loan shark had also killed that guy's family. I told him to run from there and that I would handle everything.

But instead, that guy stood by my side and told me that he didn't have anyone like me so he wants to stay with me.

That guy was Namjoon. 19 year old orphan, Kim Namjoon. After us, you came around. Then Jimin and Jungkook. Then finally, we found Yoongi. With Yoongi came Hae and at last, we found Tae."

Jin let out a breath and continued

"And, just when I thought I once again had a family, like a cherry on top. She came up. My Sarangie. I couldn't even recognize her at first.

But, I found her. The same day she came here with Tae, was the day I noticed the bracelet that I gave her on her first birthday."

Flashback

"Jin-ah! Bring Sarang down here." Jin's older brother shouted. His parents and him had just finished decorating the living room for Kim Sarang's 1st birthday.

Came down a 7 year old Jin with his 1 year old treasure aka his baby sister, secure in his arms.

"Oohhh look at my babies!" Mrs. Kim cooed at the sight of her youngest. Jin had dressed little Y/N in a cute frilly dress and the top of her head was adorned with a white crown.

Seok Jung took his sister from Jin and joined his parents.

Sarang clung onto her older brother and looked around the glammed up surroundings, babbling away in her baby language.

"Hyung, don't I look handsome?" Jin asked, beaming at his older brother.

"Well yes Jin-ah! You look handsomely disgusting." Seok Jung snickered making Jin pout.

"Why did I even try? Sarangie will tell me." Jin bent down to his baby sister's level as she sat on Seok Jung's arms.

"Tell me Sarangie! Doesn't Oppa look handsome? Tell me my princess. Doesn't he?" Jin cooed while Sarang stared at her brother with big, curious eyes and just as Jin's pitch of voice went higher, she squealed loudly and cooed at her brother, giggling and babbling away.

"Aigoo my princess! You love Oppa soo much, don't you? Oppa loves you too." Jin cooed making all sorts of faces at Sarang.

Sarang sat there enjoying the show for a moment before looking at Seok Jung and then back at Jin.

She let out a loud, annoyed squeal and made grabby hands at Jin, her bottom lip turned.

"Yah Jin-ah, you punk!" Seok Jung wailed out. "She can't spend a full minute without you. What have you done?"

"She knows who the better Oppa is. Don't you Sarangie?" Jin took her from his older brother's arms and bopped their noses making Sarang squeal loudly.

"Aish you two." Mr. Kim tutted, sighing. 

"Get her here. It's time to cut the cake." Him and his wife were standing beside the small homemade cake with one candle on it.

The family sang their youngest Kim a very happy birthday while the said Kim, made herself comfortable on her older brother's arms, while she clapped and babbled away in her self made language.

"Now time for the Oppa's presents." Mrs. Kim announced.

Seok Jung got up and picked up a box from the small pile of them on the table.

"There you go Sarang-ah. I hope you like it." Seok Jung placed in front of her, kissing the toddler on her cheeks.

Jin carefully un-wrapped the box and Sarang squealed as she saw the contents.

It was a framed picture of Sarang, Jin and Seok Jung with their parents.

"Jin!" Sarang suddenly squealed, pointing at Jin's smiling picture self.

Little baby did not know what she just done.

Above her, Seok Jung, Jin and both their parents froze for a whole second!

It's not everyday a baby says her first word. That too, her older brother's name is the first full word she could speak.

"OMO!" Mrs. Kim yelped her hands flying to cover her mouth, tears brimming her eyes.

"Yeobo, did you hear that? Our princess said her first word. Jungie, look. Jinnie, look at her!" Mrs. Kim's excited voice stopped at her tracks when she saw the tear streaked face of her son.

"Jin-ah, baby. What happened?" Mr. Kim asked, clearly understanding the situation.

"Eomma, Appa. She said my name." Jin sobbed, holding Sarang tighter.

"What's the matter Jin-ah?" Seok Jung asked, rubbing the younger's shoulder.

"Hyung, that means she loves me more than anything? What if I fail to be the best brother Hyung? What if I get angry and shout at her? What if I make her cry? What if I hurt her?" Jin cried.

Baby Sarang didn't go around understanding why her brother was crying. To her, Jin was crying and that was more than enough of a crisis.

She pulled herself up on her brother's arms and startling everyone in the room, hugged her brother's neck with her tiny arms, burying her small face in the crook of Jin's neck.

"I think she doesn't like it when you cry like a pig Jin-ah! Look even she's close to crying." Seok Jung pointed, smiling at the his younger ones cuteness.

Jin pulled Sarang to face him and said, "No! You aren't allowed to cry. You're my beautiful princess. My princess doesn't cry. Shh!"

Sarang saw her brother's smiling face and erupted with giggles.

"Aigoo. I love you too Sarang-ah! I'll always love you like this." Jin kissed her cheek and in return got back a sticky open mouthed kiss on his jaw.

"Look what Oppa got you." Jin picked out a small box from his pocket. Sarang squealed as Jin pulled out two identical silver jewelries.

(The bracelets if you were wondering.)

"Jin, when did you buy them?" Mrs. Kim asked.

"I saved up money little by little for the last 6 months then went to the store alone and bought this for her and me. I wanted to buy one for Hyung but I remembered that he's allergic to metal. That's why." Jin explained.

He put on the bracelet on Sarang's small wrist and put the other one on his.

"Sarang-ie, I promise I'll always be by your side. When I'm here, no one can hurt you." Jin kissed Sarang's cheek making the baby squeal loudly again.

End of Flashback

Jin wiped his tears away and smiled at Hoseok.

"That's why she's so important to me. She's my everything Hope-ah. Now you get it, don't you?"

Hoseok nodded, his own tears flowing.

"But remember one thing always. You guys and her are the same to me. I don't differ between you six and her. And, now tell those brats to get in. I'm sure Jungkook and Jimin's legs are numb by now."

Just as Jin said that dull thuds sounded and turning behind the two of them saw the rest of the 5 boys, lying on top of each other.

Namjoon at the dead bottom, while Taehyung and Jungkook sandwiched in between with Jimin and Yoongi on top.

"Hyung, how did you-??" Yoongi pushed Jimin off his leg and walked towards Jin and Hoseok.

" I told you guys. I sense you guys' presence." Jin got up and before a word more could be exchanged, pulled Yoongi in his arms.

Yoongi buried his face in Jin's (world wide) shoulder and mumbled "Mianhae Hyung. Jinjja Mianhae."

"Aniya Yoon. It's okay." Jin laughed, rubbing the shorter one's back.

Then came in Namjoon, who waited till Yoongi was done and then hugged Jin tightly.

"I'm sorry for not trusting you Hyung." Namjoon said, sighing.

"You were just doing your duty Joon-ah. It's fine." Jin smiled.

The next ones were Jimin and Jungkook. These two were still hesitant but it was a family.

Jungkook, who was in a verge of tears, rushed inside Jin's arms.

"Hyung, Mianhae." Jungkook sobbed. "Yah! Yah! Yah Jeon Jungkook. Calm down. Hajima Kook-ah! Gwenchana. Yah! Stop crying." Jin shushed the youngest, his own eyes watering.

Once Jungkook was done, Jin looked at Jimin whose gaze was fixated to his feet.

Jin sighed before walking to the shortest one in the gang and engulfed him in a hug.

"Hyungie; will you please forgive me? I'm really sorry Hyung." Jimin cried.

"It's okay Jimin-ah. You were just scared. But next time, trust Hyung a little bit? Hmm? All of you." Jin looked at his family.

"Of course Hyung." Taehyung came up and pulled Jimin out of Jin's arms before filling up the place with himself.

"No matter what, we trust you Hyung." Hoseok smiled.

Then without warning, all 6 of them tackled Jin to the floor and lay on top of him.

"Yah! Yah! You brats. You're squishing me to death! Get off! Hajima Joon, don't! Yah! I'm gonna die!" Jin shouted, his voice beyond euphoric.

While the boys were busy squishing Jin, Hae ran in the balcony, her breathing labored.

"JIN! TAEHYUNG! SHE WOKE UP--- WHAT THE HELL?!" She shouted, stopping at her words as she saw the scene in front of her.

"WHAT?!" Both Jin and Taehyung shouted.

"Sarang woke up. Jin, she's asking for you." Hae saw Taehyung's tall figure rush past her, knocking her off her foot while Jin literally threw Yoongi and Hoseok off him and followed Taehyung.

Namjoon and Jungkook looked at each other and said, "What's up with Taehyung?"

If you guys can't tell yet, this chapter's for Jin. He's the best older Hyung BTS could have and he loves the members to death! It hurt my heart to see ARMYs hating him and hurting him.

He's literally the most stable vocal of Bangtan and also their biggest inspiration. He cares for the members in detail and it just hurts me seeing the so-called-fans hating and hurting this person, just for being himself.

Look I don't care if you guys get mad at me and stop reading my stories. I just love these 7 too much and when people talk shit about any one of them of them, I take it personally. Not only me but millions like me.

We're their ARMY. They're our BTS.

Our babies. Our Idols. Our Bangtan.

A big chapter for ya'all.

Ya'all go and thank

This yeoja made me fall in love with her instantly. Purple you fam!💞

YoonJin🥰

JiHope💗

NamJin🤩

JiJi😋 (If ya'all wondering, that is my self made ship name for Jimin and Jin. I can't seem to remember their ship name. Do they have one though?)

TaeJin😘 These two hit different. Any mentions of the argument they had, and I'll start crying. I don't like seeing these two apart!

Last but definitely not the least, my all time favorite JinKook🤭🤭🤭 I find it utterly adorable when they bicker but definitely cannot live without each other.

Hate me if you like but I refuse to call those guys who hate Kim Seok Jin, ARMY.

This name ain't for them!

I wish I had an older brother like Jin!

Bai Bai!

Borahae

Fay💜