Unstable emotions.

Dangerous.
At least for me.

Yet I can't shed tears in public.
Only when I'm at home.

Once I've tried to let out my tears in a case where tears would be shed.
It never happened.

It's difficult.
Emotion is like a whole new kind of level for me.

Yet I feel the emotions of those close to me.
That is something I cannot understand.
How can I be so sympathetic? I don't even know if that's the right word to use.

It wouldn't seem like it at first glance.
Then one gets to know me better and bam!
Just one emotional scene and I'm already sheding tears.
Only at home.

Too emotional?
I would know, if I couldn't breathe well all of a sudden.

Only happened twice.
Don't want it to happen again.

Some wierd feeling I get?
I don't know. . .there's this thing where my heart wants to beat out of my chest. Sometimes it kinda hurts and I need to get out and calm down.

Though I'm not sure if those are happening because of my emotions.

Though it has to be.
I just need to control them better when I'm vulnerable.