Ashley
I find Colby, he's by some river. I cautiously approach him and I sit down on the bench next to him.

"I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking. I thought maybe if I did some work it wouldn't hurt so bad, maybe losing Becky wouldn't hurt me as much, if I had my head in a book. But I was wrong and I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Colby."

A tear ran down my face as I turned towards him. The look in his eyes hurt, he just looked so broken.

"I really loved her and she'll never know...she's gone Ashley, the one person who may have made me happy is gone."

I went to hug him but he stopped me, he just looked up at me as hot tears ran down both of our cheeks.

"The worst part about it all is that I had to watch it, Becky told me to run but I couldn't. Uther had men outside ready to kill me, I had no choice but to watch her burn. I called out for her, I screamed her name but she was gone...dead."

He balled his hands up into fists and he pushed them into his eyes, almost as though he was trying to stop the heavy tears from falling.

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry Colby. I can't even imagine what you're going through. I feel it too, that almost guilty feeling settling in the pit of your stomach, you couldn't have stopped her and her intentions were pure...we can't ever feel guilty because she wanted us to be happy. Colby she wants you to be safe, which means she wants you to be happy."

"I kissed her, just before she did it I kissed her. It was only short but it solidified what my heart was telling me, I've felt grief before but this just feels so much more painful..."

I grabbed his arm and I pulled him into my chest, he wrapped his arms around me and he just sobbed into my shirt.

"You'll see her again one day, up there. Our parents will look after her until then, she's safe now okay? And so are we...I know it hurts, I know it does and that pain will never go away but it'll get easier. So come on let's go home and warm up..."

We waited a little bit just for him to stop sobbing, before we left that bench. It was a long walk to my car but I think this was what I needed. As we approached the still burning building, I saw Colby tense up and my heart ached for him. This life isn't fair and I don't think it'll ever be, but we have to keep going it's what she did all this for.

The drive home is quiet too, just with the odd noise of Colby sniffling every now and again. Once we got home, Colby locked himself in his room which left me alone on the couch. I tried to find something on the telly but everything was just rubbish...the house feels so empty even though me and Colby are in it.

I stand up from the couch and I grab the book on light lord vampires, I go to open it but it just hurts too much so I quickly shove it back on the bookshelf and I carry myself over to my bed, collapsing under the sheets. Maybe a good sleep will help.