i was so emotional the whole time i wrote this ))): i just want you all to know, that you're beautiful no matter what and deserve so much love and happiness !! love your bodies because they're perfect just the way they are ! this cannot be said enough, but i'm just gonna move on to something else before i start to cry ((again)).

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Imagine Kai finding out you have bulimia and wanting / trying to help you

To be quite honest, you were disgusted with yourself. But you couldn't do anything about it. You had no one to help you, and you were too embarrassed to tell anyone about the little thing that had grown into a nasty habit, a real serious one too. An eating disorder. Which you couldn't see, but it was truly dominating your life and leading you into darkness each day, and you had no one to pull you back.

Kai Parker happened to notice, though. He wasn't dumb, though had spent ages alone in the year of 1994, but he had adjusted to the present day quite well and he was quick to see when you, or anyone, happened to upset or if something was wrong. He quickly picked up your habits of a daily basis. How you barely ate with your friends in public, but if you did you got really hooked on the food and ate a lot of it, and afterwards, your face was painted with a depressed, guilty look. Soon you'd vanish in the bathroom, too, which worried Kai because even if it was unexpected from him, he was pretty sure he was already in love with you.

But he didn't have time to dig deeper into his own feelings. He was way too concerned about you. He started to keep a close eye on you, and noticed how your skin didn't look as healthy and glowing as he knew it once did, and your teeth were discolored, your hands had scars and marks on them, and you were often lacking of energy. He hated to see you that way, but at least he, unlike others, noticed that something was going on. He noticed, and he wanted to know more, so he could save you.

Although you had to deal with bulimia, you liked to spend time with your friends. The dark side only really came out when you ate or went to the bathroom, although you did exercise a lot but you did that with your friends too. So when a handsome, boyish, though evil, guy called Kai approached you, you didn't feel uncomfortable or ran from the situation. Maybe you should have though, because he was the Kai Parker that you had heard several stories of. The new villain in town.

But he was hot, indeed, and he treated you nicely so you did feel kind of attracted to him. You didn't want to get too close to him though, because of multiple reasons, but he was quite brave and confident around girls and had no problem with asking you out right away.

"I like you, Y/N. You should have lunch with me later this week", he suggested with a wild, cheeky smile, causing yours to drop. You had felt warm and happy, but the mention of food caused you to feel bad again. You did want to eat, but not around this guy, not around anyone. And you knew you'd lose control again, but you did want food. You wanted it badly.

"Sorry, but I'm busy", you said coldly, and left him alone in the park where he had met you after an intense workout you did all by yourself. You went to your house, and the first thing you did, was going to the fridge and finding something to eat.

And the night went the same way it always did.

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As your eating disorder went further, and you came to realize that you had bulimia, so did your friendship with Kai. Although you were falling deeper and deeper into darkness and you felt like you were dying inside, and you were altogether just a big mess, you liked to spend time with Kai and he soon became closer to you than anyone else. Your daily jogs with Elena were canceled because of something you were doing with Kai, and you had no time to go shopping with Caroline anymore. They were happy you had met someone though, even if it was the psychopath terrorizing Mystic Falls.

But with you around, Kai was a little less about the evil plans, and a little more about being with you.

He was hopelessly in love, and truly concerned about your condition too, so he had done what anyone with internet would do nowadays. He typed your symptoms in Google, and quickly learned that you could have bulimia, very possibly too, and he was going to approach you about it. Because he wanted to help. He didn't want you to be all alone.

"Y/N? Can I ask you something?", he mumbled on one day, when you were watching one of your favorite tv shows on your couch. Your fingers were intertwined, and you were pretty close to each other, and for a moment you thought you'd kiss soon but Kai had different kinds of thoughts.

You nodded, and waited for his question that he seemed to be both very nervous and serious about. He fiddled with his fingers, and looked down, not sure how to ask it. He was scared of what you'd say, whether you'd get angry at him or cry or admit that what he was assuming was true. He didn't want that. He didn't want it to be true. He didn't want you to suffer from something that evil. You were precious and worthy of love and he cared about you.

Of course he was going to support you and help you if possible, but he hoped for the best. He hoped that you'd be happy, and whatever was going on with you would just be a phase. Maybe you were stressed because of school, or something. But he knew he was right, and he hated it.

"Do you... Do you, uh, I'm sorry this is weird and I don't mean to upset you, but do you, um, do you have an eating disorder?", he asked, clearly nervous. His words managed to leave out a heartbeat in you, and you froze, not looking at the TV anymore. How had he known? You sat there quietly, wondering what to say, but maybe you didn't have to speak at all.

So you nodded. And although it was a small movement, it broke Kai's heart. He didn't hesitate pulling you into a hug for one second - he was now holding you tightly on that couch and kissing the top of your head, his eyes squeezed shut and his hands trembling as he tried to calm you by caressing your skin. You felt tears in your eyes, it was hard to face the truth, but then again, you were so happy that you had confessed to someone. You were glad that someone, happened to be Kai. You did like Kai, very much.

"I can get by on my own", you mumbled quietly, as he was squeezing your body against his.

"Yeah but Y/N, the thing is, you don't have to", Kai replied, and kissed your temple softly.

"I love you. I can't believe I actually do, but yes, I love you. And I want and need you to stay with me, Y/N. Without help, this could end badly. And I want to help you. So please, let me", he continued, his voice a gentle whisper in your ear. You slowly nodded, and as he hugged you, you knew that you wouldn't have to deal with this alone. With Kai's help, and a professional's help, you could get better.

God, you loved Kai.

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okay wow i really need to write some badass awesome happy sarcastic idiot kai instead of this sadsadsad stuff but idk i kinda liked this i hope you did too ((:

if you'd like to see some more kai right now then i suggest you go to the previous imagine and watch my new multifandom video attached to it ;))))) okay thankssss guys ilysm xx