Do you know that feeling?
When you read this writing tip saying it's better to join a book club. Then you saw the book clubs and book club members have a lot of fun, and their books get better. And your writing is so horrible and too dependant on your real life friends who don't want to hurt your feelings and think you're just a marshmallow that can't handle criticsm. Then you wanted to join one too, but every single damn one doesn't want new members or are too strict, like I'm sorry my timezone is a bit early than yours. Like I found this club with only 3 parts, with 5 members and there's "ACCEPTING NEW MEMBERS" in the description, but when I asked if I can join, the reply is like "We already took off. We're full now. You can join my other book clubs" and guess what, she has no other book clubs...  And you just get pissed and sad at the same time that you just write your story with anger and when you publish it, no one seems to really care. Even your parents and your friends get bored when you talk about your characters or story like I'm sorry my characters are the loyalest friends who won't get out of my head no matter what. But you bottle emotions a lot so you keep quiet then one day when no exciting thing happens, you get bored and remembers and get emotional and just sort of let it out in a rant if one paragraph?

Because I do...