*Sonja's PoV*

You're a horrible mother. Oh wait, your baby was never born, so you aren't a mother.
You would never be able to raise a child.
What made you think that you actually would?
Words and voices, none of which are my own, flooded my mind. Infesting every corner of my thoughts. The once vast, green meadows of my brain are now dangerous and rocky, only to be made worse by silence. That's when the monsters come out, slithering out from behind their rocks to add to the pain that I feel.
It's just as well that I don't have a baby to worry about. Correction. Two babies.
It's better for everybody if I just-
"Sonja darling please eat something" My mom said, snapping me out of my thoughts.
I put on my happiest (and most fake) smile as I stood up and walked into the kitchen.
You don't deserve to eat.
The vicious voice inside my head said. I sighed and walked back out into the living room.
"Did you get something Sonj?" I nodded happily and rubbed my stomach but stopped when a pain shot all across my stomach, was this normal... Probably..
I walked past the couch and up the stairs to my bedroom, well, Tom's bedroom but it's the only place I felt comfortable sleeping in.
"Hey Sonja.." I heard Tucker say cautiously.
Quickly put up your walls Mom.
We don't won't someone to think that you're weak, do we now?
I smiled widely again, "Hey honey. How ya doing?" He furrowed his brow.
"Sonja what's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong darling!" I smiled again, "Come here and give me a kiss!"
"Sonja talk to me." He stated simply.
Don't do it Sonja.
He'll just use it against you.
Keep your walls up.
"Sonja please" Suddenly the ground seems very interesting, oh look is that a new stain.. Gross.
"Sonja please" He pleaded again.
Stop! Don't let him in! The malicious voice yelled.
"Sonja I love you.. Let me in please.."
I could feel tears pricking the corner of my eyes and all my stone walls crumbling.

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Okay so I've been writing this of ages but I couldn't get the wording right..
Sorry if it's terrible I had a maths class today with a surprise test that I hadn't studied for so my brain is kind of pulp right now.
Buttt in happier news, THE AMAZING BOOK IS NOT ON FIRE IS OUT TODAY AND IM MEETING THE TWO NERD WHO WROTE IT ON THE 18th!! IM NOT READY!

Oh yeah and the blood moon I was so hyped up about, it was crap.. I could hardly see it from my window. :(

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