Wishing something you shouldn't have done and brooding over the things you are supposed to have done instead, is called regret. -greatfairy

Chapter 28: Regrets

SKEET'S POV

I don't trust women. Nah. Scratch that, I despise them. They're nothing but a disguised witch ready to trick men.

But my mom will always be an exception, she's amazing just the way she is. My sister is a brat and I don't like her.

Women are clever and pretentious and I will never let myself fall for their traps again. No. Not ever.

But I never thought I would eat my own words. Definitely I was choked by them.

Everything else changed when she came to my life.

She's my world, my everything. She put up every broken piece of me. She filled the emptiness in my heart. She changed me completely into a different person, definitely a better person.

Her smile completes my every day. Her laugh made me leave everything behind and live like there's no tomorrow. She is an epitome of innocence and beauty.

She's an angel literally sent from above to love me. She's my heart, the air I breathe, my love, my Nisyel.

The first time I saw her, she already captured my heart. She was looking at her reflection in the tinted glass door of my office, I find her stupid though. Isn't she aware that I can see her from the inside? But I felt my heart beat fast when I got to see her closer. She's not just an angel, she's a goddess for damn sake!

I tried to suppress my feelings for her, but I failed. And that was the sweetest failure I ever had. I chained my heart but she is like a living key that unchained it easily and fastly.

My love for her is a whirlwind, I fell for her too fast and too hard.

Alam niyo Sir, 'yon ang hirap sa inyo, eh! Ang baba ng tingin niyo sa aming mga mahihirap! Porke't mahirap lang kami, konting pagkakamali, stupid agad! Eh, ikaw nga itong stupid, eh! Lahat ginawa ko na! Pinangiti, pinatawa at inalagaan kita pero hindi mo pa rin alam na nililigawan kita! Hindi mo alam na gusto kita! STUPID!

I couldn't restrain myself from smiling every time I remember the day she confessed her feelings for me. That was an unexpected revelation from her. She's too innocent, yet straight forward.

I felt like flying without wings when she said she loves me, too.

But I hate how destiny played our fate. It messed up everything about us. Why of all people, she happened to be the bestfriend of the woman I loathe the most? Worst is, she happened to be a part of the family I despise to the core since I was young.

"Dee, bakit ka may litrato ni Mam- Ang ibig kong sabihin bakit ka may litrato ni Andrea Pelaez?" She asked out of the blue.

"Just don't mind that, Mee. Why? Do you know her?"

"W-wala naman, Dee. Hindi ko siya kilala. Ngayon ko nga lang nakita 'yan eh. Naikwento kasi sa'kin ni Mommy Amethyst na pinagtangkaan ng babaeng yan ang buhay mo noon," she answered nervously. I wonder why.

"Yeah. She did," I answered through gritted teeth. I cannot forgive the Pelaez' for messing up with my family. Not even in a single chance.

She's my weakness and I can't bear to see her cry, it kills me. But when I discovered her terrible lies, I lost my senses. I thought she's real and pure but she lied to me! It fvcking damn hurts!

Was she just toying over me all this time?

Did she plan to make me fall for her and dump me like a useless trash after she's done playing my feelings?

She's a con artist! How could she!

The thought of her fooling me all along breaks me into tiniest pieces.

I thought she's different.

I thought she's innocent.

I thought she's a decent woman.

But it turned out to be the otherwise.

"D-dee..." she uttered nervously while staring at me. Her lips are trembling in fear. Yeah, she should be.

"I can't believe you lied to me."

"D-dee, m-magpapaliwana-" I cut her off.

"Why am I surprised anyway? Women are of the same skin. I just can't believe I was fooled... What a hopeless, terrible liar bitch." I felt a stab in my heart when I see hurt written over her face. But no, she's an extraordinary con artist. I won't let myself fall for her tricks.

"Wala kang karapatang insultuhin ang anak ko! Kukunin ko siya sa puder mo!"

"Tama na, Mama." I looked away when she held her mother.

"You can bring your daughter, Mrs. Pelaez and I don't want to see your faces inside my territory when I come back." I said coldly and turned my back from them. The sight of them together is suffocating and it slowly kills me, too painful and unbearable.

"Dee, sandali!" I heard her called me from behind. I wanted to go back and hug her tight but I didn't. I'm hurt. Terribly hurt.

She's my kryptonite. I love her so much but it's too painful to be with her.

I let myself drowned from alcohol to forget everything but it was totally useless. Whether what state my mind is, she never leaves my mind. She has totally invaded my whole being. I am the colony and she is the heartless colonizer.

But I realized I am not a Mijares for nothing. I am strong and nobody dares to mess against me.

She's just a mere woman and I can forget about her, well I have to.

I banned her from my company. That way I can easily forget about her, as well as I could get even from her.

But who am I fooling around?

I can see her face in every corner of my office.

The way she smile, laugh, and even the way her brows raise whenever she's thinking about random things.

I felt empty. Too much silence is too deafening.

Damn! Should I fvcking change an office now?

No. It sounds coward.

I will never show to her I'm affected. I won't let my guards down.

But I realize I am just fooling myself.

"Dee!"

I was taken a back when she suddenly appeared out of nowhere. I wasn't able to prepare when she grabbed me into hug. I closed my eyes for a second. Damn! I missed her!

"Get off me," I said sternly and tried to get her hands off my body. But she is too persistent. She even hugged me tightier, and it feels so good. But I have to control myself before I lose my sanity and drag her into my office.

"Sorry na, Dee. Sorry na... Bati na tayo, please?" I felt a pang on my chest when I see her cry.

"I SAID GET OFF ME." I said almost losing my senses.

"Anak, bakit ba ang tigas ng ulo mo? Huwag kang magmakaawa sa Mijares na 'yan."

Her bitch mother suddenly came up.

"Hindi! 'Di ba, Dee, bati na tayo?" She whined like a child.

"Dee-"

"ENOUGH!" I said through heavy breath. I should get away with her right now. Thankfully, I was able to get her grip off my body.

"Tara na, anak."

But I was surprised when she stepped back while her tears flow freely from her eyes.

"Ang daya n'yo! Ang daya-daya n'yo! Bakit ba hindi kayo magkasundo?! Hirap na hirap na ako! Kung ayaw ninyong magkasundo, e 'di huwag! Bahala kayo sa mga buhay ninyo! Ayaw ko nang mai-stress! Ayaw ko na talaga! I QUIT!" She exclaimed nonchalantly. I can see how desperate she was.

I was stunned for a while when she ran away.

"Mahabaging Diyos! Ang babae! Ang babae!"

I witnessed how that fvcking car hit her helpless body.

That moment I lose my breath, my heart tightened.

I felt like the world collapsed.

Trembling in fear, I ran to see her.

"Mee! Please wake up, my love!" But I've got no response from her. My heart is pounding too fast and I can almost hear it.

No, no, no. This can't be!

I can't lose her!

"Please, please hold on, my love. I'll bring you to the hospital." But I was like talking to a stone.

I never knew how I was able to reach the hospital.

Damn it!

This all my fault!

I'm an asshole!

I'm a dumbass!

Only if I just listened to her.

Only if I have just accepted her sorry.

Only if I have just talked to her.

Only if I have just hugged her, she wouldn't have ran away.

DAMN ONLY IF'S!

How stupid I am to ignore her!

She wouldn't be here in this hospital fighting for her life.

She wouldn't be suffering from those pains.

I couldn't forgive myself if I lose her!

I'm sorry... I'm really sorry, Mee! Please hold on my love. I can't live without you Mee. I would rather die if I lose you. I love you so much... I'm sorry...

"Kailangan niyong pirmahan ang waiver na 'to, Misis. Nagkaroon ng internal bleeding ang ulo ng pasyente dulot ng malakas na pagkakabagok nito at may nakita rin kaming mga bubog sa kanyang mga mata. Kaya kailangan niyang sumailalim ng dalawang operasyon. And we need an eye donor as soon as possible."

"WHAT?" My voice raised upon hearing what the doctor said.

"Gusto ko lang kayong paalalahanan bago niyo pirmahan ang waiver na 'yan. Kritikal ang kalagayan ng pasyente dahil sa tinamo niyang impact ng aksidente. The patient has only 50 percent survival. Ibig sabihin ay hindi tayo makakasigurado kung magiging successful ang operation."

How dare he?

"THEN DO EVERYTHING TO SAVE HER LIFE!" I shouted before I held his neck.

"Skeet!/Kuya!"

"YOU SAVE MY GIRLFRIEND'S LIFE OR ELSE I WILL BURN THIS HOSPITAL, GOT THAT?!"

"W-we w-will d-do e-everything we can, Mr. Mijares."

I gave him a daggering look before I release his neck.

My beloved Nisyel needs me.

She needs my eyes.

If that what it takes her to forgive me.

I would give up everything for her.

I love her. I really love her... more than my life.

©GREATFAIRY