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After a few minutes, I decided to join Wei Ying. I went out of the Seclusion Pavilion leaving Baochen and the others.

I could not see him anywhere, where could he have gone! I returned to the Jingshi, but it was empty. I tried the cold spring, nobody. I finally went to the clearing. There he was, lying in the grass among the rabbits. I approached him in silence. His eyes were closed.

"Lan Zhan?" He must have heard me.

"I thought I was silent!".

"You are, but since we are lovers, I feel your presence even without seeing you. You opened your eyes and smiled at me. I sat down in the grass next to you. You moved your head to my lap. You closed your eyes again.

What were you thinking? I couldn't imagine what was going through your mind after all those revelations! You turned on your side and nestled your face against my stomach. A smile played on your lips.

"Lan Zhan, I love the way you smell, it's enchanting! I feel safe when I'm near you.

"No one will hurt you anymore!

"I know. But it's the one I did to you that hurts me the most".

"What do you mean?

"All these years, my mind was locked up and I don't have any memories. But you, you had to go through everything alone, until you committed the irreparable. If Baochen hadn't been watching you, I wouldn't be in your arms today. I would be alone and I'm not sure I would have put up with it."

"Why torture yourself with this? The past cannot be rewritten. It is over. We must look to the future".

"Except that your future may be in jeopardy because of me. You may lose your position as Patriarch of the Clans!

"You know that I didn't want it in the first place!

"But you were made for it!

"No, I was made for you, just as you were made for me!

You kept silent, then you spoke again.

"In Xining, what made you change your mind?

"I met someone. He looked like you. For a moment, I thought you had come back to me. Like you, he had chosen a dangerous road and I could not save him. He gave his life to protect me... from your brother." You straightened up all at once.

"Jiang Cheng?".

"Mnn, you know he was chasing after demonic cultists. Hu Meng was one of them.

"Is that what he was called?".

"Mnnnn, he came between Jiang Cheng and me. Zidian threw her over the edge of the cliff; I caught her but the water from the nearby waterfall soaked our hands and they slipped. I watched him fall into the precipice as I had done to you. I rushed down and found him lying on the rocks. It was then that I truly realized your loss and my mind to ..."

I couldn't put into words what I had felt. Words had never been my forte. I felt a tear roll down my cheek. You raised your hand to wipe it away with your fingertip.

Your lips came to me and rested on mine. Your decline became more and more demanding just like your hands. You made me fall backwards in the grass. It was strange, I had no desire to resist you. Your hands slipped into the indentation of my dress and stripped my shoulder. Your lips continued their exploration from the base of my neck to the nape of my neck and finally to the curve of my shoulder. I could feel your weight on me. But that's not all I could feel! One of your hands went up my dress and slipped into my pants. You started to caress me. You were really getting into it! How far were you willing to go? How far was I willing to let you go? Until today it was always me who took the initiative. Now I had the impression that you wanted to be the one to lead the dance and I ... I think I wanted to let you do it, even if I was afraid!

It was the first time in three months that I thought about our first night. That night, you must have been scared too, when you saw that I was taking things into my own hands! What were you thinking when I took you? I knew that you were willing and that you knew how it was going to happen. But what did you feel in your body when I entered you? You told me it didn't hurt, but the next day you couldn't make a move without wincing in pain for hours! Why did you tell me the opposite? You told me that I gave you pleasure, but was this pleasure the same as the one I felt when I took possession of your intimacy?

I was curious to know. I felt your fingers enter me. Unconsciously I contracted.

"Tell me, if you don't want to. After all, it's our second, first time!" your mischievous gaze rested on me.

"Don't you like my caresses? Tell me what you want!

"Why do you ask?

"You don't show me if you like it. You don't moan... you don't make any sound that can guide me into what pleases you!".

"It's not in my nature... Continue!".

My hands clutched at you as I felt your second finger join the first. Your mouth was nibbling on my chest. I clenched my lips. Your caresses made me feel so good. Your tongue titillated the pink tip of my nipple. It was giving me a different kind of pleasure than I usually felt, but just as intense!

My hands went up into your hair. I pressed your face against me, I wanted more. My whole lower body was crying out for more. You pulled my knees up and tilted me slightly to the side. When your third finger entered, a slight moan escaped my lips. I heard a small laugh against my chest. My pelvis tilted and pressed against you. My breathing quickened. I felt the fever of possession rising in me. I understood your moans of pleasure when it was me who made these gestures!

One of your hands passed at the level of my kidneys and the other raised one of my legs a little higher than it was. Your mouth met mine. I suddenly felt a pain that tore through my lower abdomen. You were inside me. I closed my eyes. You waited a moment for the pain to pass and then you started to move. My hips started to follow you. There was no more pain, just pleasure in successive waves. Did you feel this every time? I started to moan. Your lips took hold of mine again as your tongue slipped between them. I could hardly breathe. Your mouth went down my neck and nibbled, then up my cheek. You lifted up slightly and your hands clamped mine over my head.

I could feel you coming and going inside me, more and more powerful. Your sex was getting bigger as your fever grew. I was getting harder too. I felt you withdraw and your mouth took the direction of my member raised like a sword towards the sky. It seized it. Your lips had begun to go back and forth devastatingly for my senses! I could not hold back any longer!

"Resist a little more" you said to me when your mouth went up to my lips. You came back inside me and your hand took hold of my sex.

"Now you can let yourself go whenever you want! You stroked me energetically at the same pace as the jerks between my thighs.

The desire and pleasure you had unleashed in me suddenly went wild. A liquid flowed between my thighs and between my buttocks. I felt all your weight on me.

Our dresses were going to need a good cleaning!

Your forehead pressed against mine. When I opened my eyes you were staring at me with a smile.

"Say Gege, you know anyone could have seen us?"

"Conjugal duty!".

"What?" You moved slightly away from me.

"Nobody ever comes but the kids to feed the rabbits!".

"That's not what I meant! I was referring to marital duty.

"We are married and equal in our relationship. We will find a balance for our marital duty. You nuzzled your face into my neck, as you used to do.

"To tell you the truth, Lan Zhan, I like it when you take charge. But I'm willing to do it when you want to, or need to ... like today!

I tightened my embrace around you.

"Now I am yours, just as you are mine.

"Lan Zhan, sometimes I feel like I'm taking advantage of you.

"Why?"

"For years, I took care of others, whether it was Jiang Cheng or the Wens. Now I want to do the same for myself. Is this selfishness? And what's more, it's on you!

"Did I complain?"

"You never complain!

"Do you know why?

"Mnn, no.

"I missed you so much during all these years that today I only want to take care of you and cherish you.

"Is it true? Don't you feel that I am abusing the situation?

"Sometimes ... but from you it doesn't matter, because I love you.

"I love you too.

We lay there in the middle of the clearing surrounded by the rabbits that came back to us after our lovemaking was over. It didn't matter to us that they saw us. We were together and no one could separate us.

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