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The day had been rich in events. No, in fact it was the last two days that had been rich! I, who for years had refused to accompany Lan Zhan to YunShen Buzhi, had come back of my own accord to be with the one who, I now knew, had always been the love of my life!

Last night I had become his and I had no regrets about submitting. On the contrary, I seemed to have finally found my place. I felt wonderful and serene. Especially now that we had had an explanation with Lan QiRen.

I had learned a few things about Lan Zhan. I was beginning to understand what he had gone through after my death and why he had changed. Oh sure, for those outside, he hadn't changed because it was gradual, but I noticed it right away! I didn't mind! I had loved the teenager he was but I loved even more the man he had become.

After Lan QiRen's explanations, it was decided that we would get married! I must admit that I was still amazed! I was going to unite my life to my soul mate's and that in front of everybody! Even if relationships between men were tolerated in our society, how would the clan leaders react? That was my only fear for our common future! Lan Zhan had told me not to worry, that he would take care of it... I was a little ashamed to unload all the responsibilities on his shoulders, but it felt good to regain some of my former carefree attitude.

It's strange, I suddenly realized that I was going to be part of the Lan Clan through our union! I would never have imagined that one day! And even less to become the nephew of Lan QiRen ! I had promised Lan Zhan and Lan Xichen to make efforts with their uncle, but I knew myself, my facetious nature might get the better of me very quickly.

I went out onto the gallery. Lan Zhan was clearing the table. He had become a real chef. I couldn't believe it! But at the same time, I didn't know a single thing he didn't excel at!!!

I sat on the railing and looked up at the starry sky. The Jingshi was a little out of the way from YunShen Buzhi's other homes. Lan Xichen had told me one night that this was the pavilion that he and Lan Zhan had used as their mother's home. It was not a home for her, but a prison. I didn't ask any questions, but I understood that their father's love for their mother was one-sided, and that it was for this reason that he had lived almost all his life as a recluse, abandoning the education of his children to his brother... to his clan!

Lan Zhan, like me, had not had an easy life. We had both lost our mother at a young age. If for me my father had died at the same time as his, for Lan Zhan it was almost the same thing, because he had no contact with him until his death during the destruction of YunShen Buzhi by the Wen Clan.

A soft melody rose in the night. Our music! My soul mate liked to play it at night. I had noticed that he played this music when he was upset or worried! Why tonight? Everything was going well in our lives... for now.

We were getting married, I had made peace with my nephew, my relationship with Jiang Cheng was still not perfect but it was cordial. Lan Zhan and I got along well, both in our everyday life and in our married life. It is true that sexually we were made for each other! It's funny because today I couldn't imagine what it would be like with a woman!

What could have disturbed him? I approached him and sat down in front of him.

"Lan Zhan, what's wrong? Is something wrong?"

"Xichen and HuaiSang."

It's true that since the Guanyin Temple, Lan Zhan had told me that they were avoiding each other. I looked questioningly at my love.

"Brother is hiding his feelings. He will find it hard to forgive, even if he understands the reasons why HuaiSang did what he did... After you left, he shut himself up in the cold cave. He only came out a few days before your return.

"How do you think we can help him?

"You can help him!"

"How? "

"By being you!"

What did he mean? By being me?

"Lan Zhan, I don't understand!

"You have a gift, to beautify the lives of those close to you. Didn't you notice his smiles, even faint, when you speak. He has always liked you and this since the first time you came to Gusu. And you haven't really changed since then!"

"That's not what everyone thinks, for many, I am and will always be the Patriarch of Yiling, master of demonic culture."

"But we know that this is not true! Your heart is no longer perverted by the Yin Hufu, and above all, it is at peace now. It has found its place in our love.

"Lan Zhan, there is something I have been wanting to ask you for a while.

"I am listening to you.

"After Guanyin Temple, why did you let me go?"

You stopped playing and looked me in the eye.

"I couldn't hold you back. Our lives were so different! You are like a wild animal. You like to be free in your movements and actions! You had just come back to life. You were thirsty for adventure. Me ... I was born and raised to follow rules. When I met you, I realized that I was missing a lot of things, but I was so conditioned by my education that I refused to face the truth. It took losing you and being locked up for 3 years in the cold cave to make the decision to stop submitting. But after the Temple, the problem was that I realized that many people outside of my clan were looking to me for answers or solutions to their problems. I had no right to leave them. You see, I couldn't leave YunShen Buzhi. You have always been a freedom-loving spirit. If I had asked you to stay, you might have done so. But for how long? You might have ended up hating me, so I preferred to let you go. It had to be your decision to come back to me. I had waited for you for 16 years without knowing if you would ever come back to me. Now I knew that we would meet again. You had promised me that. I was ready to settle for what you would have given me, one day, one week or one month!

"And I came back to give you a lifetime"

"Mnnn! I knew you were coming back".

"What do you mean?"

" The dream "

" What dream? "

"After you died, I had many dreams and even more nightmares. Among the dreams I had, I saw you from behind on the cliff playing our music on Chenqing and then you turned around and smiled at me. I had this dream until my trip to Qishan, three years after your death. I had it again on the evening of your return to the Mô manor and one last time two days ago, the day before you returned to me.

"A premonitory dream!"

"Mnnn"

"Lan Zhan one more thing I would like to ask you, this music you composed, did you find a name for it?"

You smile at me and start playing again.

"I composed it the night we came out of the cold cave. It represents the feelings I have always had for you: loneliness, love, hope. It is for you because it is... you".

"What did you call her?"

"Wuji, the untamed" I smiled.

"Lan Zhan, I'll tell you a secret.

I got up, walked around the table and knelt down beside you. I put my mouth to your ear.

"Lan Zhan, the untamed one is no more! For I submit myself totally to your love.

"Then we will have to give him another name"

"We have all our life for that"

Your lips were on mine and you took me in your arms. Not sure we'll make it to bed tonight .... !!!!

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