I let out a scream. Tears sild down my face. I grip my head and my chest. I couldn't stop the tears.

"So now say it, which are you?" Future Me kneels down.

I couldn't even talk. I don't think I can really breathe. My head is screaming. I let out another scream. I then take in a breath. I am not saying anything to him. Nothing will come out of my mouth. I'm too shocked to even speak. I breath quickly and heavily.

"Say it!!" He yells. 

I shake my head. He grabs my neck and lifts me up. Not tight or anything just a gentle grab. He throws me aside. Now that wasn't so gentle.

"Say it!!" He yells.

"I'm a... monster." I breathe.

"That's right. We're monsters. So, stop running and let us conquer death itself. We can become immortals." He walks in front of me.

The shadow circle dies down like fire. He offers me his hand once again. For a long time, I consider taking it. He's right about everything. He's right about everything about me. I can't help it. I'm a cancer. I've hurt so many people. I look at Yanli and Jiang Cheng.

"Face it, they hate you as much as their mother." He says.

Jiang Cheng does hate me. I know they do. They cannot deny it. I hate myself, so how can they love me? Can you even love a monster? I reach for his hand. Then I feel a blast of pain in my chest. I look. I see a sword in Future me's chest. Clan Leader Nie's sword. He throws Future me aside. I stand up. I felt the sword. 

"Xian!" Yanli screams to me.

I put my hand on my chest. I feel blood coming out. I feel the pain. Lan Zhan grabs me. 

"Wei Wuxian? What's happening?" Clan Leader Nie asks.

I hear laughing. Future me gets up and walks forward.

"We are the same person. You can't injure me without injuring him." He points to me.

Kai Long comes to us.

"Let's go." He goes off.

I need to sleep. I need rest. I fall into Lan Zhan.

"Wei Ying." He says.

Then everything falls into darkness.