I wince as Lan Zhan wipes my hand. I'm puzzled by the message. What puzzles me most is why the message seems familiar. How is this possible? My head is spinning with a million ideas and questions. Lan Zhan puts down the wipe.

"Lan Zha, what do you think it means?" I ask. 

He just looks away. Yeah, I know it means something bad for me. Usually everything bad happens to me. I've suffered here more than anyone else. My real parents died when I was four. I've caused the death of my adoptive parents. My stepmother's last words to me were that she hated me. Yeah, no one's suffered as much as I have. 

I grip myself. Death should be after me. I should've died long ago. I should've...

"Xian, how are you feeling?" Yanli says breaking my thoughts.

"Fine..." I mutter. 

Lan Zhan stands up and does a bow. He then walks off. I look at her. She looks so beautiful.

"Jiang Cheng never stopped searching for you." She smiled.

"Don't try to lie about it. We both know he thinks I'm shit." I say. 

His lasts words to me before I fell was go to Hell. Hell of all places. I guess I deserved that. Before I jumped everything practically went to Hell. There was fighting. There was death. There was me. I was the cause of it all. I have done so many bad things. Hell is too good a place for me. 

I deserve something much much worse.