Wei Wuxian's PoV

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Get the tissue box ready!

I knew he was coming, my spies had told me. In fact, I was hoping he would come. I was waiting for him.

I had set everything up, I had prepared myself. I had removed those who shared my ordeal, soon they would be free too.

Ni bi, my little darling... you were only 2 years old, you were only a child who had the right to live like all the little girls of your age.

A-Qing, you too deserved to live. I know I was leaving you with a heavy responsibility, but knowing you I knew I could trust you.

I heard footsteps in the stone hallway. He was coming. In a few moments he would be here, he would cross the entrance and I would finally be free... if he would grant my request.

"Wei Wuxian!" came Lan Wangji's sure and cold voice.

I turned my back to the entrance.

His voice hadn't changed in all these years! And what was he like today, it had been so long since I had seen him, 17 years!

I turned around slowly. He was still the same! He was standing straight, sword and arm extended towards me. Dressed entirely in white, with an intricate hair ornament on his bun, he still had that divine aura floating around him. His jade complexion seemed even paler than I remembered. His eyes a little more sunken perhaps ... he seemed tired!

His eyes... It looked like they were slightly reddened!

My heart raced as it did in my youth, nothing had changed. I was still attracted to him. How many times had I fantasized about that slender, milky body? How many times had I imagined my lips roaming over his skin and above all how many times had I dreamed of seizing his virtue.

The great Lan Wangji, so pure, so straight, so perfect!

I had held back because I didn't want to soil this purity. I wanted to keep it intact in my mind. An ideal I could never possess!

"Lan Wangji!" I replied in the same cold, dry tone.

"Wei Wuxian, I have come to get you to answer for your crimes!"

"Answer for my crimes? Who do you think you are, Lan Wangji? My judge? My executioner?"

"You have murdered and slaughtered thousands of innocent people. Burned and looted many cities! Have you no honor to deny your deeds?".

"I do not deny what I have done but I am not responsible for it!"

"How dare you! I saw you with my own eyes killing followers of my clan and burning the cradle of my family!"

"I told you I didn't deny what I did...I'm just telling you...I did it against my will!"

"Lie!"

"Truth!!! Lan Zhan, you know me! Do you really think I could have committed such horrors of my own free will?"

"You don't seem to be under any control"

"You're right, not in this place! ... that's why I let you find me ... because I have something to ask you ..."

"You're trying to put my suspicion to sleep!"

"Wrong! I'm looking for your help"

"My help? Why would I help a murderer?"

"Because outside this place, I am no longer master of my actions. I am completely under the domination of Wen Ruohan and his son! Because I am aware of what I am doing, but my will is subject to the whims of Wen Chao! Lan Zhan, I have been living in hell for 17 years. And I can't take it anymore. A few years ago, with the help of a friend, I managed to build this sanctuary. In this one room, I can be myself again! That's why I brought you here. To talk to you and to ask you to help me finish. Lan Zhan, help me to end this ordeal, help me to die!

"If what you say is true, why don't you end your life yourself?"

"Do you think I haven't tried that already? But it's impossible, my conditioning prevents me from doing so!"

I could see him hesitating. He must have been trying to weigh up the pros and cons.

"Lan Zhan, what does it cost you to kill me? Anyway, if you bring me back, I will be tried and executed! In the end I would die, so why not grant my request right here and now?"

He was still hesitating, but his sword had lowered slightly. I approached. She took her place straight in front of him.

I continued and stopped when the point was against my chest. I grabbed it and placed it at the level of my chest.

"Lan Zhan, you just have to press it and the point will go into my heart. I would rather die by your hand than by a stranger's. If you ever considered me a friend, please accept my request.

I could see his hand trembling. The knuckles of his fingers were white, so tightly gripping the handle. I saw him swallow.

"Do you have a last wish?

I sighed, he accepted my request. I smiled when I heard his question. Yet I should have known that he would ask me. It was the ultimate question for those condemned to death!

"No, because my wish is unfulfillable!" I felt the tip press a little harder on my chest.

"Speak! How can you know if your wish can be granted if you don't make it!"

A cynical laugh escaped my lips. After all, why not! If I asked him, he would hate it and would feel less remorse for killing me!

"Very well, here is my last wish, I would like .... to kiss you.

He marked a moment of surprise at the same time as a movement of retreat. I started to laugh!

"You see I told you so..."

"Okay!"

My laughter stopped short;

What had he said? He was... okay? It was a joke, he was making fun of me!

His sword lowered. I looked at him without really understanding. My body began to move on its own and I approached him. Our faces brushed against each other. I was short of breath. I could feel his breath on my skin. I wondered if his heart was also threatening to leave his chest, so anarchic was its beat?

I put my lips on his without really believing it. They were soft, fresh, wet and had a little salty taste. I brushed my hand against his cheek and kissed him more insistently. I had the surprise to note that his lips answered each request of mine. I stuck me against him and passed my hand in the hollow of his kidneys. He still did not push me away. I heard his sword fall to the ground and felt his hands knot behind my neck. What was going on? Was I dreaming? I felt my desire for him soar. I wanted to devour him, to tip him onto that piece of furniture behind him and take over his body.

"Lan Zhan, we are going astray..." my lips continued to beg for his.

"You lied, your last wish was not to kiss me.

"No ...."

"What did you really want?" I left his lips for a moment and pulled away to look into his eyes.

"You know that... I wanted you! I'm ready to damn myself for one night with you!

"Since it's also my last night and my last will is the same as yours, I'll give it to you!

"What do you mean by... your last night?"

"If I kill you, do you think I could go on living? I would grant your request and when it is done I would join you. I hope that in another life we can meet again and love each other.

"Love each other?"

"Mnnn" I smile at him.

One night was more than I had ever hoped for. I defied his belt and slid his dress to the floor.

"Lan Zhan, are you sure about this? Because in a moment it will be too late to turn back..."

"You haven't changed... you talk too much!"

"And you, you are right as always!" I kissed him again.

I took off his tunic. His skin was really translucent. White and satiny, without imperfections. His beardless chest was soft to the touch. My fingers wandered around underlining each muscle of his chest and back. I took possession of his lips while my right hand pinched her nipples. I felt them harden... funnily enough I didn't know that a man's nipples could harden like a woman's! My left hand slid down his back to his pants. It crept under his belt to the groove of his buttocks. It immersed itself between them and found without difficulty the intimate orifice which it sought. I felt it contracting when my finger penetrated in him. It gripped my shoulders.

"Relax, do not worry, I'll help you! I guided him to my bed.

"Help me to undress.

It was strange to me that his fingers, so skilled in playing the Qin, had trouble untying my belt. Was it apprehension? I said to him jokingly.

"Lan Zhan, it never seems that your fingers have already removed your wife's dresses!

He froze with a start. I should never have mentioned his wife, and even less in the situation we were in at that time! He looked me straight in the eye.

"They never did!"

What had he just said?

"What?"

"My fingers never undressed my wife. We never consummated our union."

"You mean you never .... ? "

"Mnn... never. For me, there could only be you in my bed!"

"So you also felt the same way?"

"Mnn..."

I finished undressing and made him lie down. I took off his pants and lay down against him.

We only had one night, the last night of our lives. I was going to take all my time to discover every part of his body. I wanted him to enjoy it too. The possession was only a detail. The discovery of pleasure was a path of forbidden delights. In this world where our love was forbidden, we would have had no future. In our next life, I would do anything to find him and conquer him!

His hands ran down my back and into my hair. My lips tasted the flavor of his skin. Against my thigh I could feel his desire rising. In his eyes, the fever was beginning to consume him. The undulations of his pelvis against mine were a clear indication of what he wanted. My hand followed the roundness of his buttock then once arrived on the thigh, raised his leg to my shoulder. Then it returned towards the heart of its intimacy to penetrate there. As the first time it contracted, I caressed it and nibbled it to distract its attention. He relaxed gradually. When my 3 fingers were in him, he emitted a small moan which made me smile. I kissed his ankle, which was on my shoulder. I lifted his other leg. His eyes were completely feverish. He screamed as I entered him. I couldn't believe I was making him mine. This had always been an unattainable dream for me and now I was moving inside him. My sex was as hard as a piece of wood; his moaning excited my desire! I hoped with all my heart that it was the same for him. This night would be unique, there would be no other... I was going to make it last as long as possible...

We loved each other all night long, without taking the time to sleep, we would have plenty of time for that! Our two bodies seemed to be made for each other. I had dreamed so much of these moments that I savored every contraction of his body around me, every caress of his hands on my skin. His moans of pleasure were like sweet music to my ears. I never imagined that his body was so flexible. I made his take crazy positions to intensify my pleasure and his. I didn't count the number of times we came, but each one brought on an orgasm that took us even higher on the pleasure scale. We were sweating. The sheets were soaked with both our sweat and the flow of our semen.

When the dawn crossed with its bright rays the opening in the top of the cave, we both knew that the time had come.

We kissed each other tenderly and got up. After washing and dressing, Lan Zhan went to pick up his sword. I came to embrace him from behind. I placed a shower of kisses on his neck...

"Where is yours?" he asked me.

Reluctantly I detached myself from him and went to find Siubian.

I walked back to him ... we stood face to face.

"Lan Zhan I love you!"

"I love you too."

He put the tip of his sword on my heart and then came to grab my lips. I felt the pain in my chest as his sword went in. Eventually I collapsed to the ground, my lips leaving his forever. In the few seconds before I died, I saw him draw Siubian and put the blade to his throat.

"I'm coming my love" were his last words.

Blood spilled over the blade and his face fell next to mine.

In a last effort I raised my hand to touch his cheek and with my last breath I whispered.

"For eternity."

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