Alisa-

"Alisa I'm sorry" Chase pleaded as we sat in the car.

I felt so embarrassed. So humiliated.

His hand gripped mine, I wanted so badly to yank my hand away.

"You put me in that position" I argued. I was mad. I was frustrated with myself. "You made me play that stupid game" I said. I felt like crying. I felt like letting my tears flow down my face because nobody understood.

"I'm sorry" He said again. He did seem genuinely sorry. I believed him, but that didn't change the fact that I felt like an awful person.

"No. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I can't remove my shirt because I'm too insecure, I'm sorry that I can't be more like Skylar and let everyone see me because-" I started to say, but Chases hands went straight for my shoulders. He looked at me with intense eyes.

"Don't you ever apologize for not being like Skylar. I love you. I love you for you. I don't care if you lack confidence because you're perfect to me" He said. He searched my eyes like he always did. He searched them for answers.

Tears started cascading down my cheeks, salty tears.

"Don't try and make me do something I don't want to do" I stuttered. I didn't stick up for myself often, I didn't voice my opinion often. But the situation he put me in tonight was unbearable. I couldn't go through that again.

Sadness filled his eyes as he embraced me, his hand held my head on his shoulder. He didn't let go.

"I won't. I'm sorry" He whispered in my ear. I knew he was being genuine.

The tears didn't stop, and eventually they were rapidly flowing down my cheeks as sobs escaped my mouth.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry" he whispered over and over again in my ear. It wasn't him I was upset over, it wasn't him. I was embarrassed, I was embarrassed because I hated my body so much that I was scared for people to see me.

And that's why I cried. I cried because I wish I could love myself the way Chase does.

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"I'm glad you wanted to come" I said. I sat on a rock that over looked the waterfall. I think it was about 12 am now? I wasn't sure, because whenever I come here I always loose track of time.

"Of course" He said. Chase was sitting next to me, his hand was wrapped around my shoulder. In this moment I felt safe in his arms. I didn't even bother to bring my pocket knife with me tonight.

"You come here often?" He questioned. I nodded.

"Almost every night" I said while gazing into the distance. I saw him nod. He probably has so many questions. "Insomnia. I can't sleep" I said. He nodded again.

It baffles me because for the first time in forever I felt tired. Laying in Chases arms, his scent made me feel complete and my eyes started to droop. I quickly shifted so I didn't fall asleep.

"Whats you favorite color" I asked randomly. I was pretty sure I already knew the answer, but I wanted to hear it from him.

"Green" He said. I heard him smile.
"Yours is violet" He answered for me. I nodded. Honestly it kind of surprised me that he knew.

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Chase-

She fell asleep when we got back to the car. She slept so soundly, so beautifully. I'm not sure how I made it through tonight and I'm almost positive that Skylar isn't done.

I was scared that Skylar would tell her, and honestly I think maybe I should tell Alisa myself. It just scares me because I don't want to hurt her. That's the last thing I want to do.

Maybe I shouldn't tell her.

Ugh.

I got so lucky with her

I didn't want to lose her