Will smiles a devilish smile at me. "Hello Hailey, Brianna," he looks over at Chris and gives her a disgusted look, "you. Fancy seeing you all here." Bri looks at him as if he's gone mad. Chris is staring him down with a blank expression. And I, well I'm hiding behind the both of them for protection.

   "What do you want?" Brianna asks forcefully. Will gives a smug look. He stays silent for a moment. "Well?" She says irritated.

   "I just came down here because it's a festival. It is a free country you know." He was always smug with his answers. That was one of the things that bugged me. It was like he could never be real with me, like he was always trying to seem cocky.

   "It is. But that doesn't mean that you can come over here and talk to Hailey. Now leave us alone, jackass." I'm shocked at what Chris has just said. Why does she seem so upset about Will talking to me? Also, does she know what he did to me?

   "Woah woah woah, calm your horses there missy. I'm just trying to be a good friend."

   "Friend?" Chris spats. "What 'friend' sleeps with their girlfriends cousin and then rubs it in their face at a party?" Well, apparently she does know.

   "Hey, look I'm sorry tha-"

   "Sorry?" She cuts him off again. "Yeah, that helps the situation a lot mister. 'Sorry I slept with your cousin. I hope that we can still be together and love each other because I only want you,'" she imitates. "Do you hear how stupid that sounds? Do you even think before you speak?"

   Will is silent, like he's in shock. We all are really. I didn't think that Chris had such a strong opinion on him. I grab her arm gently and move my hand up and down, trying to calm her down. She relaxes a little bit but not enough to not lash out again.

   "I..." He doesn't even try to explain himself. He just leaves. Chris finally relaxes and Bri looks over at me confused. I shrug my shoulders. I wasn't expecting that either.

   "Sorry," Chris says after a while. "I just got fed up with him. He's such an ass." I nod in agreement.

  "Yeah, he is. But I'm just going to let him do what he pleases because it's not like I can control him. If he wants to bug the hell out of me, let him. I'll just ignore him like I have been."

   "Have you really been ignoring him though?" Bri cuts in. "I mean just the other day you were looking at his social media to see if he posted anything about Rachel." I wince. I really hoped she wasn't paying attention to that.

   "How do you know all that stuff about Will and Rachel?" I ask Chris, changing the subject.

"Well, no offense, but it's not like it was much of a secret. Will gladly told people about it on social media." She seemed to shrink down, nervous of how I'd react.

She was right though. Will wasn't very discrete or modest when it came to Rachel. Though it wasn't like he was very modest at all. Even when I went over to his house, most of the time he had no shirt on.

It wasn't like I minded though, he had a hot body. I had always been self conscious with Will. I remember getting picked on at school by people saying they knew I wasn't good enough for him.

Most people told me that I got what I asked for. They said that I was never good enough for Will and that he was too good for me.

Most of these words were coming from the girls who had crushes on him or some of his friends that didn't like me. I told everyone, even Bri, that I was fine and it didn't bother me. I thought I held my own against them but late at night, when everyone was asleep, I cried and started to believe in what they were saying.

I'd cry my eyes out at the things they'd say to me.
But when I'd see Will, all those problems disappeared. I thought I was the luckiest girl in the world with him. He treated me like no one else had before. He was nice to me. He loved me. He was kind and gentle and loving and patient. Until the first time he tried to have sex with me.

Everything was going fine. He was gentle and sweet. But then it turned rough. I wasn't expecting it. I didn't want it. I tried to wiggle my way out but he just held me closer. When I tried to pull away, he started to get upset. I pushed him off me and told him no.

He started to get angry but calmed down before I got too scared. He complied, telling me that he was sorry and that he wouldn't do it again unless I wanted it. And he didn't. He never tried to push me again and was back to the patient man I fell in love with. For a while, I thought everything was good, that he was okay with waiting for me.

But it turns out he wasn't. He thought Rachel was a better snack. So three months ago, at my aunt and her uncle's easter party, they snuck up to the guest bedroom and did the deed. No one heard them, I was outside watching the kids and most of the adults were inside drinking.

The only reason people found out he cheated was because it was written all over their faces and Instagram posts. "Hanging with my side chick. -insert upside down smiley face-", "Couldn't be happier with my baby", "love this girl with all my heart" are just some of the captions he'd post with pictures of his arm around her and kissing her cheek.

What a jerk. He's such an ass. I'm sorry, Hailey. I know these are the thoughts running through you're brain right now. And trust me, when I found out about the betrayal, I was crushed. Heartbroken. Torn to pieces. Devastated.

I felt sick to my stomach. How had I let such a monster into my life and tell him that I loved him? I couldn't bring myself to eat anything. I lost five pounds in a month. I didn't have the energy to eat.

When Brianna would come over to check on me, she'd hold me while she'd cry, telling me that she was sorry. I wasn't taking care of myself. I didn't do anything in those moments. I didn't move, didn't cry. I couldn't even wrap my arms around her to hug her back and tell her that it's okay.

Eventually, Bri convinced me to start eating again. Little by little each day. I gained the weight back that I lost and wasn't so down in the dumps about what happened. I can't blame myself for it. I didn't know that he was going to cheat on me. Just like I didn't know that I would run into to Will today at the festival.

I started to get back into the swing of things and live my life. I've accepted the fact that Will didn't love me like I loved him and that I can't control what he does in his life.

It still bothers me that he and Rachel are seeing each other. I tell people I'm okay with it when really I'm not. Not 100% anyway. Will still has an effect on me. Whenever he's in a room with me I tense up. I try to avoid him as much as possible. But I know that I can't avoid him forever. And that's just something I have to deal with.

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