Okay, this is kind of a rant. And a depression sort of thing. Except, it's not. You'll see what I mean. Good luck helping me out with this.

So basically, I have a decent life. Treated well, have a few great friends, stuff like that. The thing is, my grades are falling now. I seem less and less invested with friends. I don't like doing much, and it all screams "loser", because that's basically what I am. But that's not the problem.

The problem is that I don't seem to care.

I do not take enough stuff seriously. I treat everything as a joke, like nothing's going to happen that'll reflect on that. I'm a complete spoiled loser, and I DON'T CARE. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

A lot of things. Sure, I have my positives. But does that REALLY outweigh the negatives? I'm lazy. I complain a lot. I'm spoiled. I'm a phone addict. I'm too introverted. I am the textbook definition of the last person you'd want as a role model. So why don't I care? I simply don't know. I am too corfortable with my life. I am simply never going to change, I guess, and that's gonna be a problem later on.

So no, I'm not treated badly. There's no void in my heart that needs to be filled. I'm not depressed, or lonely, or upset. I'm just a spoiled kid with a shitty personality, and that's all I'll ever be.