"But what if he's already aware of what he is? Wouldn't he be able to sense us reaching around inside your head?" Mom asked.

"Not unless he goes and puts himself into my subconscious. And see us other words we're going to have to be very careful and very quiet. Not to get his attention." I assured her as she smiled and nodded.

"But if he is a reincarnation wouldn't that mean our son? Has other parents besides us?" She asked worriedly.

"To his vessel you would be his real mother. But his soul in his vessel are completely different. His soul is what he actually is who he actually is his vessel is just a container to hold it in. Till it can finally awaken as a non-human when it's so gets its own physical body. Which I believe is why I actually was able to die in my past lives. Because I never used my actual physical body. If I would have just stayed in my physical body I would have never had to be reincarnated so times. Imagine how much different My Life Would have been. If I would've just been me. I wouldn't have been abused went through that terrible childhood. I would have been fully prepared and capable for handling the other true gods. I just think it would have been so much less of difficult. It would have just of used my true immortality. Because from what I read on everything Wonder incarnations I actually turned off my immortality I didn't even know that you could turn off and work outlet and turn on my switch. But apparently my past life who are aware of my soul were aware of this. And decided to turn it off why. keep that page on then I won't be going through so many bodies. I know messed up joke but it's true I mean think about how many bodies. I used as vessels being reincarnated this many times. Pushing out its original assigned soul and be put in a physical body. Not made originally for them. Just to place mine in it. To take their place it sounds pretty lonely not to mention somewhat depressing because I loved all those years just to not remember them. Just to not everfind my true fated partner until thousands of years later. And with every new reincarnation all the memories. Are all just stored to be forgotten a I never used what's the point. So this time I'm bending the rules I'm going to use my true from, I'm going to learn how to properly use my lightning god abilities and strength as well as my beast. I am putting all my power I got from their sides. To my disposal bus time. I intend to live a life I actually. I intend also not to die this time or ever again because if I use my true form I will be able to truly be killed or harmed physically by myself over there half. My Michael and I highly doubt you would ever even try to. Considering how protective. He is of me already even knowing. I can't be killed or physically harmed as easily as any other creature. Including true gods. They can be killed or physically harmed. Since their bodies are the only souls with a physical from. Only by another true God or something stronger like me. Meaning only a soul can destroy another soul. That's why I gods physical body. Isn't like mine they don't get reincarnated. So I'm technically even harder to kill than a true God. Because if they destroy my physical body. As long as I'm not in this form or killed I my other half. Since he's the only one that can actually cause any damage to my actual soul. It will remain intact and can still be reincarnated. So why not put all that to good use make a life for myself. Protect those that I love and those who cannot. Instead of just letting it go to waste. I mean what's the use of having all this strength power if I can't even use it to do some good change the world a bit. Possibly make it a better place if I make a big enough impact. I just want to make something of myself this time since all my other reincarnation rest of their life away. Waiting their whole lives for something much too far out of their reach. And they didn't have the willpower to chase it. Declared themselves too unworthy to even try. This Time It's different I have the willpower, I have the physical mental strength. To withstand any struggles I encounter trying to reach my goals good night and not to let them get in my way this time they will not break me. I let them break me every other time. To the point to where I haven't committed suicide on a couple of my past lives. That I lived as a mortal. But I have Michael's time I intend to give him the good life. Because if he is the same man knowing that he's been patiently waiting for me all this time how can I not want to give him a fulfilling life I didn't get. And had stripped away from me every time. So I intend to make this reincarnation my last permanently. I'd like to be able to live all those years with all the memories because then at least I would be able to make better choices to improve my life instead of just repeating them over again cuz I never seen one of these books of my reincarnation thats exactly what I did. Chasing after a man I know I would never have because I was lonely. Living a life of regret, disappointment, and a lot of unfulfilled desires. Never for Helen many goals cuz I thought I wasn't worth it and didn't have the willpower because of how they wore me down to make me docile and obedient. Letting myself believe me I had no self-worth and then I would never be anything special. Sorry but after reading these I realized how depressed. I lost all will and all hope to go on. All because all I ever wanted was to be loved. To be wanted by someone. to be needed by someone. And I wasn't able to fill out until now until I met Michael. He's why I have the strength and willpower to pursue the dream I've been chasing thousands of years. Which is to have a fulfilling happy life. What I mean by fulfilling two other people might sound like their normal lives. Going dates, enjoying each other's company and the little things. Falling in love and getting married. Having a decent job that way one day can own my own place to call home. So I can eventually have kids of my own. At some point to build a family of my own. That's my idea of a fulfilling life. To experience all that life has to offer. And is corny as it may sound. My dream has always been you have a big loving family. So yes if you're wondering Michael is screwed cuz. Once he says I do because I want a lot of kids. So no telling Michael I don't want him to give him cold feet cuz you know as soon as you mentioned you were kids that's automatic what what they do. Start freaking out at least I know it's how mortal and some non-human men are. As soon as you mention the word baby they're instantly gone. And you never hear from them again I don't want Michael to do that. And I do mean like later on whenever were old enough to know that we got our ship together enough to financially do that cuz everyone knows that kids or anything but cheap. And I want to make sure that I'm able to provide them with a financially comfortable life. It's growing up I had to financially support myself on my own. To live without any one to help me.I mean help before Dad took me and I was literally living in a fucking shed and acting as a maid for my vessels family just to be myself. You know how humiliating that is for a half God. Let alone a dragon. Growing up like that made me very humble and made me to where I don't need much to be happy but whatever children I have cannot have to struggle like that ever because no kid should be put through that s*** from the time that they can walk till their an adult. which is also why I'm glad the dad took me when you did because if he wouldn't have as soon as I would have graduated. They would have automatically turn me on streets because. They would no longer have to take care of me. And honestly got only has right of ended up if my seal wanted them broken. If I were to remain human I'd probably be in a ditch somewhere. Which is why I stayed with them because even though they were abusive I was honestly lucky a lot of undesirables have it a lot worse than that. Including some of my past lives. I'm just internally greatful. If he wouldn't have did what he did I probably wouldn't met Michael. And probably wouldn't have unable to find out what I actually am. Wouldn't of experience do any of this. Wouldn't have experience true friendship. Or met you or any of my friends since I've never had any. And from what I can tell from my memories my past lives. Didn't really have any friends either. They're mainly very solitary. Kept to themselves. Wouldn't have experienced all the joy and happiness. I have now and I was deprived of in my past lives. I am everything say yes to me even though. He's not my biological father. He is the best father I've ever had. Same goes for Mom she always takes her time to make sure that I'm activating to everything okay since I've never really known Joy or happiness. And to make sure I'm happy and I'm enjoying myself. She us find a way to make it fun and entertaining for everybody. Not to mention my dad taught me how to laugh and have a good time. I'm not used to just enjoying myself I'm used to always happening to tend to everybody else and work myself to the Bone I've never really taken a break until they took me in. They actually let me rest which I haven't done God knows how long. and knowing that my biological father knows I exist and hasn't even bothered to come find me. Makes me question whether or not you going to want to meet him because trust me. I wouldn't trade what. I have right now for anyting. Sorry I've never really been this open about stuff like that cuz I don't like making myself feel emotions. Since I'm always just blocking them off. I don't know if it's okay for me to be open like this to you or anyone. Hell I'm just recently learned how to open up thanks to mom teaching me. Because before that I was like an emotionaless close off robot. In other words they taught me how to be human." I said hesitantly and she grabbed my arm pulling me into.

"Sweetie it just mean you're normal. No being should be that emotionaless closed off. Or not know or understand how express feelings. But you're doing good and getting better. It takes time and practice before it ever starts to feel normal to you because you it isn't. And for you to be learning this quickly is really good because normally anybody else in the mirror state will take years to learn half of what you just did. My best friend's actually a therapist so I am know how hard it is for someone in your situation to acclimate to normal living. Sometimes it's impossible. So I'm very proud of you." She said, kissing my head. Before we gathered all the books we found information in as I absorbed it from my subconscious. There was way too much information just flooding into my head. I went into a state where my body was frozen in place. As all those memories just flash literally before my eyes. And it even took me a moment after to just process everything. Before Mom grab my hand snapping out of my trance.