'Friend'. 

'Best friend I could ever ask for'.

I mean she is my best friend but why is it so weird for her to say it along with an 'I love you'? We say it to each other all the time but why is it weird to me now? 

"Jin Hyung! Are you okay?", Jimin's sweet voice caught my attention and I turned my head to look at him sideways. He smiled softly and nudged his chin upwards as a signal of asking me if I was alright. I smiled back and nodded softly proceeding to get up on my feet as the floor beneath us lifted higher in the air. The seven of us now again visible for the last performance and the endingments. We just had to perform 'Magic Shop' and then we had to go back in. 

It was shame, having to part from ARMY again but until next time I guess. Today was the last of our concerts here in Seoul and we were a just month away from our tour in other countries which means I was gonna be away from home, away from Aera for atleast five months. 

The boys and I bid goodbye to the numerous ARMYs who were here to support us and to listen to us then going backstage while everybody moved out of the arena after the fireworks. As much as I loved performing and seeing the beautiful smiles on their faces, today wasn't my day at all. All I could do was think about Aera and Jamie and Aera and both of them together. 

I couldn't do anything properly ever since I came to work. Not a single choreography was done perfectly by me, I even had a voice crack during 'best of me'. Nothing was going the way I wanted it to, I even accidentally pushed one of the staffs because of how aimlessly I was walking around. Sighing softly with my head hung low, I walked backstage with the rest of the boys while Jungkook constantly asked me if I was alright. I constantly nodded to every question about me not bothering to face upwards. 

I don't know what it was so suddenly that I just couldn't get her out of my mind, I was jealous. I was jealous as fuck and I knew it but what even was the explanation for this. She never looked at me like that and I never looked at her like that, there was no point hoping for something either. 

"Jin hyung, I think that's Aera running all the way here," Taehyung commented as I lifted my gaze at the sudden alertness in his voice, only to find a very disheveled Aera running towards us like it was the end of the world. 

"Aera?", I questioned looking at the mascara running down her face but she didn't spare a second in throwing her arms around my neck tightly. I grunted with a small woosh of air escaping my lungs because of the force with which she collided into me. 

"I l-lost my job," she sobbed, shaking and writhing against my shoulder as a shocked expression found its way across my face but hands still holding onto her firmly. Lost her job? Why would they take her job away? She's like literally one of the best photographers in Seoul. 

"Oh my god Aera, why would they do that?", Yoongi said softly rubbing her back up and down as she rubbed her eyes over and over hiccuping and crying continuously. My heart clenched with every sob and I found myself tearing up so I decided to take matters into my own hands no matter how exhausted I was. I bent down and swept her off the floor tucking my arm under her knees and one around her torso. 

"Come on baby, let's get you some water first," I mumbled swaying her slightly as I walked ahead of the boys. She never usually cried but I definitely understood why she was so vulnerable right now. She loved her job more than anything and after yesterday's events she was already sensitive. I cooed at her when she fisted the material of my tee keeping her face hidden from the worried gazes of the boys and the staff who knew her very well by now. 

I walked into my changing room letting her down on the makeup station which was now cleaned after the concert. She kept her gaze down, her shoulders moving up and down with how much she was trying to control herself. I let her be away for a moment as I grabbed the bottle of water from behind the makeup counter opening and handing it to her immediately.

"Slow down, it'll be fine," I said as she finally let the bottle go giving me a chance to look at her. I cupped her face in both my hands wiping her tears and mascara with my thumbs. 

"Now tell me what happened or do you wanna go home first? You know, change into something more comfortable and maybe watch a movie? Anything that would make you feel better?", I asked resting my hands on her sides while standing between her legs. 

She whispered a small 'home' and the way her voice ached and trembled had me wondering if it was actually her pain or mine. Whatever that come over her to do what she did next was unknown to me but I hoped it'd happen again and again. 

"I loved my job," she mumbled after yanking me towards her by my hands. Her chest met mine and her hands immediately carding into my perm with ease. I sucked in a sharp breath when she rested the side of her face on my shoulder, her nose snuggling into the crook of my neck while her other hand brushed over my freshly shaved face and jaw. 

I don't know if she was aware of the effect she had on me because if she did, all of this was pure evil and I had no idea how to tell her that. Goosebumps rose on my skin and I pulled my head away from her to look down at her and goddamn, I shouldn't have. Her big hazel round eyes looked up at me so innocently it had me melting on the spot in a second. I closed my eyes for a second to compose myself and smiled weakly which I'm not sure if she noticed. 

Her eyes were closing slightly, eyelids getting heavier each time they moved down and then finally she closed them completely, her head still on my shoulder but her nose no longer tickling my skin. I sighed softly holding her up since she had slowly sinked into a slumber and then something flashed in my mind. Something I should've never done but I did it anyway because as wrong as it was, at that moment, looking down at her beautiful face on my shoulder and her hand loosely holding my face I could think of nothing but her. And her only. 

And so without any further ado, I made the biggest mistake of my life and pressed my lips to her. 

A/N: 

HIII 

AN UPDATE YAY 

I EVEN FILLED UP A FORM IN AWARDS FOR THIS BOOK HEHEH