When the arguments start I try to hide but I can't get away from my demons inside. When the war continues to rage my mind can't decide what to feel. So it comes to a point and makes its decision. I feel nothing. I feel hollow, I feel numb. I'm scared that I've been like this to long. What if I don't get feeling back. Sometimes pain is what makes you realize your still here, but now I don't know. My grasp on reality is slipping away, and I can't seem to find the strength to hold on. Why can't I just find my way back, because then I wouldn't feel so numb.