Sometimes I just feel I should just throw in the towel. I mean whats the point. If I keep going what it gonna do. Who would benefit? Me? That's funny. Who would be sad? I know the answer to that. No one. Maybe I should. It feels like everyday is unstable. Like I could just snap at any moment. Maybe I should. Maybe I should just finally let go. Let whatever sanity I have left slip away. Let myself slip away. Sometimes I wish I could close my eyes and slip away into an endless dream instead of living in this endless nightmare. I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up and live in my dream world. But that will never happen for me. I'll never be able to live in a dream. So I'll just stay here stuck in this nightmare.