I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I'm sorry to the people that needed me, and only get an ok in response. I'm sorry that I'm not in the best mental state to help any of you. I'm sorry that I'd rather focus on my own twisted mentality than you. I'm sorry I don'f have the mental capacity to care.

  I'm sorry to the people who love me that I've hurt. I'm sorry for becoming this cold person. I'm sorry for fucking things up, I'm sorry for falling apart. I'm so sorry, i'm so very sorry.

I'm sorry I'm not strong anymore, i'm sorry that I keep begging for your attention. I'm sorry for not being there. I'm sorry for not being enough.

Eula, I'm sorry for dragging you into my own twisted mentality. I'm sorry you had to watch me fall apart and stop caring.

Emma, I'm sorry darling. I'm sorry for not trying harder, I'm sorry for constantly whining. I'm sorry for my attention need.

Rhys, I'm sorry i depended on you so much, i'm sorry I can't handle being by my self, i'm sorry I ruined our friendship. I'm sorry for caring to much and to little.

Mason, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there when you needed me. I'm sorry for being a bitch. I'm sorry, i'm sorry I wasn't there.

Faythe, I'm sorry I'm so clingy. I'm sorry you have to be my shield. I'm sorry for not being strong enough. I'm sorry for being annoying. I'm sorry for being so bipolar. I'm sorry that I made you listen to me cry constantly. I'm sorry i'm so emotional.

Myself, I have let you down Kaileigh more than any one else. I'm sorry I let you dissipate into a shell of self pity. I'm sorry that all you want to do Is die, and i'm sorry. I'm sorry you're so insecure.

Wyatt, i'm sorry I ghosted you. I'm sorry I stopped talking. I'm sorry I'm scared to talk to anyone any more. I'm sorry i'm scared of people. I'm so so sorry i'm not the same girl you left back home. I'm sorry.

Olivia, Darling I'm sorry for letting our friendship fall apart. I'm so so sorry. I'm sorry for only reaching out when I'm not mentally fucked up because I don't want to drag you into my own personal hell. I'm sorry for not being enough to keep things running.

To everyone, i'm sorry i'm such a mess,  but i'm trying. I'm trying so very hard..  but trying is hard.