I woke up to several missed calls from the dreaded number, I wasn't sure if I should give her a try or not, I just don't feel ready! I also had a missed call from Karen, John and my Granny but I didn't give a shit about them so I didn't bother.

I jumped out of bed and did my usual routine, got drees, brushed my teeth and did my makeup. I was way to nervous to check my YouTube channel, I was really hoping that no one I knew had seen it cause I wanted it to be my thing not just something that everyone would begin doing. So I went throughout my day without thinking about it.

I was still fuming with Rebecca after telling Chloe my secret and I knew what I would do to get my revenge but first I wanted to write in my diary.

I don't know how this happened but writing in a diary is so addicting! I honestly find myself waiting for something to happen just so I can write about it. So I've been debating weather I should show Rebecca the pain she put me through by taking something from her or ruining her social life, it took a lot of thought but then I realized the second choice took effort and I was not in the mood for annoying snotty 10 year olds right now so what I'm gonna do is take away her stupid blanket and hide it somewhere hard but obvious. That thing means almost as much to her as my heart locket with a picture of me as a baby in my mother's arms, wrapped in a lilac blanket, obviously you can't see my mom's face but you can make out her long black hair. I've had the locket for my entire life and Karen used to convince me that it was her in the picture and that she just dyed her hair but she finally confessed about 7 months ago and I haven't taken it off since. So now it's time for mission snitch!

I snuck into Rebecca's room and carefully took her blanket from her bed, I knew she wasn't there but it felt like her eyes were staring at me, I took the ratchet thing and left, contemplating where to hide it. I knew she was obsessed with watching tv in the den so I made my way down there to figure out where to hide it. I found a hole at the back of the couch where I stuffed in the blanket and covered it with the inside insolation of the couch. Now if she tries to blame it on me I have an excuse! That I never come down here and that she spends all her time on the couch.

I was pleased with my meanness and decided I'd go out for a walk seeming as the weather was nice, I grabbed my phone and a pair of adidas shoes and made my way to the park. I was wearing a black beanie, my glasses, a striped top and a dungaree dress, it was cute and stylish. I wanted to do something fun but I had nothing on my mind. I walked for awhile and listened to Catch and Release by Matt Simmons on repeat, I decided that I'd go into town and purchase some new makeup brushes. I strolled back towards the house and hopped in my cute pink mini cooper, it was the perfect car for me! I don't know why but it was like a best friend, I named her Betty cause I felt she just looked like a Betty.

I drove into town and parked on a hill beside a river that Karen, John and I used to come down to before they started a family of their own, a part of me missed those days. I never had a worry in my mind! I felt loved! I felt wanted! That's since all changed, I walked away distracted.

I made my way to Sephora and walked around the shop for ages, I had annoying thoughts stuck in the back of my mind that made me want to break down and cry but I knew that crying wasn't my thing, it never was, lately I've been pushing my limits.I thought myself to be strong because someday you will have no one and you have to be prepared and I wasn't.

I ended up buying a full set of brushes and walking around town for another while, I purchased a juice and sat down in the cafe. I watched people walking past the window, observing their facial expressions, everyone was different. Some were frustrated, enjoying themselves or just plain bored. I began going deep into thought which was always a bad sign for me.

What if right now I picked up my phone and called her, I could meet her and get to know her personally but another part of me was convincing myself that she didn't want me, that I was rubbish to her like she just threw me away. I had no one to talk to about this cause no one understood my position! My phone slowly reached into my handbag and pulled out my phone, without even controlling myself I redialled the number and waited for her to pick up.

"Hello it's Molly here! Sorry I couldn't take your call I guess I'm Busy" She laughed as her voicemail rang through, she sounded young as in her early thirties or late twenties, did I have the right number?

My phone began vibrating and ringing in my hand, it was her.

"Hello?" She said,

I needed courage, I had to start somewhere! "Hello" I whispered,

"Vanessa! Vanessa is that you!?" She asked concerned and excitedly, I didn't answer. I was scared, I hadn't prepared myself. My mouth was dry and I could feel sweat dripping down my back,

"Why?" I answered shakily.

"Please give e a chance to explain! Please I need to tell you! Where are you living?" She questioned quickly,

"You don't know?" I said bluntly but surprised,

"I wasn't allowed be told, you're... carers didn't want me to know" She replied nervously.

"Los Angeles" I whispered,

"WHAT!?" She shouted across the phone, I had to hold it away from my ear so it wouldn't burst my eardrums, "How is that possible!? They told me you wouldn't go as New York!" She shouted obviously extremely upset, now I was worried.

"W-where am I originally from?" I quivered,

"Maine" My mouth hung open! 3000 miles away! "Vanessa I need to see you" She whispered. I couldn't take it! I hung up and threw my phone in my bag as tears stung my eyes but I had to be strong so I forced them back. Now there was definitely no chance of me meeting my birth mother. I began walking towards the car, I got to the parking spot but my car wasn't there. Did I park somewhere else? I thought, I turned around to see a large crane surrounded by construction workers pulling something out of the river there was an ambulance nearby as well. I paced down to see what was happening, I felt like fainting, I saw them pulling Betty out of the water, the claw crushing her roof. "What are you doing to my car!" I shouted,

"Calm down Miss, we believe you forgot to put your car in break so it rolled into the river, people thought you were in the vehicle so that's why there's an ambulance near by" He explained kindly.

They plunked Betty's wreckage onto a tow truck and drove off, "How will I get home!?"

"Taxi" A passer by said loudly, I felt like breaking down in tears. First I found out that I'm a 47 hour drive away from my birth mother and then my only way of getting to her which isn't too expensive is now a wreckage.

I can officially say my life is shit!

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