"So...I'm guessing you want to find her?" she asked,

"Yeah, but all I know it that her first name is Veronica and her birth parents could have easily changed it"

"But wouldn't it be easier to just look for someone who looks like you?"

"For all I know she could look completely opposite to me" I sighed but I had the fright of my life when the diners doors burst open.

"Vanessa!?" I heard Jake call, I stood up and ran to him, tightly holding onto him, "Where did you go!? I was worried out of my mind, one minute you were there the next you weren't" He said frantically not letting go of me,

"I went for a walk to relieve some stress and before I knew it I was completely lost with no phone in the middle of nowhere" time passed and we decided to finally leave, I got Lily's number and put it on Jakes phone.

Finally!

In my 18 years of living I've finally found memories worth remembering, memories I don't have to write down to tell my kids, memories I can tell stories of and explain from pure memory. It may have been a cold night last night and you may wondering, what do you mean a cold night but just by reading that I will know exactly what happened and the friend I made that night.

"You almost ready with that journal of yours?" Jake laughed from the bathroom obviously getting out of the shower,

"Yep and by the way it's a diary!" I giggled. Today we were going with Clara to Kansas, where I was born. She thought maybe that the hospital would still have adoption forms, she didn't know where either of us went all she said to the nurses was 'keep them together' ha obviously not. I was making Jake come along just so if the conversation broke he'd be there to break the awkwardness. It felt so strange being one of those kids with a really young mother, I mean Karen's ancient imagine if I had a child by now they'd be two! Thats super strange. I also couldn't get the fact that I was one of the kids whose dad left! I always just expected that I was put up for adoption cause my parents didn't want me.

We arrived with all of our luggage to the airport where we met up with Clara, I would choose a 3 and a half hour plane ride over a 23 hour car ride any day. I payed for the tickets cause Clara was low on money and I insisted to pay for Jake. I brought along my camera to film something for my YouTube channel, I was at like 80,000 subscribers already! And I was only in Youtube for like two months not even.

I hadn't mentioned anything about my personal life so far but I decided today I'd explain the situation so I did and it ran smoothly and didn't sound like I was begging for attention, I decided to tweet something out seeming as I haven't done so in a long time.

'Going to Kansas to try and find my sister'

and again in seconds I had loads of likes and retweets and people asking me about my sister. I don't understand how I have so many followers, I made my account like 4 years ago and since then it's blown up 20k followers, loads of people I know or met once or twice, their friends and friends of theirs and even some random people. I still questioned my popularity a lot of the time and I wonder why it hasn't died down since I left that shit school but for some reason people still tweet me everyday asking when I was coming back and how much they missed me.

I sat next to Clara on the plane, for some reason this weird guy sat in Jake's seat and refused to move for even the flight attendant, she offered to move but Jake was polite and moved to a seat by himself. The chance came about where I could learn more about when I was a baby, "Do you mind explaining a bit more to me? It's just I'm really curious" I laughed nervously.

"Sure" She said happy enough to explain everything, "So what do you wanna know?" She asked politely,

"Everything"

"Ok so basically I don't wanna sound narcissistic but I was quite popular in highschool and only being in Sophomore year I thought I was as cool as the seniors, so I tracked down the hottest guy in our year, whose name was Steven and he was HOT, this guy happens to be your father. I snuck out one night to go to a party and we got really drunk and things went too far than they should have gone" She explained,

"Did you love him?" I asked,

"I don't know... I think I only really loved him when we broke up" "When I found out I was pregnant everything went downhill, I was 16 and part of a really strict family and if you stepped out of line for only the smallest thing you were punished whereas Stevens parents understood his dilemma and decided to help us out a bit by buying equipment., I have a brother and a sister who wouldn't dare talk to me in case my parents got angry at them. I went to school till I was 4 months and even with really baggy cloths which were not fashionable in the late 90s it was still really noticeable, I begged my parents to let me take a years leave and re do sophmore year but they said no. So everyone eventually found out and Steven and I went from popular to the schools weirdo's, I didn't know I was having two babies until 5 months when I saw a pregnant lady who said she was almost 8 months and was the same size as me so we saved up money and went to a doctor. I was really worried at this point, I thought having a child would ruin my life until the moment I thought something was wrong. We had a scan done which cost us a fortune but we agreed it was for the best, those ten minutes were the longest minutes of my entire life. The doctor returned with the results, Steven looked faint and I was too shocked to breath." She took a moment to breath seeming as she'd been speaking for a while.

"When did you and Steven break up?" I questioned, intrigued by her story.

"When I was 8 months I could barely stand and stayed at Stevens cause my parents didn't want to even look at me, we both sat down one night and came to a happy agreement, he would help with money and help as much as he could as well as balancing school and a job at the same time and I would take care of you guys most of the time and chip in as much as I would be able. We both new there was no love in our relationship and happily agreed to just be friends with occasional benefits. At 8 and a half months I gave birth to Veronica and then you had your umbilical chord wrapped around your neck so I had to have a c section and 45 minutes later I had two girls in the nursery. It took a few days to even get out of the hospital bed, my back felt free again and I could see my toes as well I could walk normally, We lived in Stevens out house for a month or two until I decided it was time to move home, I realised I liked Steven more than I thought so one night I decided to go tell him but when I got there he bombarded me with news that him and his family were moving to get a fresh start and were leaving in less than a week. I arrived home with a cheque from Stevens parents to keep us going, I felt like I was boarding depression and you guys hardly ever slept and were always hungry. The school held me back to re do sophomore year and I also had a job in a café and barely had time to feed you guys. I didn't eat, sleep, talk or even dare cry, my parents didn't even know your names. 5 months was all I could do, I felt horrible but it was the only way all of us could live, I brought you guys over to the hospital and begged the nurses for some kind of help and they gave me two options, stay at the hospital and you guys grow up with some kind of special education run by the hospital or hand you guys over. I had no choice, I signed some papers and put down my phone number in which I never changed, the next morning there was no question of where you guys had gone, it was just as if it was all in my head" She finished wiping her eyes with a tissue as I gave her a hug and thanking her.

AHHHHHH I'M SOOO SORRYYYY I KNOW ITS BEEN ALMOST TWO MONTHS BUT HERE IT IS XD Hope you like it, thanks for reading<3