Hi!

My name is Vanessa Anderson. I've always found it strange, how people write in diaries, I just never understood the concept of them! Some argue that they help remind you of old memories, ones worth remembering, but I see it as if you have a memory powerful enough you don't need to write it down because it will stick with you. I myself haven't had anything worth remembering so far in my 17 years of living, well I mean researchers revealed the average teenager can't recall any memories from ages two down and to be honest I doubt anything worth remembering took place in my early toddler years.

If anyone is reading this (Which I highly doubt is possible) you might be wondering why I'm writing a diary seeming as I have mixed feelings about them, well the truth is the school's counselor told me it would help. Before you ask, No, I'm not some student who's been bullied for years and relies on counselors to feel better, I'm completely fine, I don't really even see the need of me going to counseling sessions. My 'Parents' assume that I coop up my emotions and that I can't access the real me. That's what they think, I try my best to ignore them, well ever since last thanksgiving but that's a whole other story.

I'm a Junior at Green Lake High in a small town on the outskirts of California, You could say I'm popular but there's no reason for my popularity, people just like me I guess which is kind of hard to understand because there are so many other girls and guys in my years that look stereo typically popular but my best friend Chloe has been with me since kindergarten. We're inseparable! She's the kind of friend who will drop everything to help you but also laugh if you trip over and after 10 minutes help you up.

I laid my pen down beside the diary and stared at what I had just wrote, my whole body tensed with the level of cringe. There was suddenly a knock on my bedroom door, I quickly shoved the diary into a drawer. "Come In" I shouted bluntly knowing it was my 'mom', Karen.

"Honey dinners on the table" She said, sticking her head in my room.

I mumbled something in return. She looked at me concerned.

"Sweetie, what's wrong? You need to start acting like your old self again, you're worrying your father and I" She stated walking over beside me and taking my hand.

I glared into her eyes, I tried to reveal as much anger and hatred as possible but inside I was busting to laugh. John and Karen, my 'parents' get so concerned and caring when I act like this, they used to not before I found out. Sometimes it's fun to mess around with them, What? They deserve it!

"I can't come down" I mumbled.

"Why not?" She asked worriedly,

"Because..." I began trying to conceal my laughter "I need to curl my hair" I finished, but my voice had gotten so low with me trying not to laugh that my Karen thought I was crying.

"OK Honey, come down when you feel you're ready"

And that was that! She left! I grabbed my phone from my desk and texted Chloe.

Me: Still on for tonight?

Chloe: Totally! Are you able to get out?

Me: Easy! All ready done!

Chloe: Ugh ur so lucky that you can get away with stuff like this now!

Me: I know

I placed my phone on my desk and grabbed my curler. It was a typical Thursday evening, my 'Family' were downstairs eating dinner, and I was up in my room, buy ignoring them. But tonight was different! Tonight I had a plan! I wasn't doing anything illegal, you could call it a dare.

A self obsessed Jock called Jake and I were in mid dare war! He had dared me to sneak out on a Thursday night and climb to the top of the school and take photos for proof. So... illegal?...maybe but that didn't matter it was all just for fun.

I grabbed my phone and went onto twitter.

"Get ready @JakeBuckner cause I'm about to win Dare war!" I tweeted. Within seconds I had almost 50 favorites and 20 re tweets. I sometimes questioned my popularity, It felt weird being the center of attention for doing nothing.

I got a notification, Jake had tweeted me in reply with my tweet.

"Let's see if you can pull this one off @VanessaAnderson it may seem easy but try getting over those gates"

Oh Crap! The gates! I completely forgot that our school was surrounded in a high fence. Oh well I guess I'll have to scale them!

My bedroom door opened again and it was Karen. "KAREN GET OUT!" I screamed, dropping the curling iron at my feet.

"Be careful honey. Your father and I decided we want you to come down for a family dinner, it's been quite some time since the last time we were all in the same room" She said sternly.

"I wonder why that is!?" I answered sarcastically, "Well you can tell John and your kids that I'm not hungry right now! Oh and don't forget to close the door on your way out" I smirked.

"I thought maybe one day you would get over what happened but if that's how you want to be" Karen stated closing the door after her.

Anger rushed through my body, is she serious!? She thinks I can just forget about what happened!? The day I turn 18 I am running away from here! Chloe and I made a pact that we'd go and find a cheap apartment somewhere in the city and try and make a living. I've given up on wanting to go to college! I mean I have perfect grades but there's nothing that I wanna do. I guess I like to entertain people but what living could I get out of that? A circus clown?!

After I curled my hair I spent about 30-40 minutes applying my make-up, my phone went off as I received a text from Chloe.

Chloe:I'll be over in 20

Me:K

I had nothing to do but kill time. I grabbed my diary and opened it where I left off.

I never really had a say in anything at home, when it came to movie night my movie never got picked, when we had to name the cat my suggestion was ignored, I was always just dragged around. But school was my escape zone. I was the oldest out of the kids in the family so I had no siblings to worry about at school! People listened to me when I was at school... I don't know why but they just did. School now is the only thing I have keeping me happy. My best friend is there, I play dare games with all the jocks and people actually listen to me! I guess what I'm trying to say is that school is the one place where people understand me.

I placed my diary into a secret compartment in my shelf and closed my eyes, placing my face in my palms. When did my life get so... I dunno predictable? Everyday was the same routine! Wake up, go to school, come home, do my homework, ignore my 'family', go to sleep and repeat! Some days maybe something different would happen like I would go out with Chloe but other then that my life is just basic.

My phone buzzed as a text from Chloe appeared.

Chloe:Outside

I pulled a sheet of paper from a notebook and wrote 'DO NOT COME IN' In all caps and taped it on my bedroom door. I took one last glance at my bedroom and opened my window. I stepped out onto the roof of the house and slammed the window shut behind of me. I spotted Chloe's expensive land rover across the street, I slowly made my way to the edge of the roof. My shoe suddenly lost grip and I began to slide down the tiles fast! I began panicking.

"Vanessa get back up here!" I heard Karen shout.

I caught myself on a loose tile, my heart racing. I looked up to my bedroom window, Karen stuck her head out glaring at me.

"Do you care about privacy?" I asked.

I grabbed onto a drain pipe and slid down it to the ground.

"Vanessa Anderson you get back here right now!" She bellowed.

"I'll be back before 1!" I yelled in response. I skipped over to Chloe's car and hopped in. "Just drive" I told her.

About 5 minutes into the journey she spoke up. "Hey Nessa?"

"Yeah?"

"What's up with you and your family? Is everything alright with you guys?" She asked.

I never had the guts to tell Chloe about what happened so she doesn't know, it was weird to talk about it made me feel angry and hurt.

"That's a story for a different day" I whispered. "Anyways! We gotta hurry up cause Jake gave us a deadline of 12:45" I glanced at the clock it was 9:08.

"Relax that's hours away!" She laughed.

"You don't understand, it has to be posted at peak time so all the weird kids who stay up till 1:00 a.m on their phones know we did it. Plus we have to celebrate our achievement afterwards so what do you say about heading over to Jake's to have a quick dip in his hot tub?" I giggled.

"Will you just date that douche already!?" She laughed.

"EWWW! No Jake is not my type!" I shouted.

"Sure"

"I'm serious! I'm a romantic and he's a jock! It's like fire and ice" I defended.

"You know what they say 'Opposites attract'" She chuckled.

"Shut up" I laughed, turning on the radio, both Chloe and I turned our heads to each other with our mouths wide open when we heard what song came on. It was our jam! I turned the speaker up to the top volume, I'm an Albatraoz blared through the car.

Let me tell you all a story

About a mouse named Lorry

Yeah, Lorry was a mouse

In a big brown house

She called herself the hoe

With the money money flow

But fuck that little mouse

'Cause I'm an albatraoz

I'm an albatraoz

I'm an albatraoz

Yeah, Lorry said she was a mouse

Smoked that cheesn' like a baoz

Monilie money money hoe

Chinka chinka chingka-flow

Yeah, Lorry was a witch,

Yeah, a sneaky little bitch

So fuck that little mouse

'cause I'm an albatraoz

I'm an albatraoz

She turned off the radio, both of out of breath and dying with laughter from singing our hearts out

"We have to be quiet cause we're almost there" She whispered. I nodded my head, releasing my last few giggles. We pulled up about half a block away from the school. "Bring the makeup bag" She whispered. I reached into the back and grabbed a small bag full of expensive touch up makeup products.

We ran as fast as we could, careful not to mess up our hair, up to our high school's gates.

"Wow even at night Green Lake High still looks like hell!" I laughed. Chloe giggled trying to figure out a way over the large metal gates in front of us. "How are we gonna get in?"

"I guess we climb it,it's not electrical" She answered.

We looked at each other and nodded heads, I gave her a boost up with my hands, she was now on the opposite side of the gate to me. "How will you get over?" She asked.

"Come on Chloe Karen forced me to do competitive gymnastics for 14 years" I laughed "This gate doesn't stand a chance against me!" I started to step backwards. I looked at the height of the gate once more and made a run for it. About a meter away I jumped and hooked my hands onto the top of the gate and swung my hips over, I landed on my but and it hurt. "Ok I never said I was good at gymnastics" I laughed.

We quietly made our way up the long driveway to our school, "There's the emergency ladder to the roof behind the science lab, if we take that we can get a nice view of the football field" Chloe whispered. I nodded my head, we slowly mad our way to the science block or as the jocks call it 'nerd town'. We climbed up each rung of the ladder giggling because we didn't think we'd make it this far without one of the nosy neighbors calling the cops.

When we finally reached the roof we made sure our hair and makeup looked okay and then we took a selfie with the football field in the background with the moon shining it's light down on us. I opened twitter and tweeted the picture to Jake.

@JakeBuckner Dare complete! Your turn! I dare you to wear an item of torso clothing from your mother's closet and your older sister highest heels to the game on Friday, If you can't complete it you get a forfeit chosen by yours truly.

"Wow you're stepping the game up!" Chloe laughed.

"Well so far it's been a snooze fest so I'm just making it more fun!" I smiled, "Now let's get the hack down from here I hate heights!"

We escaped the school grounds easier than expected, when we got in the car Jake texted me saying there was a small party back at his house.

When we arrived through the door we received a round of applause. We laughed and blushed, the party was bigger than I thought. I found Jake in the kitchen talking to some other Jocks. "Hey Jake where's the keg!?" I shouted.

"Vanessa! We were waiting for you to start it off with the famous handstand drink!" He laughed.

"Well let's get to it!"

Two strong guys lifted a keg full of beer through the kitchen doors and placed it in the middle of the room, people parted to give me space to show my trick. I learnt this from The Vampire Diaries when Elena used to party.

"You ready?" Jake asked.

"More than ever!" I shouted. I grabbed onto the rim of the keg and kicked myself into a handstand, Jake grabbed hold of my legs and placed the tap into my mouth, he then let go of me and I began to drink upside down. I could hear everyone around me chanting 'Drink! Drink! Drink!' But I couldn't concentrate, all that was coming into my thoughts was how much my life sucked!

I don't know how long I had been, a few seconds or minutes but Jake lifted me off laughing "Wow slow down there Nessa, gotta leave some for the rest of the party, oh and by the way, DARE EXCEPTED!" He shouted.

I felt dizzy and sick but I sucked it up and smiled. 

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A/N:Hey Guys! Hope you enjoyed my new book! Btw I know this chapter is really long so no promises all my chapters will be like this😂