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"... It's just that I can't love you back, I don't know why I'm sorry."

Those words shit it hurts. Well not anymore, I guess. I hope so.

"Awww!" It just comes out of my mouth quickly as I felt my cheeks are starting to sting and turn red. Shit, I was just slapped. I swear, this one really hurts though.

I turn around from my chair, just when I knew that it's my roommate, Edon. Now he's glaring at me while furrowing his forehead.

"Seriously? Don't startle me like that." I started it with an irritated tone, as I raised my voice a bit.

"What are you thinking about dude? You've been daydreaming the whole time. You're very silent, I'm not used to it."

He laughed a bit but I can see that he narrowed his black eyebrows. I knew that he's also worried.

"I'm just tired, let me have time to rest. Besides, why call it daydreaming when it's almost 6 pm? You moron." I started it while chuckling but with confidence to make me look like I'm clever enough to think about that.

Seriously, I had a point, he could've said it afternoon or night dreaming instead, right?

"You're really smart, huh?" He laughed sarcastically.

But honestly, I love this guy. He can relate to me and he seems to understand my humor, he just doesn't want to accept it but I know, he really finds my jokes funny.

Well, who doesn't?

Suddenly, there's a loud bang coming from our wooden white door.

"Hey guys, I got us some snacks here."

Excitedly entering the doorway is Chris, another roommate, with some chips over his arms. He immediately throws it off directly through us and I caught it.

Well, he is literally the most 'sporty' among us, he's part of the basketball team of the school, while I am part of the volleyball team.

But not that stereotyped 'soft' and 'feminine' figure, it's just I find it more satisfying hitting the ball than shooting it, more interesting.

"Chris, do you know who will be our other roommate?" Edon curiously asked.

"Wait, I thought it would be just the three of us here?" It slips out of my tongue quickly. I am shocked.

I hate it, it will be less spacious if that's the case then.

"Well, why would you think there will be two double-deck beds here sir, huh?" Edon said it with a 'duh' face, rolling his eyes while his mouth is still full of potato chips.

I'm really pissed-off right now, having a roommate is not a problem for me, but having 3, hell no.

But I guess, I shouldn't be angry at them that's why I didn't show my disappointment.

"Remember the principal announcing that there would be a transferee this year? Hmmm, I heard he's a volleyball player too!" Chris mentioned it with a wink while tapping my shoulder.

Oooohhh. Cool.

But his hand was really too heavy. It was like a big rock that falls off into my back.

"Well, I really don't care much. I just want to have a peaceful room." I said it to them.

Though it's kinda true, I just want to be unproblematic and get away from stress right now, especially on what happened...

"Too much drama, huh?" Edon makes fun of me by teasing me.

But I also laugh. Seriously I'm over with this like really, I've moved on.

"Hey Jam, come here. Quick." Chris called me while he was observing through the rectangular window like he has noticed something intriguing.

I then run into him hurriedly to look over and there I saw Raiden, the wait is he with... no, it's been just months, it can't be...

"He is with... Bianca bro. " I didn't notice that Edon was also in my back. He stares at me like he was concerned. He wrinkled his face.

I moved forward to take a glance and to see it much clearer. He's really with her, but it seems that Bianca is not interested in him as well, she looked uncomfortable with him judging from those 'annoyed' black eyes that seem to have zero interest on looking at him 'eye to eye', but shit she's still pretty.

She's more of like a 'hard to get' girl.

Well, I'm more of like a "hard to get over" boy.

Ughhh.

I knew it. Even at first I really knew he likes her already, he's just waiting for it. Really, I've already moved on, I guess. But this thing really embarrassed me. He's a snake.

I despise him.

"Are you alright?" Chris asked me, hesitantly thinking twice.

Now I can feel that my vision is starting to blur as tears are starting to form in my dark brown eyes. I can still remember that day.

"Of course, besides, she was just my crush, so what seems to be the problem?" My chest started to congest by saying that.

Looks like the heart inside was damaged once again by those memories I can't forget.

I wiped my tears secretly with my white face towel while turning back to them before it fully drops, pretending that there's a speck of dirt that was shoved directly into my eye. I sniffed.

Of course, I'm not fine.

I don't want them to see me crying again. It's my thing not to show my weakness and not to be too emotional in front of many because the last time it happened, it turned out so bad.

Suddenly I heard some loud footsteps along the corridor, approaching the direction through our room.

"Uhmmm, by any chance, are you guys... my roommates?" An unfamiliar guy asked.

"Oh, are you Dwight?" Chris asked gently.

What a goddamn attractive name. I'm jealous of that. My name was too lame.

"Ohh come here, feel free, let me help you with these things." Edon hesitantly welcoming Dwight, helping him generously by picking up his things, nice hospitality.

There's no hospital here though.

But oh my, I swear, I'm jealous of that name.

"I'm Edon, and this one's Chris and... hey!" He called me when I was on my way to go to the bathroom.

I brushed my blonde and curly hair gently using my fingers, then took a  toothbrush and toothpaste for me to clean my mouth quickly. I don't know, I just felt that I need to be presentable to the newbie, to have a good first impression.

I quickly get out of the bathroom.

"Oh, here he is, this is Jameson." Edon introduced me with a lively voice.

"Jam, better." I then waved to him to confirm what Edon was saying.

"Nice name." I heard Dwight whispered it to himself while he put his head down, hiding his face but exposing his well-combed dark brown hair.

Woahhh! It's weird I kinda didn't expect that after thinking the same to his. I blushed a bit.

I think it would be easy for me to associate with him, besides he looked like he's already comfortable here.

"Here's your bed, up on mine's," I said to him while pointing out his place.

Well originally, I was supposed to be at the top but it turns out I like it more being on the bottom side that's why I repositioned myself and moved through that area, acting like I'm the boss here.

It's too tiring to go up and down there. Good luck to him.

"Oh okay thank you."

He then tries to climb up to his bed but I noticed that his legs started to vibrate continuously. He seems to be tired and exhausted... that he might fall anytime... on the ground.

It turns out I'm right, he slips out from the 3rd and last ladder and stumbled that's why I ran immediately close to him and caught him with my broad arms.

Nice flex.

"Woahhh, watch out man," I said it suddenly while carrying him.

I took a quick glimpse of his face. I can't help but stare into those ocean blue eyes.

His eyes were so perfect. It was like the ocean, very calming to look at. And those beautiful lips, I can sense that it feels so smooth and soft. I suddenly felt the urge to kiss it.

Wait what am I even thinking? This isn't right.

Why do I find him so damn attractive?

There was a dead air of silence.

I heard Chris cleared his throat.

Well, that was awkward.

"Hey bro, are you alright?" Chris worriedly checks him by asking while Edon was also watching what's happening.

"Yes, I guess, thank you." He whispered the last words near my ears. It tickles me so much.

"It's fine." I then put him down on my chair to let him recover.

There's something in this guy, something that makes me uneasy, I think he's... attractive. So attractive.

No. I think I'm insecure with him, I guess? His looks is an ideal look for a normal heartthrob in schools that's why I guess he could be one of my rivals when it comes to girls. It sucks.

I suddenly remembered Bianca again, oh it still gives me pain. She broke my heart.

Why can't I have her?

I turned around again to check Dwight. He really looked problematic, something that lets him make those unlively actions and a 'restless' face.

But he's cute with that... ughh what's with my insecurities now? But...

... are these really insecurities? Do I really feel insecure?

"Dinner's ready!" Edon shouted enough for us to hear it.

I then help Dwight to stand, letting him wrap his arms around my shoulders to support him from walking.

I think we can be close... friends?

But why do I get butterflies around him?

What is this feeling?

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Hey guys! Chapter 1 done. The next chapters would be a little bit more short than this ones, I guess? HAHA because I kinda had a problem on introducing the characters here but hey don't forget to vote and comment your suggestions. I'm always free to communicate with you guys, don't worry, there's more to come and more characters to be introduced. I hope you enjoyed it!

Expect me to upload chapters after 1-3 days. Depends on my availability and mood. Thank you for your patience. :)