"You look like a nerd like that" Bailey commented as he sat next to me, I had seven (suppose to be eight) books piled next to my laptop for English.
"Oh but I'm not, I'm failing the class so I have a lot of catching up to do" I explained to him, he had a different look in his eyes but maybe I was overthinking. Again.

Classes went by in a breeze, Grace approached me with an issue. She had a worried and curious look in her eyes.
"Bailey's being bullied, can you help me convince the art teacher to let him sit with us during lunch? You know juniors aren’t allowed in the art room at lunch time" she asked, I nodded before I could speak, immediately wanting to help a friend out. We quickly found the art teacher and had a quick word with her. 

"Bailey is being bullied by his friends. He's in the closet, but they're giving him a hard time, so we were wondering if he'd be allowed in the art room during lunchtime" Grace explained, thankfully the art teacher understood why it was important and agreed. I sent Bailey a message so he knew he could come to hang out in the art room with us from now on.
"Thank you both so much" I smiled at his message.

no no no

I'm not supposed to like him, not like this

He would think I'm weird

Probably call me a slur

I can't tell him, not now not ever

Don't bother, he won't like you back

I shake my head, forcing the smile off my face and shut my laptop.  I hate it when I catch feelings so quickly. I barely know him. I reminded myself, my heart ached. I wanted to be in a relationship but I don't want to rush into something I'm not ready for. The bell rang and I headed to my last class for the day. 

No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get Bailey out of my mind and it's driving me crazy. Every time I look around I think I see him but he's not there, I started hating myself for it. I started noticing that I was dissociating during class, I thought of why this was happening but I couldn't work it out. Nothing bad was happening right now, like the calm before a storm.

He won't like you, give it up.
But I couldn't, my heart was set up for heartbreak. I saw him after school, walking with his friends and I remembered he told me that they were staying at a friend's house for the weekend. I walked home, my goal for the weekend? Trying to get rid of my feelings for Bailey.