Previously

I sit up and a memory flies into my mind.

"Come on babe!"
I hear Calem call me as he runs ahead.
"Calem stop running so fast!" I giggle as I try to catch up to him.
He stops and I run into his arms, hugging him tightly.
"I love you so much Serena, I want to live the rest of my life with you." He gently pushes some of my hair back from my face with his thumb.
"I want to live with you too, for forever and ever."
I smile at him and he grins back as we continue to walk through the park hand in hand.

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I look at Ash after telling him about Calem.
He seems mad, furious even.

"Hey Ash are you ok?"
He looks at me and puts on a small smile.
"Yes, I'm fine. I'm just angry at him. Angry that he just used you."
I see him clench his fists.
Is he really that mad at him.
Does he like me?
"Ash calm down, it's fine ok." "No Serena it's not ok! All he's done is use you! It's not right! It's not right at all! He should have treated you with kindness and love! Not just pretend to love you then hurt you and destroy your life! I want to beat him till he cries his apologies to you!"

I sit there in utter shock.
Ash really does care about me.
Wow..

"Ash.."
He shakes his head and stands up. "I'm sorry about that Serena, just forget about everything I said."
He grabs his jacket and opens the door.
"I'm going to take a little walk ok, see you later."

I sit there in silence as he walks out the house, closing the door behind him and leaving me alone.

What just happened.
I blink a few times.
Did that seriously just happen.

I've never seen as so.. angry.
It's not like him at all.
I want to go after him but knowing me I'll probably get lost in the dark.
I sigh and get changed, flopping onto my bed afterwards.

I'll have a talk with him tomorrow, he'll feel better then I'm sure.

I close my eyes and drift off into a peaceful sleep.

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I wake up and yawn loudly, slowly opening my eyes and turning towards Ash's bed.

"Morning As-"
I pause and I see the bed empty.
Where is he?

I get up and walk over to the bathroom door, knocking on it afterwards.
"Hey Ash are you in there?"

I wait a few seconds.
No reply.

"I'm coming in."
I open the door to see he room empty.

Where in the world is he??

I continue looking around our cabin, opening every door, looking behind and in everything I can.
But I still don't find him.

And that's when it hits me.

"He's still outside!!!!!"
I shout to myself, throwing any sort of clothes I can find on and running out the cabin, completely forgetting to close the door.

I run across the large field, heading straight towards the woods.

If anyone wants to hide themselves from someone, they will always go into the woods, it always happens in the books I read.

I get to the edge of the woods, gulping as I slowly make my first few steps into it.

It's going to be fine, I won't get lost, all I have to do is find Ash and leave.

Just keep taking deeps breaths Serena.
Deep breaths.

I hear a rustle in a bush behind me and whip my head round towards it.

It rustles again and I slowly creep backwards, my eyes always keeping sight of the bush.

I keep moving backwards till I feel something hit my foot, and I fall backwards, landing right on my bum.

"Owwwwwwwch!"
I shout.
God that was painful!!

I stiffly stand up, my backside still aching.
Well at least I scared off whatever was in that bush.

I continue walking, trying to ease the pain.
Where in the world could he be?

And that's when I hear a faint noise in the distance.
"Ash? Is that you?"
I shout towards the noise as I walk closer and closer to it.
"Ash! If your there answer me!"
I shout louder, now running.

I finally get to the area, seeing Ash laying in a field of flowers, his eyes closed.

I think he's asleep.

I creep over to him and sit beside him.
God he looks so hot and adorable sleeping.
I just want to cuddle into his chest and fall asleep with him!!

But instead I gently tap his shoulder.
"Ash, wake up."
I say softly.
He huffs at me and turns over, looking away from me.
"Ash wake up!"
I whisper shout, now shaking him gently.
"Go away."
Ash groans, pushing my hands off him.
"Ash get up!!"
I shout and he jolts awake, scowling at me.
"Why did you wake me up?!"
He groans, rubbing his eyes.
"Do you know how worried I've been about you! Why the hell didn't you come back last night!! You made me have a heart attack when I woke up and saw that you weren't there!!" I scowl at him, hurt clearly present in my eyes.
"Why have you been acting so inappropriately! And this is all because of Calem being nice to me! Why is that so bad to you!"
He stands up as I do, towering over me.
"Why do you care that I think it's bad! You don't care about my feelings so why the hell should I tell you! You treated me like crap when I was nice to you and when we finally do start to become close you come up to me like this and shout in my face!! You're such a horrible friend Serena! I don't know why I ever wanted to be close to you!"

Each word he speaks is like a knife in my heart. It pains me to listen to those words. It pains me to watch him, let his anger out, on me. It pains me even more that I know each of those devastating words are true. I feel myself break in two while staying motionless, in place.
Too broken to move.

As Ash walks off I feel my heart tear into pieces with every step he takes. I feel like running into his arms and calling him back, but I'm frozen in place. Cold winds strike me even on a summer morning as Ash's warmth leaves me.