Sorry for taking so long to update! I changed the direction of this book and I've been very busy, so writing a new chapter took me some time. Just a disclosure there are some mean, offensive words that are used. And I'm sorry if you get upset but the reality is, it's a word that people use. Feel free to message me if you're really upset. Hope you like!
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I didn't much on Sunday. I just lounged in my room writing.

About green eyes.
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Ring.

The warning bell goes off as I sprint through the halls trying to make it to my locker before homeroom. My tardiness is due to me binge watching Grey's Anatomy until my eyeballs couldn't keep themselves open.

My whole body almost flings to the floor as I stop short because a couple decided to stop and embrace each other in the middle of the hallway. I would scoff but I am not ignorant to the fact that if I had a boyfriend I could give him long hugs in the middle of the hallway. I sigh at this embarrassing thought.

At last, I have reached my destination. I spin my combination and flip the doors of my locker open.

In the corner of my left eye, a flash of dirty blonde hair sets on an alarm in my brain. My head whips around and I gasp as our eyes connect.

My cheeks turn the color of the rose pink binder that I reach for when I look away. The sound of his footsteps is in sync with the beats of heart as they increase more and more each second. It is as if his feet are racing my heart. And trust me I'd let him walk all over my heart.

Gosh darnit! I hate myself for being that stupid idiotic girl who just lets herself fall for guys. But for some reason, this feels different.

"Oh um, hi Sabrina. I'm uh-uh sorry that I didn't text you this weekend, I-I was just at a comic convention." he stutters out just as his awkward self should.

Oh wait, I almost forgot, he is different.

I snap myself back into reality and play it off casually, "Oh really, it's not biggie. I forgot I gave you my number anyways, I've just been so busy."

A look of confusion and pain spreads across his face, "Oh um okay. Bye."

He starts to go in the other direction when I stop him.
"Alec! Wait!" he stops and turns around with a quick response " No, don't worry about me. It's fine."

" No, I'm serious, stop! I didn't mean to say that. I'm just a girl and us girls say stupid things to protect their feelings. Just, sit with me at lunch today? I promise I'll make it up to you." I plead

There is some hesitation on his face but he agrees as the bell rings. Dammit. Stupid boys are always distracting me. I begin the walk of shame to my class.

But, he's not a stupid boy. He is actually very intelligent, and quirky, and adorable, and cute. But you know, I have other things to focus on. I need to work on my story for the contest. Dreams always go before a boy.

This thought brings my mind to my parents. Maybe it's true that your dreams should come before a boy, but careers shouldn't go before your children. Your children should be your dream.A single tear slides down my cheek but I shove it off as I walk into homeroom.

"Sabrina! Nice of you to join us!" I put on a smile as the cheers follow and begin the countdown to lunch."
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My eyes graze over faces as I search for Alec at lunch. After minutes I realize that I've been stood up. Anger and hurt clouds my mind as I plop down at my normal lunch table with Em. Bryce is at a track meet today so I least don't have to be around a happy couple.

She sees my discouraged face and goes to ask a question when the jocks join us with their obnoxiously loud voices and our never started conversation gets lost in the noise.

Instead, the conversation is about last night's Yankees game. For God's sake, I absolutely despise baseball. Hockey is my preference.

Just as I see the light, from all of this boredom there is a small tap on my shoulder.

When I turn around my eyes light up with joy.

" Sorry! Oh gosh, th-this is the second time today that I'm saying, I'm sorry for that. Oops! Make that three, I-I just I just got caught up in the lab room and-" I cut him off with a chuckle

"Don't worry about it" I begin to rise from my chair

"Sabrina, what the fuck!" Brian, a football play expresses

Alec's eyes widen " That is no way to speak to a lady!"
"Are you serious you fucking faggot! I don't give a shit what you say and you shouldn't even be speaking to her" He moves to stand

Brian looks about ready to punch Alec in the face when I intervene "He's right Brian, don't speak to me like that. I'm sitting with Alec because he's my friend. I'm sure your ego can handle it. And if it can't, oh well. We were all getting tired of it anyways."

I scoop my things up in one swift motion and march as far away from the table until I reach a nice quiet peaceful picnic bench outdoor. People stared at me as I walked by I don't care anymore. I just want some real happiness.

For once, I'm doing something for myself, not for others. We live in a society where everyone is expected to be a certain way. Adults like to put on a facade. They act as if it all changes after high school, but it doesn't. People don't change for shit.

The people who realize this are the ones who win in life.

For the first few minutes, there's a silence between us.

He speaks up as last "Listen, I'm sorry for all of that. I didn't mean to ruin one of your friendships."

I snort and the water that I was mid drinking shoots out of my nose. Way to go Sabrina. I can hear the laughter that plays in the background of comedy shows playing in my head.

Surprisingly he joins in with laughter "Hey you wanna hear a joke?" I blurt out

"Sure!" He returns my enthusiasm

"What happens to a weatherman when it rains?" his eyes await my answer "It gets wet!"

At first, he goes blank and then he laughs so hard that I can't contain myself. He accidentally knocks one of my notebooks to the floor and we both go to reach for it.

I wish could go on to talk about how our hands touched, sparks flew, and the moment was just magical. But I can't because my inner dork got the best of me and snatched up the book first and stuck like a child.

He both continued to giggle as we sat up until the bell ruined the moment. For a few seconds, we started at each other because we had to part ways. And this lunch, in particular, was one of the best times that I have had since Em's issues started.

The issues that I choose not to talk about. Ever.
"Tomorrow?" We both say at the same time and laugh one last time.

"I'd be honored." I stand up and curtsey in my dress.

He winks and walks away, probably before he can even process that flash of confidence that he just had.

"Sabrina! You have some explaining to do!" I groan as an angry Emmagin heads my way.

She's right I do have a lot of explaining to do. I just don't know if there's more to talk to her or myself about.