When it comes to love, I've been hurt more than any torture method.
I've fallen in love with a nd confessed to alot of girls, but always got rejected.
Looking back, there was one girl who liked me, but I was so caught up in my selfish search for love I ignored her call for my love.
It was, and forever will be one of my biggest regrets.
I've only had 2 girlfriend's before, both moved away, both tried keeping a long distance relationship with me, and both ghosted me and started to made themselves out of my life, as if then never existed.

After a few years, my mom sobered up and took me back.
She focused on her work and even recently hasn't focused or worried about me.
So, I started doing various things and hoping that mom will show me even some recognition.
That's why I started building gunpla.
I started building them and customizing them not only because I like them, but I hope my mom will be impressed and genuinely say she loves it and say it's amazing.
Everything I do always seems to not be enough for her to show me any recognition for it.
I do everything she asks me too, I do the laundry, i clean messes around the house that she asks me too, I build my kits to impress her, I even compete in school activities like spelling bees and track.
But no matter what I do, I'm always second best and there's always someone better.
In the end, I am who I am.
I came to wattpad so I can write fanfictions about a person with a hurt past can become strong and loved by other's.
I write all my characters as the people I wanna be.
Strong enough to protect everyone I care about and learn to live with themself and get over their suffering.
Well, that's my life story, what's yours?