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Igniting

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(Y/n)'s POV
I couldn't sleep, everytime I closed my eyes I saw a man with a red face. He reminded me of a demon, it was a haunting sight to say the least.

I turned in my bed and faced Anakin who appeared to be sleeping soundly with one hand holding mine. We're defying the council by loving each other, but we are only human with normal emotions and sometimes we're not in complete control of those emotions. The more I think about it, the more I realize how unreasonable their request of no attachments really is. Attachments is basic human nature, it's a need.

"What's wrong?" Anakin's sleepy voice grabbed my attention.

"Just thinking," I squeezed his hand, "Did I wake you?" I met his ocean eyes and nearly drowned in them.

"No," He yawned as he adjusted his head on my pillow, "I'm on watch duty."

I sighed, "You can't stay awake all night Anakin, you need to sleep too. I'm safe here."

He gave me a small smile, "I'll be fine," He pulled me close to him and wrapped his arms around me. He was warm and he smelt inviting, it was intoxicating. I couldn't believe we were here, holding each other. It felt surreal, too good to be true.

"Can you tell me it again?" I whispered, burying my face in his chest.

He chuckled, "You've asked me about a dozen times already," He loosened his hold to look down at me.

"One more time," I pleaded, fluttering my lashes.

"I love you." He kissed my forehead, but I wanted more. I reached and kissed his lips, softly. He ran his fingers through my hair before resting his palm on my face and stroking my cheek with his thumb. I waited for him to stop the kiss, but it only got stronger.

Soon, we were making out with so much passion and intensity, I didn't even notice he moved me on top of him. Neither of us stopped to take a full breath, we only scavenged the little amounts of air in between each kiss.

He dropped his hands down to my hips and squeezed me tight. A moan escaped his lips, it was quiet, but igniting.

I felt something hard poking me below and rubbed against it. He whimpered, strengthening his grip on my hips. I started moving my hips more, I was slow at first but soon it began to feel too good to hold back. I rocked my hips back and forth, continuing to kiss hard and fast.

We both moaned, we both whimpered. We both felt like we were rising up into heaven for the very first time. "Fuck," He used his grip to grind me back and forth even faster, "(Y/n)," He buried his face in my neck to muffle his cries of ecstasy. The bed creaked and I knew that was bad, but it felt so good, I couldn't stop. I wouldn't stop. To hell if we got caught.

I went faster, rougher. I wanted to scream. If something as simple as this felt this damn good, I can only imagine how it would feel to go all the way with him. When I'm ready, that is.

Anakin flipped me over and got on top of me. His lips began on my lips, before they touched my neck, then my chest, then my stomach, then... he lowered my pajama bottoms slowly. His gaze fixated on me, he was waiting to see if I would tell him to stop. When he realized I wasn't going to stop him, he smiled and lowered them all the way down, tossing them to the floor.

I froze at first, I've never shown so much of my body to anyone before, "Don't be nervous, you're absolutely beautiful," This was a scary thing to do, but I was so comfortable with him that my shyness didn't last too long. He made me comfortable.

"I just—" I swallowed nervously, "I want to do this, I just don't know if I'm ready for that."

"That is not what I'm trying to do right now. Just something else I want to try. Tell me if you want me to a stop," His eyes stayed locked with mine while he brought his lips between my thighs and... oh.

I gripped the sheets and threw my head back, "Oh dear god," I whispered, closing my eyes and taking pleasure in the full effect he was having on me.

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"Sleep, how did you?" Master Yoda asked as he gestured for me to sit in the seat across from him. We weren't in the council chambers, we were in his own personal room.

Images of last night flashed in my head and I put on a smile, "Good." I did sleep good after that, I slept better than I ever have.

With a nod, he spoke, "Feeling better?" He rested his palms on top of his cane.

"Yes Master, and I wanted to thank you for sticking up for me yesterday," I picked at my nails, nervously waiting for the reason he asked to see me, "I understand why the others might be skeptical of me, but I know just as little as you all do. I don't know why I'm alive, I don't know why I can't remember anything and I don't know who was responsible. I promise you though, Anakin and I will figure it out. I want answers just as much as everyone else."

Master Yoda silently listened to my rant. Once I was finished, "Called you here to interrogate you, I did not. Only care about your well-being, I do."

I smiled, "I promise I'm fine, just a few cuts and bruises. Nothing I can't handle."

He tilted his head and eyed me for a moment, I could practically see the thoughts swimming through his eyes, "Hm not physically, mentally. Been through a lot you have, more than many Jedi here." He pointed at me with his long mail, "Making sure you are still on the right path, I am. Great fear surrounds you, and fear is a path to the dark side."

"I have no desire for the dark side Master Yoda," I have never had a malice thought and I have never felt tempted towards its power. I'm stronger than that.

He hummed, a smile creeping on his lips, "Desiring it or not, does not matter. Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, and hate leads to suffering. Fall victim before realizing it, you can." He was up from his chair and his cane tapped on the floor with every step he took towards me, "Mediate today, we will. Work through your emotions and fears, we must."

I was left for dead after losing Master Ti, kidnapped, almost drowned by a sea creature, attacked here in the temple by something that should only exist in nightmares, Anakin almost died in my arms...I can go on forever. I feel like my fear is justified, normal, not a symptom that needs fixing.

I sighed quietly, he called me here to act as my therapist, "Can I just promise to keep my emotions in check?"

He shook his head, "Alone here, you are not. Safe, you are. Let us remind you of that."

I sighed again, this time with defeat. I was going to be here for hours.

Anakin's POV
"What are you thinking about?"

I looked up from the table, locking eyes with Luke who was sitting across from me in the cafeteria. It was only us, an odd occurrence. I half-expected him to sit at another table when I saw him walk in, but to my surprise, he sat here. He's made it clear he doesn't like me and I too am not fond of him, so it was strange to me.

"(Y/n)," I admitted, tapping my foot on the floor as I locked myself back in my head.

"Is she okay?" He pulled my attention again.

I nodded, "Shes fine, she's with Master Yoda right now." Probably stuck mediating or something. It's Master Yoda's remedy to anything and everything.

"Probably mediating. That's his remedy to anything and everything." He snorted, taking a small sip of the water cup he had sitting in front of him.

I furrowed my brows, he said the exact thing I was thinking. A coincidence obviously, but it was still odd, "Why are you sitting here?" I finally asked, "You don't like me and I certainly don't like you."

He let out a heavy breath, "I need your help with something." There it is. He reached onto his belt and pulled out his lightsaber before placing it on the table between us, "I... dropped it and I've tried everything to fix it but I can't get it to work anymore."

I pressed the button that ignited it, nothing happened, "Go to the council, they'll grant you a new one." I said bluntly, placing it back on the table and pushing it away so it would roll in his direction.

"Is that your way of telling me you can't fix it?" He raised his brows, "I was told you're the best when it comes to fixing things, was that not true?"

I smirked, "I can fix it, I just don't want to."

He rolled it back in my direction after pushing it with his knuckle, "What if I say please?"

I rolled it back, "What if I say there's nothing in it for me, so why should I?"

He breathed heavily through his nose, "Look," He picked it up and rubbed the cracked metal with his thumb, "This has sentimental value to me. It's been with me through too much, I don't want a new one so please just name your price."

For once he didn't sound like a cocky little asshole, he sounded sincere and genuinely upset. He's lucky I have an attachment to mine as well so I can understand his mood right now, "How about this, I get one favor from you of my choosing. Whenever and wherever I decide to use it is on me, and you can't say no. Agree to that and I'll have it done for you by morning."

Without hesitation he held his lightsaber out to me, "Done."

"Wonderful," I took it and examined it again, "You really did a number on this, it looks—" I stopped once I looked up and noticed his extremely irritated expression, "Why are you looking at me like that?"

"No reason," He spoke in a monotone with an eye roll as he stood up, "Call me when it's done." He power-walked away with his robe swaying behind him.

"When people help you, you say thank you," I shouted, earning me a few glares from the others in the room. He however didn't bother to turn around or acknowledge what I said, "Little jerk has a serious attitude problem," I mumbled to myself this time.

I looked back down at the weapon in hand and spun it around a few times. It was an easy fix, most of it was cosmetic. But I am going to have to take it apart to see why exactly it isn't turning on. I left the cafeteria and made my way to my room. My workbench will have everything I need, and I was also hoping (y/n) would be back from her meeting with Master Yoda.

I needed to see her. Not for any particular reason other than I was missing her. It was her and me last night in her bed that was going through my head when Luke interrupted my fantasy.

As soon as I turned the corner it I the hallway where my room was, my heart skipped a beat. I placed Luke's lightsaber in my pocket and walked faster to catch up to her.

I hugged her from behind and kissed her neck, "Anakin," (Y/n) spun around with wide eyes, only to relax when she saw we were the only ones in the hall, "If we're going to be doing this," She gestured between us, "We need to be careful. Public PDA for example should be off the table."

I smiled down at her, my heart melting with every second I was getting lost in her eyes, "Then into the privacy of my room, we go." I wrapped my arms around her again and carried her towards my room. Joyful giggles coming from the both of us.

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