Mask
a manner or expression that hides one's true character or feelings; a pretense.
"she let her mask of moderate respectability slip"

Why would people change their personality to something they aren't? To impress someone? To be part of a group since they couldn't stand being lonely anymore? Those could be possible. But...have you ever thought about them fighting their own mind. Trying to get rid of the thoughts, the demons inside that person's head.

What does this have anything to do with the story? You may not know but this is something important that all of you have to know. You won't understand right now but soon...you will.

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No one notices him. It seems like they don't care about him. The pain he is experiencing while they were too distracted with their thinking. Yes, we all know that they are trying to figure a way to save her, but that doesn't mean that they would lose their focus on the others. They will regret it.

Sub's POV

Did they notice that I'm in pain? Were they too distracted to notice it? Am I invisible? Worthless? I bet they want me to die, don't they. That why they didn't care. They want me dead, I just know it.

With some time of walking, we arrive at the house. No one talked while we were walking to the house. It was quiet, too quiet for us. We were never this silent. We would always be goofing around and that laughing. But this time it was different. No one smiled but had this serious faces that made me nervous and worry.

The first thing all of them did when we enter the house is run to the library. What did I do? I didn't follow them, that for sure. I want my alone time, with no human being. I look around to see if someone decides to go somewhere else but saw no one. I turn around to the front door, not before checking one more time and unlock it. Grabbing the door handle and turning it so the door open.

The wind brushes my face in a relaxing way that made me calm. Nature is the only thing that could relax me when I'm feeling down. I step out of the house and for the first time today, I felt free. Free from everything that is happening right now. I close the door and lock it with the keys all us own.

Slowly, I walk to the place I always visit. I love to admire the environment. Seeing what around me and appreciating it. I think everything is important in this world. We should all stop what we are doing and appreciate nature.

Soon I stop walking. I smile looking at the place that I admire deeply in my heart. Trees surrounding everywhere, their leaves slowly being blown by the wind. The sunlight lighting it perfectly, making the place look like heaven. Birds chirping happily, blessing my ears with their sounds. The grass looking healthy and I will keep it this way. I made a promise to never harm the environment.

I went to sit down. I'm far away from the house and that makes me happy. They don't need me anyway so why should I care for them. I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I could hear the wind blowing, the calmest noise. I stay like this for some time until I felt something...soft. I open one eye and what I saw surprised me. The "soft" thing is an animal, to be exact is a bunny. I don't understand. This is the first time an animal came to my direction. I thought they would run away from me.

I want to pet the bunny but that would scare it. Bunnies can be really sensitive. I knew I shouldn't do this but I did. I raise my hand to pet the bunny slowly. Surprisingly it didn't get scared but instead it calm down. Why? I can't explain that.

I touch the bunny and for some reason, I saw the color blue surrounding it. My mind then said the word "tranquility" and I knew what it meant. The bunny is feeling calm with me touching it.

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Every good thing comes to an end. Sadly it getting dark so I need to go back home. Home...that where everyone is. Did they notice I left? I hope not. They definitely ask me where I went. I don't want to tell them about this place.

While I'm walking I began to think about what happened with the bunny. I never experience that before. I really need to know what actually happened. I could go to the library to see if there's any information about it.

Soon without realizing I'm in front of the house. I couldn't stop shaking. I feel something bad is going to happen. I couldn't stop worrying. Questions are forming in my head. Should I go in? I decided to go into the house. I shouldn't have gone inside the house.

When I open the door I didn't see anyone. I guess they were too tired so they went to sleep. I went directly to the library. I reach over to grab the handle but for some reason, my heart began to beat super fast. It only does that when I'm nervous. But I still decide to go inside. Why did I decide to do that? I should have gone to sleep instead.

When I step in, the first thing I saw was the whole group and papers everywhere. Everyone looks frustrated. All of them are surrounded in red, indicating they are angry. But I also felt that they were dangerous, that something is going to happen. It gave me a warning but I didn't listen to it. Why did I ignore it? All of it wouldn't have happened.

I tried to be quiet but it didn't work. Everyone look at my direction. I don't like everyone looking at me. I tried to smile but that didn't work. For some reason, everyone glared at me. Some not as hard as other, they seem they only glared because they were trying to figure something. But still, what did I do?

"What are you doing here." It scared me. The harshness of his voice, Sketch voice. I began to shake. What should I say? That I wanted to go outside since I didn't want to be here with you guys? I open my mouth and tried to talk but words didn't come out. Only little sounds.

"You finally decided to come. We working our asses to find a way to save Lily while you went somewhere being f***ing useless." He didn't say bad words. What is happening right now? Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry.

My throat hurts and my heart began to beat faster every time. I want to cry but I can't. Not in front of them. That will prove that I'm just a useless person. I look down at the ground, not daring look up to see their expression.

Then I suddenly felt a burn in my stomach. I close my eyes when I hit the wall behind me. It hurts. I put my hands in the place it burns. I bit my lips so I wouldn't cry.

"Just get out of here." With no emotion but pain, I stand up. It still hurts, not the place I got hit that I could heal but my feelings. I went outside the library since I forgot to close the door. But I didn't forget to close it this time.

"That was too harsh Sketch. I can't believe you did that."

"He deserves it. He didn't help us look for Lily."

"No, he didn't. Is his choice to help us. He possibly has something important that he needed to do."

That all I heard when I was walking away from them. Now I'm in my room and I could not hear any sound. I close the door and put it on lock. I don't want anyone to come. They already did enough to hurt me.

I couldn't hold it anymore. I burst into tears. I slid down and lean at the door, not stopping. I couldn't take it anymore. They hurt me. Both mentally and physically. More tears came while I thought about what happened. 

Do they really hate me to do this to me? I try to be perfect but this is what I receive in return. I try my best to be strong. I can't take it anymore. I just want to leave and never return.

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Did you enjoy this chapter? Did I leave anyone in tears? I hope not, I want all of you to be happy. I want to try something new so this is what I decided. I hope it good because I tried my best to write it well. Also the fact that I'm not very good at describing.

I'm sorry I didn't write that much. Also, I kinda take a long time to write a chapter and I apologize for that.