In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. I think it's impossible to really understand somebody, what they want, what they believe, and not love them the way they love themselves. And then, in that very moment when I love them... I destroy them." 
 Orson Scott Card

As soon as Mukta opened her eyes, Arjun eyes captivated her. Mukta was stunned to see the soft and caring emotions in those eyes. He was looking too lost if he didn't sleep from long time. It was true he didn't even blink his eyes since last 2 night. His eyes were  red due to lack of sleep.

He was looking her face with so much admiration and mix of pain. If he was scared for Something... they both broke their trance of staring to each other.

What I see in you is something I cannot name
perhaps its envy or jealousy, 
but maybe hate.
I fight against you in every way
And in the mirror,
It's you I see over my shoulder, 
Pointing out all my faults.
I dwell on thoughts that are filled of you,
the words you say and things you do,
but I don't know what to say.
You'll always be there, 
In my view,
I chase after you with all my strength,
To defeat you is my goal,
You'll always be in my memory,
As my one and only enemy.

Arjun became straight on his chair and looked towards his little sister who was sleeping peacefully unaware of everything. He composed himself and looked towards Mukta,

"How are you feeling now..." he asked in concerned tone.

Mukta replied meekly,
"Fine... i guess...."

Arjun nodded his head and didn't say anything for some moments like if he was contemplating with himself. Mukta also didn't speak a word after that. She closed her eyes again to avoid his gaze. After a long pause he said,

" Mukta... open your goddam eyes.... i am fed up now... let's have a simple and straight conversation...."

His voice was as usual intimidating and deep dripped with anger and frustration. Mukta frowned on his words. She was confused. Why he was looking so frustrating. She knew that he would never be thankful to her but she was expecting some kind words afterall she saved him. Instead of that he was behaving still as a jerk.

Her thoughts broke by his words and she looked towards him.

"Mukta Arjun Verma... i want all your attention here... listen carefully.....you are my wife... i can't afford to lose you... do you have any idea how scared i was when you got shot... first time in my life... I.... Arjun Verma became scared... can you believe it... i was feeling helpless for you... "

He stopped abruptly when he realized what he said in his frustration while Mukta was gaping him with astonishment. What he was saying? He was scared and for what ? For her....he was scared for her.... this was really unbelievable for her. She didn't uttar a word. He shut his eyes and opened in next moment.

"Did you want to die? Why you came infront of me ? Keep it in your mind my dear wife... this time i will not let you go away... you are mine... you became stuck with me forever... what do you think after making me insane for you? I hate you... i really hate you...i hate you for what you did with me.... i hate you for what you made me... i hate you for destroying my peace and my relationships with my family... i hate you for everything... i just hate you but i can't be away from you... with every moment you became my addiction... your eyes... your face... your scent everything pulled me towards you... i know i am very bad person... i did so wrong with you..."

He stopped and looked towards Nooria. He sighed and thought if he should talk the things with Mukta or not? He got up from his chair and walked towards Nooria. He looked her. She was sleeping in deep slumber. He returned towards Mukta who was seeing him.

He set on her bed and held her hand in between his palms. He spoke in very low tone,
"I am very bad person... as you said to me... i am really a devil... i forced you for marriage... i snatched your dignity... i forced you for physical intimacy...."

Mukta who was silent unknowingly cut his words,
"You raped me Arjun.... you robbed me..."

Arjun groaned in her sharp tone,
"I know... what i did.... i know i am not good to you... i will not be good to you... because i can't forget my past...i know you should be away from me because i will destroy you... i want to let you go away far away from me.... but...."

Mukta's eyes were flowing with tears. She was so devastated on his confused outburst,
"But what ? Arjun what i did with you? Why so much hate for me?"

Arjun looked her teary eyes,
"I can't let you go... i can't forget all the pain you gave me... Mukta i am not a saint... you know the strange thing between us... you are the cause of my miseries but you also my remedy... whenever i see your face... whenever i touch you... i feel alive again... i can't give up on you.... you are bound to me because only you can give me peace..."

"What about me? I also want to live... Please let me even breathe freely Arjun... i also want someone who can make me feel alive... make me feel loved" she huffed on his possessive tone and dark eyes..

"You can breathe Mukta... you can live... from now i will not bother you... you will get everything... my money... my home... you have every rights on my things being my wife... in return you just have to be on my side always... but i can't give you love... because i am also lacking of that feeling... i can't give which i don't have in me.... you have to bear me... my anger... my pain... my insecurities.... my fears.... i can give you only these things..." he replied in firm but calm tone.

Mukta was devastated to know that how broken he was from inside... they both were broken... they both were dangerous to each other because both didn't know how to heel other one.... Mukta wanted to go away because his emotions were suffocating her... she was scared to hear his words... he confirmed her doubts... he was too obsessed with her.... he was the slow poison affecting her bit by bit....

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Ok friends so i tried to make them open about their feelings little bit...

What do you think what will be the next thing

Any guesses?