MISHA

I never planned to get married nor have a child because I, myself is struggling to live for a long period of time. I had no reason for staying and my life is ruined and chaotic in the first place. My existence is not too important to prolong for something, simply because there is nothing that I wanted to get a hold of me.

I am in the point of my life where everything seems to be uncertain, boring and running without direction. I am breathing fine but my soul is dying. My heart is beating for nothing. Living feels like a punishment that I am enduring.

Taking care of a child is the last thing that I want to do in this lifetime so who would believe that I did. This time, life has finally made sense to me. Something or someone rather finally gets me emotionally attached.

Can you believe it? Someone said that motherhood suits me well and I believed him. So I accepted the challenge of being a substitute mother thinking that things would finally fall in the right place, but little did I know, everything was just about to get worse.