Chapter 19 || The Power of Love

"Yes! The flight took off just now. He's gone! He didn't come back! I had one last hope that maybe he wouldn't go, so I confirmed it from the airport authorities, if he boarded the flight or not....he boarded it! I feel really bad now! Really! You and Rohan take care of Anaisha; I'll come there in some time, okay?" Nikhil said, softly on the phone to Zaina, sadness evident in his voice.

"Yeah sure! And thanks a lot Nikhil for being there for Annie even though I know you have feelings for her! It means a lot to me! I'm glad my best friend have found an amazing and supportive friend like you," said Zaina while controlling her tears.

Nikhil was a little bemused with Zaina's reply and said, "Well there's no use to talk about my feelings for her. Anyway I'm glad too, to get her as a friend! Chal I'll come there and then talk with you guys! Bye!" He ended the call and went out of the airport to fetch a cab.

After Kabir left the visiting area and they all moved out of the airport, Nikhil had told Zaina and Rohan to take Anaisha to her home. When Zaina asked him, "But what about you? Won't you come with us?"

Nikhil glanced at Anaisha's pale face and said in a very deep and serious voice, "Umm... no! I don't know why but I still feel that Dr. Kabir won't go. Anyway you guys take Annie home now! It would hurt her a lot if she stayed here more. I'll join you guys shortly!"

Zaina nodded her head and agreement and took Annie to her home with Rohan.

And so Nikhil stayed back at the airport till Kabir's flight took off. He had hoped that Kabir would come back....but he was wrong. Kabir left. But the strange thing is, he somehow understands Kabir situation. He knows well Kabir loves her lot, that's why he left her.

If Kabir didn't love her, then he would've never stayed rigid on his decision to go. But he still has a tiny hope in his heart. But it's of no use. So he decided to go to Anaisha's home.

He didn't know why but he still felt Kabir'll come back. And so he hoped to God that he make Kabir come back. His love story couldn't be completed but atleast let Annie have hers fulfilled.

"She's still in her room, crying and not ready to come out. She didn't utter even a single word till now! I asked her to come and have atleast coffee and some cookies if not food but she refused that too without saying a word! But she's crying. It's better to let her cry. She'll feel better. Some of her pain will reduce and it will make her heart feel lighter if not better," said Rohan, who was very much disturbed with his bestie's condition.

After talking with Nikhil when he went up Whatever happened with her was wrong but there's no one to be blamed. He just hoped she'll get better soon. He really wish everything gets solved soon as he couldn't see her like that.

"But I can't see her like this. I want my chirpy and cheerful bestie back. Have you even looked at her, her face is so pale and her eyes, they seem so dead because of the crying thing. I hate Kabir for this. I really do," said a crying Zaina. She knew Kabir had a reason for doing all this but right now her bestie mattered the most to her. She couldn't see her in pain and could not even reduce it by any means. She feels extremely helpless and weak. All she could do was hope for the better future now!

She wish there was a way by which she could take away Annie's pain and make her life better. And she wish she could hate you Dr. Kabir Thapar for making her bestie so miserable and vulnerable. But she couldn't! Because her bestie loved him. Zaina prayed for something that would change Kabir's mind and make him come back to Anaisha or something that would erase his name and memories from Anaisha's mind.

But Zaina knew both her wishes were mindless because Kabir had already left and erasing him from Anaisha's mind was impossible, atleast now.

Meanwhile Anaisha was glad her family would come only by tomorrow evening. She didn't have the strength to face them now nor does she wanted them to be worried for her. By tomorrow she would prepare herself to fake her smile and pretend that it's all good.

Though she knew she would be caught by her family in just seconds but her mind was not thinking properly so she decided to cover up her pain with a smile. 'I'll be able to do so by tomorrow! Maybe!'

She has been silent since Kabir left. She hadn't uttered even a single word. She felt like someone had drained all the energy from her body. She was completely numb. Maybe because this was the first time she was experiencing this much pain.

She had always lived the life of a princess, protected, secure and away from the harsh realities of the world. Her cocooned upbringing was the reason why she never knew any hardships of life. She never knew what it was like to suffer like this. She had always hoped for a romance like that in novels and fairy tales.

But now she knew there was no fairy tale. Her prince charming left her alone. He won't wipe her tears or sing her to sleep. He won't! All her dreams were shattered! In just the course of three days, her whole world had turned upside-down.

She was on the ninth cloud when Kabir confessed his love for her and weaved so many dreams about herself and Kabir but then she was rudely snapped out of her dream world when he told her that he was leaving and they couldn't be together. Kabir broke her heart but she didn't hate him for this. All she was feeling now, was the feeling of rejection, loneliness, emptiness, sorrow and endless pain. But she didn't hate him.

All she felt for him was unconditional love. She could never hate him. Because he was the one, who at least for a minute, made her fairy tale like dream come true. Though he was the one who broke it too. But that didn't matter to her at all. She loved him and just wanted him here with her. But alas! If that was possible!

She had heard Nikhil telling her friends, that Kabir left when she was going to tell them to go to their home. After hearing that, she ran to home, hugged Beany the bear and cried. She was completely heartbroken. She had never imagined in her nightmares, that she ever will suffer a heart break. Never! But life always takes us by surprise. Life's never fair so is fate! If it gives you something then it takes away something as well.

Like it gave her love but snatched Kabir away from her. What was the result of confessing her love when he left? She had really hoped that Kabir would turn and come back to her. But he didn't rather he left.

She had seriously meant her words when she said they could've handled everything. They really could've made their relationship work and stayed together. But he didn't believe it and she won't blame Kabir for anything. Maybe they were destined to be in love but not meant to be together. Yet she wished they were.

When Rohan came to check on her and ask her for coffee, she didn't have the strength to speak so she kept quiet, hoping her best friend would understand and well he did. She kept crying recalling her last moments with Kabir on the airport.

But after a while she was tired literally tired of crying and mourning! Because it instead of decreasing her pain, was in fact increasing it. If she will stop thinking about those heartbreaking memories then maybe it wouldn't hurt her so much.

So she decided to numb her mind and tried to relive those time she spent with Kabir. She recalled each and every moment spent with him, the first meeting, their fight, her first day duty with him, their apologies, Kabir's consoling her, their playful talks, their arguments, their secret hideout, their dance together, the medical camp trip, their confession, their first kiss, and their last kiss and the hug at the airport!

The song 'The Way I loved you' by Selena Gomez and The Scene, was constantly playing on her phone. This song was pretty old, some 5-6 years old. But at the moment this song resonated with her and the turmoil she was going through. The song was about losing your first and true love. She felt each and every word of the song while reliving her memories with Kabir.

She had kept this song on repeat. Whenever she used to listen to this song before, she used to try and comprehend the pain behind the lyrics of the song, but now she understood it really well!

"Letting you go is
Making me feel so cold, yeah
And I've been trying to make
Believe it doesn't hurt
But that makes it worse, yeah
See, I'm a wreck inside
My tongue is tied and my
Whole body feels so weak
The future may be all I really need"

"Like a first love,
The one and only true love
Wasn't it written all over my face, yeah
I loved you like you loved me (Oh)
Like something pure and holy
Like something that can never be replaced"

"And if I should ever fall in love again
With someone new
Oh, It could never be the way
No, It will never be the way
I loved you!"

She felt each and every line of this song. Her state resembled that of the person who wrote this song. She had tried to make her pain numb but it was of no use. She was wreck now and her heart was broken into million pieces. She can never love someone as much as she loved him. And like the song, he too loved her just the same. No one can replace him or their love in her life ever.

She didn't know why Kabir said that he was replaceable in her life because he was not. No one or no other thing could replace him or their love in her life and in her heart.

She played this song repetitively and kept reliving her moments. At least she felt him near. Though her mind told her that it was just illusion of feeling him near but heart said a different story.
'Maybe he's really close,' said her heart.

The doorbell rang while Anaisha was still recalling her time spent with Kabir in her room. Rohan and Zaina, who were sitting in the living drinking coffee as they didn't feel sleepy at all after looking at their best friend, who refused them for coffee bluntly without even speaking a word! They both decided to stay back for her.

Rohan stood up and went to open the door, since all the domestic helps were in Manali with the family. Thinking it to be Nikhil, he opened the door and stood rooted to his place! It wasn't Nikhil who was standing in front of him but it was Kabir! KABIR THAPAR!

When Kabir turned to move away from her, he felt his as if he was leaving his life behind him. His chuckled humourlessly as that was completely true, 'Cause she is your life. She's your everything!' said his bleeding heart which was shattered after seeing her for the last time. And after hearing her words, he felt even more heartbroken. His heart bloomed when she said she will wait for him. She loves him so much. But he couldn't turn back now. He could not go back on his decision.

He went and sat near his GM, who didn't ask him anything sensing his miserable state. He covered his face with his hands and cried a bit. He was such a big loser. All he ever get was miseries and sorrow. Why him? Why not someone else? He had his share of pain and heartaches. But then he knew Anaisha will be better off without him. In some years she'll find someone else who'll fill her life with happiness and give her the love she deserved. And once that happen, she'll forget him.

But would she really forget him? Of course she would, there was no doubt. He'll become just a memory for her. A heartbreaking memory. He felt even sadder and gloomier than before realising that one day Anaisha would forget for the rest of her life, leading a happy life with future partner whereas he'll just spend his life alone without her and her love. Why had it always been him who had to endure all the pain?

Suddenly, his heart asked him, 'Why are you cursing your fate and mourning over your destiny now? Your fate, was the one which brought Anaisha in your life and your destiny which binded you to her. But what you did? You pushed her away and turned your back on her. Why? Because you think you won't ever keep her happy. You will only give her pain and sorrow. She deserves someone better. She'll find someone and fall in love again. You should leave her.

'Did you even ask her once what she wanted? What she needed? Did you? You just decided it yourself what's good for her and what's not! Not even once bothered to take in concern of her choices and wishes. All she wanted was you; all she needed was your love! Why didn't you understand that she's meant to be with you? Turn back Kabir and embrace her in your arms. Accept your love and give her a chance to fill your life with joy and warmth of her love.'

His mind argued back saying 'It's best for her and her well-being. She's naive and young but when she'll be a little old and wiser, she'll regret her decision to be with you. And you don't want to go through that rejection. So it's better to leave now or else you'll be a lot more hurt when she'll leave you for someone else.'

His heart mocked his mind by saying, 'You doesn't want to be rejected but you rejected her love. What about her and her dreams? You shattered them in just one blink to hide your cowardice and selfishness. And how can you think like that about her? Can't you see how much she loves you? It's so visible in her eyes. Are you blind that you couldn't see it in her eyes? And her words? You let her words fall to deaf ears? You're right you don't deserve her because she deserves someone who'll care for her and love without being selfish.'

His mind retorted, 'He loves her that's why he's leaving her. She'll become like you if you'll be with her. Apart from inflicting your wounds on her, you won't do give her anything else. So please stop thinking about this and believe that she'll have a better life without you!'

His heart too didn't stop and said bitterly, 'Oh please! Stop giving yourself fake assurance. Kabir you won't be able to live without her nor she'll be able to live without you. Neither you can forget her nor she'll be able to do so. Please Kabir go back to her! Please!'

And so the battle between his heart and mind kept going on! The battle within him, made him wonder whethe he really made the right decision or did he make a mistake? Should hr go back to her....? No he shouldn't think to much about it. He should stay firm on his decision. This was the right choice for both of them. Yeah it was. Really?

The argument between his heart and mind still didn't stop and with time, somehow his heart was inching towards winning. And this made him think that he actually made a wrong choice. But it was too late now. So he shouldn't think about it as it won't do any good. He smiled weakly to himself to make himself feel better.

Though his heart was winning this battle but Kabir still didn't budge because he knew it was of no use.

Soon the announcement was made for the passengers to boarding the flight. He got up, took his luggage and went towards the boarding area with his GM. He and GM both got checked and moved towards the passage of the flight.

But by this time, his mind and heart came on same side. His mind and heart said in unison, 'Kabir turn back and go! This is not where you're supposed to be! Go back to Anaisha! Don't board the flight Kabir! You're supposed to be with Anaisha! Please Kabir go back! It's still not late to make everything right! Anaisha will take you back you know that well na? She said she'll wait for you, so please don't make her wait! Turn back Kabir! Don't board this flight! Please!'

His mind and heart, both were telling him not to board the flight and go back to her. He slowly started becoming weak and had second thoughts about leaving. Should he turn back and go? Should he change his decision and be with Anaisha? Should he? But what if it turns out to be bad decision? What if?

His mind then whispered to him, 'All your life, you have asked for happiness and calmness in your life. And God gifted you that in the form of love, Anaisha. But you instead of embracing her, left her, made her cry. You made her suffer and broke her heart! She even wanted to leave her everything behind and be with you, promised to never to leave you alone or commit your parents' mistakes. But you never paid any heed to her.

'And why so? Because you feared that you both too will become like your parents and one day all your love would just vanish and leave you both in bitterness. But honestly it was this reason or your fear of being loved that made you do this. You're running away from her because you fear being loved. You fear that she'll give you love and then take it back. But please try go understand that she won't do something like this ever. She is your happiness, your life, your love and don't leave her now. Not now or ever! Accept her Kabir! Please!'

His mind finally revealed the real reason why he was running away from her! 'You're afraid Kabir! Afraid of being loved by someone. Afraid of being important for someone. Afraid of losing that love. Afraid of going through the same pain, you've been subjected to since a very long time. But you can't live your life with these fears. You need to let them go!' said his wise heart!

As his mind and heart stated the real reason for him running away, he finally accepted his mistake. Yes he was afraid. He was afraid of being loved and then being left heartbroken. He was afraid of love. But now he wasn't afraid anymore. Because he knew it will hurt him if he and Anaisha ever end up being like his parents but it will hurt him more If he didn't turn back now. If he won't take this risk and go back to Anaisha then he'll surely regret this decision for the rest of his life. He will go back to Anaisha. Let whatever happen, happen.

Finally when he decided to go back, he was sitting in the flight. He heard the air hostess, telling the authorities to announce the name of two passengers who still hadn't reach the airport, for the last time. He now believed that it was God's way of making him realise that this was not where he was supposed to be rather he was supposed to be beside the girl who still must be crying because of him.

He looked at his GM's sad and gloomy face and said, "GM, we aren't going, okay? Let's get our luggage and get the hell out of here!" As soon as his GM heard him say that, her face turned all happy and she said yes enthusiastically!

He told his GM that he'll inform the hospital management that he couldn't attend the medical conference due to personal reasons. His GM's happiness knew no bounds. She merrily agreed and then they both moved down from the flight after convincing the flight crew that there's an emergency and they can't travel.

He and GM quickly collected their luggage and moved outside. He thought that Anaisha to be there but she wasn't. He felt a little sad but no problem he'll go where she was. "Come GM, I'll drop you home and inform the hospital Admin that I can't attend that medical conference. After that I call Zaina and ask her about Anaisha's whereabouts."

"There's no need for doing that sir. You please go to Anaisha's house. The rest I'll manage. But sir I'm not dreaming, right? You're really here for Anaisha na?" asked Nikhil

Nikhil, who was about to hire a cab when he saw Kabir and GM coming out of the airport. He couldn't believe it at first but then saw GM's happy face which made him believe that it's true. He moved towards them and said that to Kabir.

Kabir was a little shocked with seeing him there but then asked him about Anaisha. Nikhil informed him that Zaina and Rohan took her to her home. He told him that he better rush because her condition was not good. Kabir said he'll go but he needs to drop GM home for which Nikhil quickly said he'll do that, as it more urgent for Kabir to be with Anaisha.

Kabir hugged Nikhil and said gratefully, "Thank you so much Nikhil!" He quickly boarded a cab and went towards his lady love's house.

After he left, Nikhil and GM hi-fied and exchanged a few words of happiness and then left for Kabir's house. Kabir was extremely excited. After so many years, he felt alive and happy. He himself now wanted to forget his past and live a happy life with her.

She was a gift that God hads gifted him and he'd be damned if he ever left her. He kept smiling thinking about her reaction and what he will tell her. He couldn't stay even a minute away from her now. He just wished to be with her till his last breathe! No matter what happens to them tomorrow but he won't run away from her.

And it all became possible because of the power of her love for him which dragged him back to her.

Rohan couldn't believe it! Kabir was standing in front of him. Kabir Thapar! His bestie's love! If he's here it means he didn't board the flight! It means he didn't leave! He's standing right in front of him. But he was Rohan Khurana, how could he believe something without a proof. So he asked Kabir to pinch him to proof that he's real and not a dream.

Kabir just looked at him with amused looks. Anaisha and her friends!

By then Zaina too came there wondering what was taking Rohan so long. She too was shocked beyond anything. But she came out of her shock after hearing Rohan's crazy demand. She punched him and moved forward to hug Kabir.

Rohan too hugged them and both of them thanked him. They both know by his face that he was here for Annie. They both told him the direction for Anaisha's room as they saw him searching for her. They giggled when he rushed towards her room.

As Kabir moved towards Anaisha's room, they received a call from Nikhil, who told them he's coming shortly as he was at Kabir's house and GM was making Halwa for them. So he'll come soon and bring halwa for them as well! They both talked to GM as well and all of them were very happy. They all were grateful that Kabir changed his mind and just hoped for Kabir and Anaisha to be together!

The door of her room was ajar when Kabir reached there. He peeped through the small opening in her room. He heard the song which was still playing on repeat. The room had only one source of light, the lamp kept on the side table beside her bed. He saw her sitting with closed eyes, hugging her stuffed bear. His lady love well was the cutest and such a child. But he loved her childlike nature.

He entered the room, slowly without making any noise, and saw her face clearly. There were tear stains on her face and her eyes seemed swelled. Her whole face was red. He felt guilty because he was the reason for this. He moved towards her and kneeled down on the floor beside her. He turned off the song, then took her hands in his and softly called her name.

Anaisha was so lost in recalling and reliving her moments with him that she didn't even noticed when the song stopped playing. She only realised it when she felt someone hold her hand and call her name.

She opened her eyes and saw him. She thought it was illusion and again closed her eyes which made fresh tears to roll down her cheeks. But she felt his lips on her cheeks, kissing her tears away; she realized he was indeeded here.

When he saw her eyes, they were red and puffy. He cursed himself for this. He knew she thought it was an illusion and it pained him when he saw tears coming out of her eyes. He couldn't resist the urge to wipe her tears so he kissed her cheeks to suck her tears away.

"You're really here or am I dreaming?" she asked as bewildered. She still can't completely believe.

He chuckled and said, "Yes I am. You aren't dreaming. I'm here right beside you! But I don't get one thing, since the time I climbed down the flight, every person I meet asked me am I real or they are dreaming. I mean it's not like I...."

Before he could complete what he was saying, he felt her body against him as she hugged him. Frankly, Kabir expected her to be little angry at him but she wasn't. Anyway he hugged her back and held her firmly in his arm. She too held him tightly.

They have hugged each other before as well but this was different because both of them held each other so tightly that it seemed like as if they both will be separated again if their grip on each other loosened. Both of cried while hugging each other and took in the warmth of each other. They broke apart soon and looked at each other with all the love for each other in their eyes.

He wiped her tears again with his hands and made her sit on his lap. Well she was the baby of her family. But now she's his baby too! She cuddled more into him and kept her head on his shoulder and said fearfully, "You won't leave me now na? You won't right? Please don't! You know it hurts so much to be without you. I can't imagine my life without now! I love you a lot Kabir, more than myself!"

Kabir caressed her hairs, gave her a small peck on her forehead and said guiltily, "No, I will never ever leave you. I'm very sorry for running away from you like this! I promise I won't do this again! It feels terrible to go away from you and this one time was enough. I know how much it hurts but I promise I won't make you go through it ever again. You have saved me from my miseries and brought me back to life. And I'm indebted to you for that. No matter what I'll do I'll always be indebted to you so I can't go away from you. I'll always be with you. You are my life now and I love you more than anyone has ever been capable of loving someone...!"

After this none of them said a single word. They just sat like that feeling each other's warmth and love and didn't know when sleep took over them. They knew that now no matter what happens they have each other and they'll be able to face everything that life throws at them!

Soon the night passed and it was morning. When Anaisha woke up, she found herself alone. She looked everywhere in her room for Kabir but she didn't found him. There was no sign of him and nothing could prove that he was here yesterday!

Did that mean last night's incidents, his coming back, his soothing words, all were just fragments of her imagination? She was dreaming everything and nothing was real?

Her heart was again filled with heaviness and unbearable pain. She sat on her bed wrapping her hands around her knees and kept her head above it, with tears falling down her eyes.

When Kabir entered the room with two coffee mugs and her favourite chocolate bar which Zaina gave him, he saw her crying. He had woken up some time back. They were sleeping in the same position which they were on yesterday night, she on his lap and he sitting with the support from the bedpost!

He looked at her sleeping peacefully in arms. He stroked her hairs and promised to himself that he would never give up on them. He'll try to make their relationship work and be with her as long as he could because he loved you her and would never ever hurt her. And her Mr. You-Drenched-My-Shirt will keep his promise Ms. Mindless-With-Big-Fat-Ego.

He made her lie comfortably, pulled the comforter over her and closed the lamp. He washed his face and decided to make coffee for her and then wake her up. So he went down to make coffee for her.

He went near her, kept the tray aside and cupped her face while asking with concern, "What happened Anaisha? Why are you crying?" Anaisha heard his voice and looked at him. She felt so much relieved to see him. It meant it was true. She wasn't dreaming.

She hugged and sighed, "I thought I was dreaming last night and you weren't here!"

He understood her situation and calmly told her, "I promised you, that I won't leave you ever now! I tried to do that once and I regret it. So please stop crying now. It hurts me to see you cry. I won't leave! I promise. We'll be together forever. I'll make that happen. Trust me!"

She smiled and said honestly, "I trust you more than my life!"

Finally they were united and promised to stay together forever! Well let's wait and see how long will their forever last?

But nevertheless, this is just the beginning for them. With time they will grow closer and better. And it will be lovely to see how they help each other overcome every obstacle in their life and fight to stay together!

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