Right. If you didn't know, I have serious anxiety and insomnia. They both are determined to stop me from sleeping. It's got to the point where I consistently don't sleep and if I do, it's plagued with nightmares. It really fucking sucks. Anyway, let me explain how I feel.

So, imagine anxiety is a really dark hole. You slip and fall in. You start to worry about the stupidest things, and it drives you insane. You are going insane, you can't concentrate on anything and you are perpetually falling. Then, you plug your earphones In and your music envelopes your body, making you feel safe and protected, like nothing can hurt you. Then, someone grabs your hand. It's a band member or musician from the music you are listening to. They pull you out of the hole and you lie, panting on the floor, regaining your sanity.

Then you open your eyes. You are laying in bed, your music playing from your phone beside you. You are alone, yet weirdly comfortable. The music is keeping you sane.

This is how I feel, and it's what I imagine when the anxiety gets me. Keep pulling through, you are strong. If you ever need someone to talk to, please, please don't hesitate to pm me. I'm here 24/7 (probably, if not, wait a couple of hours, insomnia will make sure you aren't ignored) and I can help.

-L X