"My heart is broken once again," Ram whispered to himself as he was browsing his Facebook account on his cellphone.  I was just seating beside him so, I overheard him.

"At bakit naman?" Nakitingin ako ss cellphone niya para makita kung anong binabasa niya roon.

He turned his glance to me and give me a faint smile.  His eyes windowed the sadness of his soul as if he's carrying the whole world on his shoulder.

"Whenever I'm checking my FB friend's status passing on my wall, I always read most of them wanted to give up their life," his baritone voice implied disappointment, "they should be thankful to God for they're still breathing," he continued.

My chest felt heavier as my eyes started to get wet.  "Stress sila sa kanilang buhay. Baka nabu-bully sa school. Baka hindi nila nararamdaman ang pagmamahal ng kanilang magulang.  Baka nabasted ng nililigawan o ipinagpalit ng kanilang jowa," may kahabaan kong paliwanag.

"No human suffering was greater than what our Lord Jesus suffered, just because Our Heavenly Father loves us so much,"  he uttered, now in serenely tone.

"Eh, tao lang tayo, hindi Diyos," may pagkapilosopo ko pang sambit. 

His lips as red as strawberries lifted for a captivating smile.  A smile that would make any girl sigh a heaved of  regrets, as his deep dimples on his right cheeks waved charmingly.  A smile that made my heart beat raggedly as if I was chased by ten k-pop stars.  Yet, the man in front of me was the only desired by my stubborn heart.

"Remember that Lord Jesus became human for Him to feel the pain and love like human do.  He loved His Father the most, His mother, His disciples, and all of us.  He redeemed us from our sin to be worthy of God's unconditional love.  He felt not just physical pains on the cross, but emotional as people mocked Him as a criminal."

Ayaw humiwalay ang aking paningin sa mga mapupulang niyang mga labi na tila ba napakalambot at napakatamis halikan, habang patuloy siyang nagsasalita.

"Do you think my personal story will inspired them to fight for their life?  I am just an ordinary human after all,"  he asked me, but my mind was already reminishing his story.

Ram was an unwanted child.  Iniwan lang siyang parang kuting ng kanyang teenger na ina sa may basurahan matapos siyang isilang.  His jerk father didn't have a dick to be responsibled to his mother after some sweet promises.  May nagdala sa kanya sa bahay-ampunan at hinanapan siya ng foster parents noong five years old pa lang siya.  His foster brother, Jethro was so mean with him.  He and his friends used to bully Ram as he was a skinny kid.  Doon sila nagkakilala, ipinagtanggol niya si Ram sa mga makukulit na bata. Mula noon nagi silang mag-bestfriend.  His foster mother was noce to him but not his dad.  He usually hit him when his dad was drunk especially when her foster mom died when he was ten.  He didn't reported his foster dad to his case worker as he doesn't want to be sent to another foster family. He said he love them already even they're not nice to Him, and he said that he doesn't want to leave her, his beatfriend. 

Doon nag-umpisang tumibok ang mura kong puso para sa aking kaibigan.  Magka-klase kami mula kinder hanggang ngayon, grade 12 na kami.  Noong 14 years old siya, hinanap niya ang kanyang ina at sa tulong ng Social Media ay nagkita sila.   Doon niya nalaman ang kuwentong pagtatapon sa kanya sa basurahan.  May sarili ng pamilya ang ina at hindi niya ito kinakitaan nang kahit konting pagkasabik't pagmamahal sa kanya.  Minimura pa nito ang kanyang ama.  He also searched his father.  He was a condemned criminal.  Nang malaman ng foster brother niya ang tungkol doon, lalo lamang siyang inaasar ng grupo nito.  Naaksidente pa ito na halos mag-agawbuhay.  Gayunpaman, hindi niya kinakitaan ng galit o kahit pagsuko sa buhay ang kaibigan.  Naalala pa niya ang sinabi nito nang minsan tanungin niya noong nasa ospital ito at 'di makalakad.

"Why do I need to give up my life?  God loves me so much. Though, my parents didn't want me.  I still got a foster parent who's still sheltering me.  I experience how to have a brother though he bullied me.  Looked at me, I escaped death though my legs were disabled for now.  Also, God gave me you.  You accepted me for who I am. And most, I know God still has a plan for me to be an inspiration to other."  She couldn't forget his eyes full of optimism and love. No traced of harted towards those who've hurt him.

Dahil doon lalong umasa ang aking puso na posibleng may pagtingin din siya sa akin nang higut pa sa isang matalik na kaibigan.  Lalo na't wala naman siyang niligawan sa mga babaeng halos maghubad na sa harap niya mapansin niya lamang.

"Hey, Gelai, you're spacing out again." He flicked me on nose, that brought me back from my deep revenie.

"Ano nga iyon?"  tanong ko.  Pakiwari ko kasi na may sinabi niya na hindi ko naintindihan.

"I was telling you a while ago that I was decided to..."  sadyang pinutol niya ang kanyang sinasabi. 

To court me?  No, need, Ram.  Just tell you like me and I'm all yours, kinikilig na sabi ng maliit na boses sa aking sisipan.

Ipinakita niya sa akin ang ipinost niyang FB status.

"I decided to go to seminary after grade 12.  I am destined to be a priest."

Now, you broke my heart, Ram!

Date written: 19 August 2019

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